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Ted, I had same problem-went to doctor she told me the stress had totally consumed me and change my lifestyle drastically.Blood pressure was through roof which was not normal for me.She wanted me to try lifestyle change before putting me on drugs.Caregiving is so emotionally draining,mixed with lack of sleep,fear of the unknown-lack of money and missed opportunities-probably everyone on here has high blood pressure.I was so frustrated trying to get my dad to eat and take care of himself,I couldn't catch myself going down that hill.The majority of people on here are in a age brackett that makes us high risk for heart problems.
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Ted, if you start to see patches of light in your eyes, it is definitely time you do something about your pressure. The first time it happened to me, I did not understand what it was. I saw the field in front of me so sunny and sparkling and beautiful! Then I understood it was NO-GOOD!
Miz, welcome to our club! My mother often tells me that I am "the worst thing that could have happened to her "(generally, when I wash her , or force her to change her diaper)
Patience, patience. Lots of lots of helluva patience!
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Hi guys Maxine here I hate darkness comming so early-I have gotten some men to chat with online dating site that is enough for now -i went to the dollar store for Christmas cards now have to get myself starting writing them out-I always include a note so it takes time. Yesterday would have been our aniversary-open one package from my husband-he had bought a lot ahead probably about 10 or so on which he had written the ocasion and since I am paying for them I decided to start opening them-of course they were all expensive and I could have used the money for other things than dust collectors I have been boxing and putting away so much stuff he bought over the years-it is sad he had to buy things-it was a mental illness.
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Hi Gang,

It's been a rough few days. Mom is being impossible! She is constantly searching for "something". She can't tell you what it is, but she know she is missing something and won't give up until she finds "it". Tonight she was searching for medicine that she claims she brought home from the Coumadin Clinic. Turns out it was a box of band-aids. While she is searching I try to ask her questions of about what she is searching for. Needless to say she gets pissed off and crying and I am about to lose my mind!

I officially cut back my hours to 30 hours a week. I can't afford to cutback any more and keep my health insurance.

I am feeling the black hole creeping closer and closer and I'm afraid it will soon consume me.

Bobbie, I love the story about KC. You two are a pair!

I really don't have anything positive to say tonight, so I better not depress everyone else.

Have a restful night everyone.

Diane
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Diane, I totally understand and can relate to you. Mom has those spells (not too often) where she is looking for things and is just basically out of her mind. Her new meds help a lot. Please stay away from that black hole. And remember if you do go in go in feet first so you can/will pull yourself back out. I'm glad you cut back on work. I hope it will help you. Things WILL get better. That's what I keep telling myself as others tell me that on here also. You're an angel. I love you, dear. Stay well.

love,
miz
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I'm not getting notifications today/tonight.

BTW, where is rip??!!
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rossella, it makes me sad that your mother says those things to you. You are such a good daughter. You're right...patience!!!!! And don't take it personally!! Easier said than done. :)
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K, I'm tired. Goin' to bed. Night.

love,
miz
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My dad had heart problems,the worst thing my dad ever said to me was about two months before he died.I had just left him at the hospital to come home to change sheets and get things ready for his return home.he was happy and loving when I left him,it was still daylight.He had to take ambulance home,it was dark when he got there.The ambulance guys rolled him in and he looked at me all crazy and said'What is SHE doing here?' I said remember I came home to get things ready.He exclaimed,'You are here to kill me,you've been wanting to do this for some time now,then he accused the hired help of conspiring with me.I did not know those ambulance drivers,they were very young,they knew less about what was going on than I did.Then they looked at me all weird.From the hospital until he got home,his testicals swelled up bigger than the biggest grapefruit you've ever seen,I knew his circulation had basically stopped-heart barely pumping-even though I knew the problem it still hurt like hell.Daughter was very upset,it was even harder for her to understand. This site has help me come to grips with some of the hurt and the unexplainables.It has also helped my daughter.Because ya'll are so deeply involved in the caregiving,ya'll sometimes forget you are truelly your parents hero-That was one long night-I was scared and very confused-brothers had already signed off on us,I waited for daylight and a empty hospital bed and hauled him back to hospital.He was back to normal in the morning-he remembered what he said to me but had no idea why he said it.I felt so bad for him.Caregiving is not for sissys.
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You are so right, tenny. Caregiving is not for sissys. But what choice do we have? Not only do we have to be strong for ourselves but we also have to be strong for those we care for. God it gets hard sometimes! Once again, my wish is that all here get a good night's sleep and once again are able to find humor in something tomorrow. And if not humor, some gratification for the sacrifice, the job we have taken on to care for our loved ones when noone else will. Love to all......
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Diane, How can we help you to stay out of that black hole?? I'm glad that you've cut your hours back at work. I hope that'll help you! You know that we're here for you! You can call on me anytime!!!

