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Miz, I never heard before a couple of weeks ago that your mil was sick. How long have you known? Don't you think that individuals KNOW when they are dying? The soul, or whatever the "I AM" is, knows on a deeper level if they will survive the ordeal, or pass on.
Maybe I should not interject this serious subject on Gross Out?
I hope for her best outcome, and then hope that YOU will get a break from continuous grieving. Very sorry for all the loss around you. Love and Hugs, Christina
Maxine--I don't know about "good works" counting for anything. Lots of questionable people do a good thing once in a while, and none of us is good all the time. I guess I believe in pure motivation more than anything else. But you're good, and what you endured will be avenged. Probably already. We hope:)
Hey guys, HE knows our hearts and everyone else's...We strive to do good constantly, others, well, look at some of our stories, it's usually a one time shot! :)
Hi everybody I couldn't even open the thread for the last 3 days. During the last month I had a "passage" of work which happens as frequently as Halley's comet and I had to take it because I had to pay lots of bills and taxes and so on. (I paid half of them, which is already good). Practically I worked twice as much as I work in general, that is: no sleep - too many cigarettes - I don't know how I could do it. Things are going back to normal from now on. It was impossible to read all the posts that I have lost, so I read the last ones and I picked some here and there. I understood that Miz's MIL has come back home from the hospital and the situation is not good. I am really really sorry: I hope she won't suffer too much. And I read a good new , Nik is back! We need good news now and then. I am sorry I could not read all the posts, so I don't know very well what happened to the rest of you. Hope to get back on track the next days. I watched the tragedy of Japan tonight on TV and I am worried about Nancy's brother who lives in Hawaii.... I hope he jumps on a plane and goes to CA. (Nancy is my friend/sister from USA) I have to go to sleep I am very very tired. Its 10.20 p.m. here... Good afternoon to you
:) My dear Rose, forget Hawaii and California it hit there too! Share some more of that beautiful landscape around you! Have the cows learned how to drive yet? LOL
Yeah, Jen here, we are 500 miles inland in Washing ton and you have to get past two mountain ranges and the long plain of Eastern Washington. Rip is closer, but I think pretty high up from photos. I am thinking Puget sound may rise a few feet do some sloshing. Been watching the News. God help those poor people in Japan. Tokyo is fine but the low lying farm lands got inundated, and infrastructure is down. Time to call out the military and get those people out. Guess Japan got that big one they were waiting for, It creates more instability on the Pacific Rim when a big quake happens, not really letting of steam so much as adding greater pressure to the Continental Plates. So, if it doesn't quiet off it may make a mess in CA on New Zealand again Pacific coast countries, If Mt Rainer were to go, it would take out Washington State and part of Canada. Such is life on the geologic time table....God help the people in the midst of it...
Hope all are well, rip and Cristina miz and mil. Deef and the work situ.
I am thinking Walmart will not be calling me back, and Safeway is out...Next...Next...
Rip report from north east of Seattle. Thanks for your concern, guys! Seattle is on an inland sound which doesn't get much action. The coastal towns were on the local news all day interviewing & reshowing a few large waves slapping the beach. Nice they have evacuation areas. Full of happy people mugging for the cameras & sharing their wisdom.
My place is located a few miles from a recently discovered fault line. Everyone is abuzz wondering if it will be triggered.
hey rip, is Puget Sound gonna get some o that slosh-age do you know? We have one of then leetle faults about three blocks down and two over to the east. It was that one when we had the earthquake a couple years ago, well maybe 7 now. We are on Basalt so it wasn't a rummbbler, rocker, tumbler, shaker or shimmier just a huge FFFOOOMMMM!!!!! like an explosion, was pretty scary. Hope all is well there with you...
HI Jen ~ I think the sound is sloshless. I'm up on a big rock hill. What concerns me is I hear many developers scalped the forests, scattered some top soil, built the homes, then added some trees - sold & ran. The surface we sit on is shaky so if something hits we all may slide downhill. Always something - Poor Japan!
