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Hi everyone... I have nothing to report on the grandma front....merciful god I didn't have to care for her today.
Spent most of day with hubby having his hand evaluated. No fractures just a tissue injury. He'll be off work until Monday to give the tendons and ligaments a rest.
My caregiving weight gain has tossed me under the bus today. Ah yeah *puffs out chest and smothers herself*. I've gained about 30 lbs now and have decided that at this point in my caregiving journey that I really need to buy a full length mirror. Being able to only see myself from only the chin up in a bathroom mirror has LIED to me. Screw you little bathroom mirror.
I'm a grown woman standing in the middle of Vickies secret crying my eyes out because they decided not to carry bras for women over 38" in the store. The insensitive clerk told me that people MY SIZE can still order online. Oh really? Good to know...thanks. People my size can still flip you off standing right in front of you. Then suddenly I fail.... my water works turn on and BAM I am a blubbering idiot. That really reduced the impact of my flying bird. You are NOT supposed to cry after you flip someone off. It is in the bird handbook.
Does anyone else have trouble with unplanned emotional outbursts?
I'm so frustrated all day by being placid and even tempered during caregiving. "That's ok gran, it is perfectly normal to poop on the floor, I'll get that" and I am crazy freaking calm saying that. So all it takes is one little insignificant thing by some other NON-elderly person to make me lose my temper, cry like a baby, or scream like an idiot. No one without gray hair is safe from my instability.
Thankfully my hubbie is level-headed and sensitive. Everything worked out in the end. He patiently sat while I was fitted in another store.
Today made me think really hard about my health and the sorry state I have let my body fall into. I don’t like it.
So many of us have health issues that stem from stress and the comfort behaviors we employ to try and calm ourselves down and grab some satisfaction. We take our elderly to the dentist and doctors, and pick up their medicines. We do that WAY before doing the same for ourselves.
Exercise is running back and forth to the bathroom, deep knee bends are to clean up crap, and lifting is the weight of the full laundry basket of pissy pants. Who the hell needs Jane Fonda anyway?
A glass of red wine and a bite of chocolate are supposed to be fantastic daily. A bottle of wine, a pound of chocolate and a pack of cigs..not so much. I do this to keep myself from thumb-sucking while rocking back and forth with wide eyes and wild hair in a corner. I do this to numb the pain and possibly to get some relaxation! The stress reaction syndrome, and flight or fight adrenalin needs to be put to sleep with a martini or several of them. But in the long run will it help me to outlive the person I’m caring for?
Technically if we outlive them by 5 minutes we win. But do we really win if caring for them has caused physical and emotional bankruptcy?
I went on a strict diet for 3 weeks. I didn't lose an ounce. Stress is like weight glue. Stress releases cortisol...cortisol helps you keep belly fat. Piss off cortisol....I hate you! Cortisol, Victoria, and all her angels can fly up a camel’s brown hairy bumm.
I am so tired of being a fat, unhappy, unhealthy second class citizen. I've allowed this to happen to myself, and I'm not going to take it anymore.
Tomorrow I am going to try and practice Yoga while grandma is shitting herself silly on the john and making perfect toilet tissue squares. Instead of eating that empty carb cookie (that I love) to fill up that time, I'm going to get busy in downward-facing-dog pose and warrior stance. I'm going to fill a snack bowl with celery and keep it handy in her fridge so if I feel the need to snack it will be there.
I don’t want to give up on myself. Not yet. I have the power to make my life better this year. Regardless of whether grandma lives on another 10 minutes or 10 years, I have to do something about my health NOW.
Jeez I hope I feel this passionate about my body tomorrow.