Ted, please go to a doctor! Ya gotta take care of you first! High blood pressure is nothing to let go! When we went to Vanderbilt a few weeks ago, the doctor told my husband, after looking at his MRI, that his high blood pressure had caused him to have several small stokes & that is now aggrivating the PD. Please don't wait!

miz, I'm sorry that you're having a difficult time & hope that things will get easier soon! I hope that you'll get some really restful sleep tonight! Got an email from Rip a little while ago. She's fighting a bug. Sure she'll be back soon.

jen, I'm sorry that you've had another ER visit. Hope everything is getting better now...I totally undertand what you were saying about the 'morons' not being able to come up with a number between 200 & 400! Duh!

Rossella, glad that you got some sleep! I'm sorry that your Mom says mean things to you too! Smart move of your helper to let the glass get smoky on the heater so you Mom can't see the fire!

Tenn, keep us updated on the den of vipers.

Linda, & Kuli, you're in my thoughts & hope that you're feeling better!

Kathy, SS, Pirate & Sunny hope you're all having an easy night & thal you'll get some much needed rest!

Maxine, I'm thinking about you & your anniversary. Today would have been my Mom & Dad's 66th anniversary. They were married 60 years! I talked to her a little while ago & she was crying. She misses him so much!

Bobbie, glad to know that Kitty is OK & can swim! Good to know if you have a cat on a boat! Glad that you two have bonded! Anchorage?!?! I'm SO jealeous!!! I've been there twice & LOVED it!!! Have you been before? It's one of the most beautiful places I've ever seen! Stuff is expensive there, though...a box of Little Debbie's was $4.00. They have to ship everything in. Stock up on stuff before you go. There is a little place to eat downtown that is called Scottie's, if they're still there, that had really good food. And if you can, take a day cruise in the interior. The one that we took stopped at their private island, called Fox Island, where we had fresh salmon that was caught that morning & we ate it for lunch...snag Kitty a treat for dinner! I hope that you'll have a great & safe trip!! Please keep us updated!

SO glad that Bobbie started this thread & we have a safe place to come when we're down & we have friends who understand what we're going through to encourage us! That means a lot!

Goodnight everybody!
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Hi! I guess every sick parent says horrible words to us. We force them to do things that they don't want to do. I guess it's part of the game, like the poop!
I had a wonderful dream, the other night (when I slept, I mean). I was with my ex boyfriend and "enjoying" myself. I was much younger and pretty. I had to go to work (always in my dream) and I was studying with my colleagues a very interesting new PC , a revolutionary one. Very stimulating. The place i was in, was beautiful... There were no mothers and no animals around. In short, exactly the contrary of my life now. A man .- friends - a stimulating life... Freedom!
it was difficult to wake up and go back to reality. It's ironical that my beautiful dreams have become my nightmares!
We are stronger than the black hole, though! Strong as hell
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Hey everybody, I sat around waiting for notifications that i never got last nite and the whole time you were all in here without me! Darn.
Rosella, I DO get those bright spots in my eyes! I didn't make the connection! So, alright, It's National Family Caregivers Month and I am going to focus on MYSELF for the rest of it. Mom is as fine as she is ever going to be, I know that she will slowly decline and that there is nothing I can do about that so NO GUILT! NONE! (yea, right)
Georgia, great idea, I will take myself done to the county health dept. and lay it all out for them. I was going to go to social services but I'll start at health dept and see where it leads.
I am TRULY sick and tired of this.
Happy Frikin' Nat. Family Caregivers Month everyone.
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Happy Frikin' Nat CG Month back Ted, & to all.
Nice to have you back Mr Ted! It's a pain to be sick, huh? Can't blame it on menopause I guess ...
hope it's just stress & nothing else.

There has been a bug hitting us in this area. Sore throat. low grade fever, swollen glands, aching ... no sinus stuff but certainly involves a snotty attitude.

Too bad the subject of caregiving didn't come up in the millions of dollars spent on campaigns.
When will this crisis life hit the media?

Someone, wise who started this thread, once encouraged everyone to write to Dr. Phil & similar talk show hosts.

I like "What would You Do" on Friday nights. I can see the scenario now ... a son or daughter trying to control an aggressive Alz parent in public. Who would ignore, stare or try to assist?
Assist a wheelchair or caning person with a door?
It's natural for me to wait a few moments if i notice a disability or parent with stroller nearby, to simply hold the door. Just like the gentlemanly instinct of yesteryear.
I still love that gesture!
My parents were always considersate that way.

Guess you won't be seeing any of us on the "Undercover Boss" show ...
Hmmmm .... who'd be the boss?

With every other goof ball on reality shows I think it's be a natural hit. Not everyone will be facing the same future or lifestyles of some of these pampered & entitltled people, the media attention encouraging their behavior .... I can watch for a few minutes before my appetite is gone along with my patience.