I am in a rotten mood...most of which has nothing to do with my aging parents. It's a long story, but one that has affected me to the core. I am trying to lay low and allow my emmotions to simmer down a little, before I do anything about the situation, but I will be doing something...just not sure what, yet???? I really pray I don't decide to just give up.
What's going on Bonnie? I'm in a similar mood over someone trying to yield insignificant power. Really stupid stuff but I'm trying not to put her in her place. She would lose.
You, girl, are our friend & companion. We need you ~ Share more???
Sounds like we all have our own issues to deal with again. I just had yet another bedtime showdown with mom. She is so freaking hyper sensative to touch that everything becomes an ordeal. I guess I am just tired after a very hectic week at work and just not in the mood to deal with her crap tonight.
I haven't posted in quite sometime since I'm so freaking tired in the evening. I am swamped at work and trying to keep my head above water. Sorry I've been MIA.
Thanks for letting me vent. I hope each of you will have a quiet night and can get some rest.
As we "Silver Surfers" (older folks on the Internet) know, sometimes we have trouble with our computers. I had a problem yesterday, so I called Eric, the eleven year old next door, whose bedroom looks like Mission Control and asked him to come over. Eric clicked a couple of buttons and solved the problem. As he was walking away, I called after him, 'So, what was wrong? He replied, 'It was an ID ten T error.' I didn't want to appear stupid, but nonetheless inquired, 'An, ID ten T error? What's that? In case I need to fix it again.' Eric grinned.... 'Haven't you ever heard of an ID ten T error before? 'No,' I replied. 'Write it down,' he said, 'and I think you'll figure it out.' So I wrote down:
A little silver-haired lady calls her neighbor and says, "Please come over here and help me. I have a killer jigsaw puzzle, and I can't figure out how to get started." Her neighbor asks, "What is it supposed to be when it's finished?" The little silver haired lady says, "According to the picture on the box, it's a rooster." Her neighbor decides to go over and help with the puzzle. She lets him in and shows him where she has the puzzle spread all over the table. He studies the pieces for a moment, then looks at the box, then turns to her and says, "First of all, no matter what we do, we're not going to be able to assemble these pieces into anything resembling a rooster." He takes her hand and says, "Secondly, I want you to relax. Let's have a nice cup of tea, and then," he said with a deep sigh .............
Cuz, ID ten T, Mind if I use that one? It may become my new username
Rip, What's the sloshiosity today? sorry I missed you last nite, I think it may be time for another respite for me already, feeling worn down and confused and frustrated again. It was probably a bad idea to let myself have that little taste of good, solid, fun- only to wake up back at the grind.
Ok, gotta pull myself together. Clean the house, play in the kitchen, do some weeding in the garden. - stop torturing myself about the life i could be living and make the best of the one I got. Blah, Blah, Blah. The worst part of it all is that, when the time comes, i don't know that I'll be able to jump right in and actually live the life I dream about. As I've written before, I'll be late-middle-aged, broke, alone and homeless. I know I should be trying to find a way to begin doing something now so that I can just transition into a life of some sort later, bit sometimes it seems that I can't find the balance between MY life and caring for mom. If anyone has any suggestions......
Checking in while enjoying my coffee and the sunshine.
This morning we all sound like when a bunch of females living in the house together have synchronized hormones.....and they are all raging at the same time. I don't mean you are a female Ted...but you have hormones too sweetie.....:)
I would like to be able to tell all of you to just walk away from people who are trying to terrorize your life, unfortunately we can't do that with the one (s) we are caring for. The ones that you work with? Just smile and walk away.....it will drive them crazy wondering what is going on in your mind and what you may be doing.....I used to do that with a little weenie who was such a cocky little rooster and it drove him crazy.....he would constantly ask how I was doing and what I was smiling for...oh no reason, just feel like smiling......