Boy boy boy! What shall we think of next? I'm sorry for all of you (us) who are as tired as hell. Wally's mom.... The story of the church is great. My mother too has some moments of lucidity lost in an ocean of nothing. I am sorry to say so, but it's the truth.... kisses to everybody
just checking in. Mom slept all day and night and is still sleeing. So I'm thinking this may be nearing the end of the line. I sat with her , held her hand, told her I love her, that I am happy that I have had this time with her, that she's a "good girl" (because I think she thinks I'm her mother). But...I am just wanting to stay in the present and not think about the future. I called my son and he had to ask, "so, what will you do next? where are you going to live? and all that "happy horseshit" I'm not sure I want to have anyone else around right now because I think that my emotions are so heightened right now that I will "yell at" anyone within earshot. I think I yell instead of crying. When I got divorced many years ago I was really upset, my family came over to comfort me, and I told everyone to "get the Fu**ing He** away from me , etc , etc." Phew , so I'll just take it one hour at a time, I guess. love ya, ssk
SSK, if you want to yell, scream and break things do it. If you want to cry, cry. If you get a sudden urge to laugh, go for the hysterical. This is a hard time and nothing else matters as much as letting yourself just react to it. I'll be thinking good thoughts for you all day, all week.
ssk, I am so sorry. omg you are doing everything right. You have created a peaceful space for your mama and you are a good good daughter. Remember to breathe. We love you and all the angels who are here and who have gone on before are with you both now. Our moms and daddies who have already arrived are there standing behind your mom's loved ones who are waiting for her. We know that you are the little girl and that you hurt so bad. Thank you for all of the support you have given me and us and we are right here for you right now and always. lovbob
ssk.....we've got your back darlin.........it's not only the sorrow, it's the anticipation of knowing it's going to happen, just not when or how.....that makes the waiting game harder. And don't even think about the after........our kids don't really know what this "thing" is because for the most part they haven't had to deal with it yet. My hubby put it aptly when my mom passed away.....it becomes scarier for us because "we are the next generation". If you feel the need to cry, yell, scream, whatever....well you just go right ahead......when my emotions are running as high as a jet that's what I do also. Now on the other hand when I get quiet and talk to you calmly and lower my voice, it would be wise to run. Keep us posted as you can and how you feel up to it......
HB..............I'm right there with you on the bra issue........I have to visit my favorite lingerie shop because I can't buy anything to fit me in stores. They don't sell 40DDD or 40G......my store keeps your size on file which is so nice...different bras run different sizes. They go pick out several, take you in the fitting room and help you get into it, adjust it....if it needs a tuck here or there they take care of that also. They will line the sides if needed.....last time I was there the one I bought just needed "pulled" together in the front for a perfect fit.....my girl just got her needle and thread out and did a little magic. The biggest problem is the cost..the first time I walked in the place I bought 3 bras and matching undies....to the tune of $500!!!!!!!!!!! I'm starting to whine now since hubby is retired....going to have to cut back and God knows I can't go without...........black my eyes every time I move.....................
Put the col to bed last night with her first dose of Ativan.....and of course she just had to know again what each pill was and what it did....so when I explained the Ativan and how it should work to regulate her moods and maybe she won't want to argue all the time, she pops off with "so I guess if I have an opinion different from yours I'm wrong"............pillow....where's the pillow? No.....you are entitled to your opinion....the problem is when ours differs from yours you get pissy with us!!!!!! Then she forgot that conversation and went on to something else. I'm thinking I would rather she have the Ativan during the day.....what good does it do if she just sleeps the effects off since she is on the lowest possible dose? And for some odd reason yesterday and so far today she has been changing herself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Did anyone notice if h*ll froze over?
I feel really bad, but who was it that asked about the fish oil? I've been taking it now for about a month and a half, twice a day and I have noticed my fingernails are growing and look great. Hubby said yep....it will do that. Used to wear them long and polished, then the last couple of years they would break and be soft and just wouldn't grow.....now they are stronger and I can wear polish again.....yippee.
Time to finish coffee and then clean house although I don't plan to go overboard....:)
I have a cartoon of Maxine that I used to keep on my desk at work....it now has a place of honor on the fridge..it says "Now that I'm older I thought it was great that I seemed to have more patience......turns out that I just don't give a sh*t"........:)
I am actually getting to leave the house today.. Wahoo. and see real people. I hope I don't follow them around in the library and just talk, talk talk talk, I'll be using the walker to get around, they may think I have escaped a home and try to return me. I am also getting so see Ruth today. I will let ya'll know how she is. Everyone have a good day, and if not a good day, then a just a day.. Later, love to all.