Many MicroSoft millionaire kids are coming of age around here. The local high schoool is known for the parking lot being over filled with the most expensive cars in the area. Certainly nicer than those parked in the teacher's lot.

Many truley possess the "get outta my way" attitude, often laced with drugs. Others are pretty nice.

Up the highway a few miles is a farming community where many of my friends live. There was a High School football game last week that very special. Special enough to hit over a million hits on You Tube & good media attention.

A local show, Evening Magazine, ran a clip last night about Ike Ditzenberger of Snohomish. The Downs Syndrome football player who took the field!!!
Try to find it! Heart warming!

I was very touched ... especially when a friend's daughter, Emily, appeared with Ike at the dance afterward. 3 years ago she had been in a car
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whoops ~ hit the tab rather than arrow ~

Emily was in a car wreck that killed her 16 YO sister on the morning of Christmas Eve. Dang holiday saddness ... she was in serous condition for quit a while but has really recovered.

Thanks for checking on me Miz ... Peach, Kathy, Linda, J, etc. for our fun conversations.
I've been kicking lots of dirt into the dark hole ... Miz - who were you telling to go in feet first so they can pull out ...
Remember ~ you all will have All of Us there to yank you out too!

Now... for the mysterious Bobbie ...
will she be our first Reality Star?

Cheers & try to stay well!

oh - before I return to my real life - Peach was telling me that her local Walgreen's offers Drive Thru Flu shots! Good thing to look into!

Patient Friday ...
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Thank you, rip. :)
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hide your toothbrush!
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It isn't the money it is the parenting. If the kids were raised by selfish, irresponsible jerks, chances are good they might turn into them themselves, if the parents however rich were generous and loving the kids usually turn out so. No guarantee of course, nature nurture and what ever people just are comes into play. But by 15 you are actively, if somewhat psychotically till about 20, choosing your behavior, so you can't blame others if you are not a nice person. The money just opens up ones opportunities to do good or bad in the world in more far reaching places I suppose. You can be a jerk in Tacoma or if you are a millionaire you can be a Jerk in Tacoma and London, MILAN, etc....Ugly American, comes in all income brackets.

Ramp guy came and said other job........then well now he is back. He must have had a thought on it and realized he needed to get this job done before taking on any others. My mom asked about that when we signed the contract, will they work through or take off in the middle of the job?....I had no idea. One more life experience point....mnnnhmmm
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Mom got her flu shot in the car. The caregiver service I use did it. I think it's a great idea.
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Ted I hope you get yourself to a doc soon-let us know how you are-we worry about you.
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Jen are you sure they are building a ramp at your house? Not the Pyramids? A gothic church?
Ted, the high pressure is not dangerous if you TREAT it in time. Of course, you don't have to neglect it, otherwise it becomes dangerous. If that is the diagnosis, they will give you nice pills to take every day and you'll be fine. But, don't pospone and don't delay! Of course when you are tired and stressed the pressure tends to increase. But, according to me, it has to be treated from a medical point of view! Please allow me a feminist joke: don't be a man! Men usually neglect their health and they think that everything will be alright even if they don't do anything about it.
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ps. one of my aunts reached almost 90 years of age, her health conditions were quite good, her head worked perfectly. She suffered from high pressure all her life and she took pills all her life!
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Looks like a ramp...or a very small parking garage...
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will you have a dedication ceremony?
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Maybe grandpa will pee on it. that should do it I think...
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Dad's been hallucinating again. Oxygen levels were a little low tonite so back on the oxygen and an extra water pill and hopefully things will be better in the morning. Poor guy - he's so afraid of going into congestive failure again but the truth is he gets so confused when he's in failure that he doesn't even know it's happening. I pray every night that he goes peacefully in his sleep without ever knowing what hit him. This slow, tortuous decline is so hard on him and on me! The black hole is closing in..........
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oh Kuli ... I hurt for you!
How are you holding up? Do you have any relief? Time to escape?
I know ... no escape for your mind ...
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No, no escape. He told me he didn't know how to find me last night so I assured him he could call out for me if he gets confused tonite. I did get up last night when he was up but he didn't tell me until this evening why he was up at 3:30am. He went to sleep with his oxygen on so maybe he'll be able to rest better tonite. Thanks for your well wishes, rip. Are you feeling better?
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Kuli -hope you and your Pa have a better night Ted listen to us women get to your doc my Mom is 91 almost 92 and takes a load of pills and my aunt is 93 and was told years ago she would not live to get old-guess she showed them. I am enjoying an email penpal from my online dating site he sounds like a dear man=probably will never meet but it is fun to email back and forth-do not forget to set your clocks back Sat night unless your state does not do that-I wish they di do away with that except I would forget to change the batteries in the smoke dectors.
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Kuli, I'm so sorry for you (and for all of us).
The decline is so slow, so painful, so stressful for them and everybody involved. What else can we do apart being there and being as reassuring as we can?
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