ssk- my dad does that , he would sleep for few days only to wake up eat and pee and crap sleep . then there be days where he just all perky and says oh hiiii , laughin giggling , yesterday i thought i saw death look on his face . something told me to skip evening meds , his body prob needs a break from all those meds . hell this mornin he s all smiles and said oh im so wet , i said yes u are ure loaded he giggled , ate his bfast happy man , ate fast too ! drank his choc milk and coffee , we talked for a while . now he s catnappin in the recliner . i thought yep he was just begin over medicactied with all those pills gosh ! maybe tnite i ll skip em again and see how he does for real . i ll stick with morning meds but as for evening , phhhtt he doesnt need them realy . ssk - are u still giving ur mom her meds ? maybe she needs a break from it . ? just a thought . i can not beileve ur son would say all those things to u , u dont need to hear that . u need to hear postive things , hope we re the postive thing for you . (((((hugs))))) raining gloomey day here , going to storm too , i was thinking maybe i shall clean out my closet . mmmm think i will do that , hope the power doesnt go out . you guys try to have a happy friday , xoxoxo
Hope everyone is OK ssk we are all here for you. we are all here period I guess. Thank God there is someplace to talk about shit no one else wants to hear. Stay Safe and sane all, Thinking of you all with hope and peace and respect others have no friggin clue about!
Ssk, Sometimes people can't handle their own emotions--sons thinking about their own Mother's mortality. I know my son has projected that when being with his Grandma. The wheels turn an they divert the attention. So, that's why WE are here for you--your Friends who love and support you all the way, sweet girl. Love , Christina
Miz: Hope your pissy mood has gone away and that you are feeling better. Did you get any new news on MIL? Bless hubby for scrubbing your floor. What an angel! How did the cake taste? He’s really racking up the honey do good points…wonder what he’ll redeem them for? *grins*
CUZ: Those jokes are so funny. I don’t know where you get them but every time I see your log in, I have to go borrow a depends from grandma.
JAM: Your outing with the COL sounded full. I shiver when I think of scraggly toenails. I had to cut Grandma’s last week because we don’t take her to the podiatrist anymore. OMG nasty…At least grandma doesn’t fight me to do it.
The restaurant sounded like a fiasco. I bet you were drained after the meal was over. Drained and over taking care of the COL. /hugs babe. You have it rough.
Ladeeda/Chaquita: I hope you have a fun time running people over with the walker and chatting ears off. Have a blast! You deserve it. I’m glad you are going to get to see Ruth today as well. Even though you can’t take care of her at the moment, it is good to keep the connection fresh and also to check on her condition. I know you are making notes on how her demeanor is at the NH so that you’ll have her on the proper meds when you bring her home.
Stillstanding: Welcome back from hoarding-ville…we missed you while you were gone.
Ted: Thanks for being my friend!
SSK: Thinking about you and hoping that you’re doing ok. I volunteer to be the “receptacle of screams” if you need to yell. HUGS HUGS HUGS!
Bobbie: You always know what to say.
To everyone else! LOVE YAS!...I’m working up another rant for later. I can feel it building. But for now the volcano known as Mount St. Headbanger is quiet.
Still pretty pissy today. Upset about the houses, MIL and today would have been my dad's 93rd birthday. He passed away at 87. I'm on my period so that doesn't help. Makes me tired and cranky. :D
Miz--let's go for a walk and talk, and breathe deeply, and drink lots of water today. I'm with you. The right house will show up. Remember that saying, "When the student is ready, the teacher appears?" Same goes for abodes. HB--I did NOT say "commodes". New caregiver is another gift from God. Thank you. We need the very best and patient help right now. Mother is a mess. I'm trying not to drink too much at 5 pm. In my waking delirium the other night I started composing a poem about the famous UTI, and thought I was gonna go crazy. Nevermind. Thinking of all you as I try to catch my brain and body up to whatever day this is. Love you ALL, HUGS, Christina
Well girlfriend, that is a bunch to be bothered by. I hope the perfect house presents for you. That would sure help you feel better. A milestone day for you. Happy birthday to your dad. I am sending up a birthday prayer for him.
Having days like these AND your TOTM? I was a holy terror then. My friends bought me a plaque that said...
I have PMS and a handgun...any questions?
I put a sticky on the bottom that added: I'll shoot the third person that asks me another dumb-ass question today. The second one just left...do you feel lucky today?
Variant for HB above The Occupational Safety and Health Administration (OSHA) has determined that the maximum load limit for my gluteus maximus is two people per day. You are the third person and have exceeded my capacity. So get off my a**. Helen
Hi guys PPj78 I bet many others wanted to tell him to shut up a friend of mine said AMEN when the Priest finally finished one day in church and it came out louder then she wanted to-and everyone looked at her. I have a joke not up to CUZ's standards. A little boy was shopping with his Mom and a man asked him where the Post Office was located and he gave really good directions and the man said I am a new Pastor here in town if you come to my church I will show you the way to heaven-the little boy chuckled and said come on you don't even know the way to the Post Office. Jam you can get Gin in your CVS in ours you can't even buy beer-our food stores hace some really bad wine. HD do not be so hard on yourself-a man in church was picking on me because I have not lost the weight I gained during the last years of of caregiving and this is from a druggie -usually you can be thin and a horrible caregiver or be a good caregiver and not take care of yourself. I wanted to deck a nurse that scoulded me for not getting check ups for 3 years when I was a caregiver.I do not like the way they are numbering the post now.
awwwww miz....so sorry to hear about mil....bless her heart....prayers going out for you and your family.
For HB................................................
EXERCISE FOR PEOPLE OVER 40.......:)
Begin by standing on a comfortable surface, where you have plenty of room at each side.
With a 5-lb potato bag in each hand, extend your arms straight out from your sides and hold them there as long as you can. Try to reach a full minute, and then relax.
Each day you'll find that you can hold this position for just a bit longer. After a couple of weeks, move up to 10-lb potato bags.
Then try 50-lb potato bags and then eventually try to get to where you can lift a 100-lb potato bag in each hand and hold your arms straight for more than a full minute. (I'm at this level.) After you feel confident at that level, put a potato in each bag.
HB, Maxine, another reason for gaining weight as a caregiver is many interrupted night's sleep. When your sleep cycle is messed up, makes you crave carbs and it feels like 'just eat anything and you'll feel better', and get fatter. We MUST take care of ourselves. I think we need to call Oprah and get her on this immediately. Bring national attention to the plight of angels all over the planet. I am not being funny. HB: I nominate you to write the letter. Can I get a second, please? Maybe ask Bobbie if she would please be the spokesperson? I don't mean to change the focus of today's stress areas, just putting an idea out there that I believe could be helpful for a lot of people. Like putting together a very large group of respite caregivers that come in to take over, then the regular family caregiver, (Deef, HB, Jam, ETC--for example. Everyone here) goes to a very large BOAT with spa, massage, dinners, wardrobe, makeovers, large bag of cash, etc. I'm thinking a combo of the School Teacher giveaway show and the Caregiver Reality show I wrote about a few weeks ago. "DREAM, when you're feeling blue, DREAM, that's the thing to do....I'm thinking of all of you in this. And, I want to see Ted with green goo on his face and cucumber slices on his eyes. Miz, SSK, everyone. Loving prayers all day for you. Christina
HB was it you that was asking about the horse linament? If so, and you can't find I would be more than happy to send you a jar. I could not live without the stuff. An added plus is that the smell will keep some people away from you....lol. (smells something like Vicks).
Grandkids spending the night....Hubby and SIL are butchering 3 hogs tomorrow. They enjoy it.....I hate it! Mom and Pap are napping so think I'm just going to lay here on my bed and enjoy the quiet until the kiddos get here!!!!
Bonnie, I wanted to thank you for being so brave and bringing attention to how stressful being a caregiver can be. i know that there are many people who read this thread and are feeling and experiencing the same issues as you and me and many others. You are a true angel and I hope that you will find some comfort in the fact that you are helping folks cope by telling the truth. Bless you. lovbob
I've read where many of you are having trouble with urine odors. This is the perfect solution: mix one part white vinegar with two parts water and use it on everything. Not only does it get rid of odors, but it also kills as many germs as bleach. You smell the vinegar for a short time after cleaning, but it quickly goes away. Learned this from Dr. Oz and it really works!!!
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I have nothing to report on the grandma front....merciful god I didn't have to care for her today.
Spent most of day with hubby having his hand evaluated. No fractures just a tissue injury. He'll be off work until Monday to give the tendons and ligaments a rest.
My caregiving weight gain has tossed me under the bus today. Ah yeah *puffs out chest and smothers herself*. I've gained about 30 lbs now and have decided that at this point in my caregiving journey that I really need to buy a full length mirror. Being able to only see myself from only the chin up in a bathroom mirror has LIED to me. Screw you little bathroom mirror.
I'm a grown woman standing in the middle of Vickies secret crying my eyes out because they decided not to carry bras for women over 38" in the store. The insensitive clerk told me that people MY SIZE can still order online. Oh really? Good to know...thanks. People my size can still flip you off standing right in front of you. Then suddenly I fail.... my water works turn on and BAM I am a blubbering idiot. That really reduced the impact of my flying bird. You are NOT supposed to cry after you flip someone off. It is in the bird handbook.
Does anyone else have trouble with unplanned emotional outbursts?
I'm so frustrated all day by being placid and even tempered during caregiving. "That's ok gran, it is perfectly normal to poop on the floor, I'll get that" and I am crazy freaking calm saying that. So all it takes is one little insignificant thing by some other NON-elderly person to make me lose my temper, cry like a baby, or scream like an idiot. No one without gray hair is safe from my instability.
Thankfully my hubbie is level-headed and sensitive. Everything worked out in the end. He patiently sat while I was fitted in another store.
Today made me think really hard about my health and the sorry state I have let my body fall into. I don’t like it.
So many of us have health issues that stem from stress and the comfort behaviors we employ to try and calm ourselves down and grab some satisfaction. We take our elderly to the dentist and doctors, and pick up their medicines. We do that WAY before doing the same for ourselves.
Exercise is running back and forth to the bathroom, deep knee bends are to clean up crap, and lifting is the weight of the full laundry basket of pissy pants. Who the hell needs Jane Fonda anyway?
A glass of red wine and a bite of chocolate are supposed to be fantastic daily. A bottle of wine, a pound of chocolate and a pack of cigs..not so much. I do this to keep myself from thumb-sucking while rocking back and forth with wide eyes and wild hair in a corner. I do this to numb the pain and possibly to get some relaxation! The stress reaction syndrome, and flight or fight adrenalin needs to be put to sleep with a martini or several of them. But in the long run will it help me to outlive the person I’m caring for?
Technically if we outlive them by 5 minutes we win. But do we really win if caring for them has caused physical and emotional bankruptcy?
I went on a strict diet for 3 weeks. I didn't lose an ounce. Stress is like weight glue. Stress releases cortisol...cortisol helps you keep belly fat. Piss off cortisol....I hate you! Cortisol, Victoria, and all her angels can fly up a camel’s brown hairy bumm.
I am so tired of being a fat, unhappy, unhealthy second class citizen. I've allowed this to happen to myself, and I'm not going to take it anymore.
Tomorrow I am going to try and practice Yoga while grandma is shitting herself silly on the john and making perfect toilet tissue squares. Instead of eating that empty carb cookie (that I love) to fill up that time, I'm going to get busy in downward-facing-dog pose and warrior stance. I'm going to fill a snack bowl with celery and keep it handy in her fridge so if I feel the need to snack it will be there.
I don’t want to give up on myself. Not yet. I have the power to make my life better this year. Regardless of whether grandma lives on another 10 minutes or 10 years, I have to do something about my health NOW.
Jeez I hope I feel this passionate about my body tomorrow.
Love to all…Chat tomorrow!
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What shall we think of next?
I'm sorry for all of you (us) who are as tired as hell.
Wally's mom.... The story of the church is great. My mother too has some moments of lucidity lost in an ocean of nothing.
I am sorry to say so, but it's the truth....
kisses to everybody
But...I am just wanting to stay in the present and not think about the future.
I called my son and he had to ask, "so, what will you do next? where are you going to live? and all that "happy horseshit"
I'm not sure I want to have anyone else around right now because I think that my emotions are so heightened right now that I will "yell at" anyone within earshot. I think I yell instead of crying. When I got divorced many years ago I was really upset, my family came over to comfort me, and I told everyone to "get the Fu**ing He** away from me , etc , etc." Phew , so I'll just take it one hour at a time, I guess.
love ya, ssk
I am holding you in my heart this morning. There are no magic words,to ease your pain. Just know that you are loved, and I will be thinking of you.
omg you are doing everything right. You have created a peaceful space for your mama and you are a good good daughter.
Remember to breathe.
We love you and all the angels who are here and who have gone on before are with you both now.
Our moms and daddies who have already arrived are there standing behind your mom's loved ones who are waiting for her.
We know that you are the little girl and that you hurt so bad.
Thank you for all of the support you have given me and us and we are right here for you right now and always.
lovbob
HB..............I'm right there with you on the bra issue........I have to visit my favorite lingerie shop because I can't buy anything to fit me in stores. They don't sell 40DDD or 40G......my store keeps your size on file which is so nice...different bras run different sizes. They go pick out several, take you in the fitting room and help you get into it, adjust it....if it needs a tuck here or there they take care of that also. They will line the sides if needed.....last time I was there the one I bought just needed "pulled" together in the front for a perfect fit.....my girl just got her needle and thread out and did a little magic. The biggest problem is the cost..the first time I walked in the place I bought 3 bras and matching undies....to the tune of $500!!!!!!!!!!! I'm starting to whine now since hubby is retired....going to have to cut back and God knows I can't go without...........black my eyes every time I move.....................
Put the col to bed last night with her first dose of Ativan.....and of course she just had to know again what each pill was and what it did....so when I explained the Ativan and how it should work to regulate her moods and maybe she won't want to argue all the time, she pops off with "so I guess if I have an opinion different from yours I'm wrong"............pillow....where's the pillow? No.....you are entitled to your opinion....the problem is when ours differs from yours you get pissy with us!!!!!! Then she forgot that conversation and went on to something else. I'm thinking I would rather she have the Ativan during the day.....what good does it do if she just sleeps the effects off since she is on the lowest possible dose? And for some odd reason yesterday and so far today she has been changing herself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Did anyone notice if h*ll froze over?
I feel really bad, but who was it that asked about the fish oil? I've been taking it now for about a month and a half, twice a day and I have noticed my fingernails are growing and look great. Hubby said yep....it will do that. Used to wear them long and polished, then the last couple of years they would break and be soft and just wouldn't grow.....now they are stronger and I can wear polish again.....yippee.
Time to finish coffee and then clean house although I don't plan to go overboard....:)
Love and Hugz!!!!!
JAM
I am also getting so see Ruth today. I will let ya'll know how she is. Everyone have a good day, and if not a good day, then a just a day.. Later, love to all.
ate his bfast happy man , ate fast too ! drank his choc milk and coffee , we talked for a while . now he s catnappin in the recliner . i thought yep he was just begin over medicactied with all those pills gosh ! maybe tnite i ll skip em again and see how he does for real . i ll stick with morning meds but as for evening , phhhtt he doesnt need them realy .
ssk - are u still giving ur mom her meds ? maybe she needs a break from it . ? just a thought .
i can not beileve ur son would say all those things to u , u dont need to hear that . u need to hear postive things , hope we re the postive thing for you . (((((hugs)))))
raining gloomey day here , going to storm too , i was thinking maybe i shall clean out my closet . mmmm think i will do that , hope the power doesnt go out .
you guys try to have a happy friday , xoxoxo
Love , Christina
CUZ: Those jokes are so funny. I don’t know where you get them but every time I see your log in, I have to go borrow a depends from grandma.
JAM: Your outing with the COL sounded full. I shiver when I think of scraggly toenails. I had to cut Grandma’s last week because we don’t take her to the podiatrist anymore. OMG nasty…At least grandma doesn’t fight me to do it.
The restaurant sounded like a fiasco. I bet you were drained after the meal was over. Drained and over taking care of the COL. /hugs babe. You have it rough.
Ladeeda/Chaquita: I hope you have a fun time running people over with the walker and chatting ears off. Have a blast! You deserve it. I’m glad you are going to get to see Ruth today as well. Even though you can’t take care of her at the moment, it is good to keep the connection fresh and also to check on her condition. I know you are making notes on how her demeanor is at the NH so that you’ll have her on the proper meds when you bring her home.
Stillstanding: Welcome back from hoarding-ville…we missed you while you were gone.
Ted: Thanks for being my friend!
SSK: Thinking about you and hoping that you’re doing ok. I volunteer to be the “receptacle of screams” if you need to yell. HUGS HUGS HUGS!
Bobbie: You always know what to say.
To everyone else! LOVE YAS!...I’m working up another rant for later. I can feel it building. But for now the volcano known as Mount St. Headbanger is quiet.
Hugs to all
HB
Remember that saying, "When the student is ready, the teacher appears?" Same goes for abodes.
HB--I did NOT say "commodes".
New caregiver is another gift from God. Thank you.
We need the very best and patient help right now. Mother is a mess. I'm trying not to drink too much at 5 pm.
In my waking delirium the other night I started composing a poem about the famous UTI, and thought I was gonna go crazy. Nevermind.
Thinking of all you as I try to catch my brain and body up to whatever day this is. Love you ALL, HUGS, Christina
Well girlfriend, that is a bunch to be bothered by. I hope the perfect house presents for you. That would sure help you feel better. A milestone day for you. Happy birthday to your dad. I am sending up a birthday prayer for him.
Having days like these AND your TOTM? I was a holy terror then. My friends bought me a plaque that said...
I have PMS and a handgun...any questions?
I put a sticky on the bottom that added: I'll shoot the third person that asks me another dumb-ass question today. The second one just left...do you feel lucky today?
Love to you!~HB
The Occupational Safety and Health Administration (OSHA) has determined that the maximum load limit for my gluteus maximus is two people per day. You are the third person and have exceeded my capacity. So get off my a**.
Helen
I was going to say something about wondering when to "suck it up" or "just let it out" ...
Now I'm dumbstruck. I've been there with the cancer call.
We are here for you, girl.
Tons of prayers are being sent up for MIL. I'll even get grandma to send some up straight to Gods ears for you.
Hugs, hugs and hugs.
Love HB
For HB................................................
EXERCISE FOR PEOPLE OVER 40.......:)
Begin by standing on a comfortable surface, where you have plenty of room at each side.
With a 5-lb potato bag in each hand, extend your arms straight out from your sides and hold them there as long as you can. Try to reach a full minute, and then relax.
Each day you'll find that you can hold this position for just a bit longer. After a couple of weeks, move up to 10-lb potato bags.
Then try 50-lb potato bags and then eventually try to get to where you can lift a 100-lb potato bag in each hand and hold your arms straight for more than a full minute. (I'm at this level.)
After you feel confident at that level, put a potato in each bag.
Love and Hugz...
JAM
We MUST take care of ourselves.
I think we need to call Oprah and get her on this immediately. Bring national attention to the plight of angels all over the planet. I am not being funny.
HB: I nominate you to write the letter.
Can I get a second, please?
Maybe ask Bobbie if she would please be the spokesperson?
I don't mean to change the focus of today's stress areas, just putting an idea out there that I believe could be helpful for a lot of people. Like putting together a very large group of respite caregivers that come in to take over, then the regular family caregiver, (Deef, HB, Jam, ETC--for example. Everyone here)
goes to a very large BOAT with spa, massage, dinners, wardrobe, makeovers, large bag of cash, etc. I'm thinking a combo of the School Teacher giveaway show and the Caregiver Reality show I wrote about a few weeks ago.
"DREAM, when you're feeling blue, DREAM, that's the thing to do....I'm thinking of all of you in this. And, I want to see Ted with green goo on his face and cucumber slices on his eyes.
Miz, SSK, everyone. Loving prayers all day for you. Christina
HB was it you that was asking about the horse linament? If so, and you can't find I would be more than happy to send you a jar. I could not live without the stuff. An added plus is that the smell will keep some people away from you....lol. (smells something like Vicks).
Grandkids spending the night....Hubby and SIL are butchering 3 hogs tomorrow. They enjoy it.....I hate it! Mom and Pap are
napping so think I'm just going to lay here on my bed and enjoy the quiet until the kiddos get here!!!!
You are a true angel and I hope that you will find some comfort in the fact that you are helping folks cope by telling the truth.
Bless you.
lovbob