Maybe it's also the change of seasons that are affecting some of us......after the dentist yesterday I was standing outside on the deck, 70 degrees thank you Lord, and looking around at the trees and the geese on the pond...they come back every year to lay their babies.....the daffodils and tulips are sprouting...and thinking how pleasant it was that new life is growing and how soon everything is going to be green and I can plant the garden................then I looked at hubby and said "gotta go change the col's wet pants".................WOW talk about a downer and the gigantic, shimmering ugly black void presented itself right in front of my face. But then I decided I could not allow this to happen...it's not fair to me that my mood is terrorized and not fair of me to take my frustration out on her...so I treated her like the baby she was acting....I didn't let the fact that she had fixed and fed bacon to the dog bother me, I didn't go berserk to find out she hadn't taken her morning meds....just gave them to her.....didn't berate her for not changing wet pants while we were gone....didn't tell her she had mascara globbed all over her eye lids........we did however discuss the need to have the volume of the tv at supersonic levels....fed her chinese take-out.....told her I would come down and put her to bed when she fell asleep on the couch ...then I made sure the rest of my evening went well. Played on the computer and watched tv with my butt plastered on my bed...Heaven...:) and of course rum and coke.
I have thought a lot about the ugliness that presented itself into my life again when Mom passed away in Dec and I WILL NOT allow it to terrorize my life anymore. I have ultimate control over how I feel, the decisions I make and how I will handle those. My 2 daughters and my sister are just three other people that exist in this world....I hope they all find happiness and someday I hope they wake up and realize they could have been a part of my life and what I could have offered to them.
Ted and Jen.....I don't know what your talents and expertise are...but have you considered contacting companies who would allow you to work from home? My oldest sister had to return to work and she is a "medical billing specialist" and last time I spoke with her she is in the office 3 or 4 days a week, but she works from home on Fridays. Several years ago I was thinking about doing medical billing and now they have classes you can take because you must know the ICD codes and the ins and outs of Medicare but you can do all the work from home. The program you use connects with whatever company and you get all the information for billing right in front of you. You might see if there are smaller companies or even doctor's offices that need records transferred over to computer....that could be done from home also. Just a couple of ideas and from there maybe you can come up with something to help you out.
Blind doggie is awake now and I just bet she needs to see the outside world.
Love and Hugz to all..........and please try to take a few minutes today for yourself.....even if you have to hide in the bathroom.
Jam, It's good to hear your positive attitude! I try very hard to keep one but...
I've tried to find some work at home stuff but can't seem to find any legitimate, if anyone has any sources?
and about the male/female thing? the way I've been living for the last few years doesn't really leave room for that kind of distinction! and I don't think it's just a guy thing, I think a lot of us single caregivers have to make that sacrifice along with all the others.
As far as plannin now for the way life will be when our caregivee passes, I, for one can't do it. I just want to be in the present and not worry about being, lonely, broke, etc. I have developed a belief that when the person is ready the situation will present itself. And It'll be a good one! Naive, maybe, but I'm hanging onto it. I have noticed, however, that I am positive in the morning and get thinking negative in the evening. I must be getting old if I am now one of those morning people up at the crack of dawn!
Good comment Jam! I know a lady who does the medical billing at home. Works great for her.
Some companies are outsourcing their calls to home offices. I called Comcast & heard a faint "meow" in the background. I had to ask. The pleasant lady said she was working at home! After 5 years in the call center & a new baby it was an ideal situation. I walk with an insurance agent who also works from home.
Ted, the plotters await ... Remember, I can ship lettering for you to apply at the marinas. Edge Print too.
Good Morning, Everyone. If anyone has tried to text me, my phone is on the fritz. I was taking a shower yesterday and hubby called so I answered it IN the shower and oops!!, it's F'd up. It won't hold a charge and junk. Guess it's time for a new one.
MIL is coming home this afternoon. They delivered the hospital bed, oxygen, etc. yesterday. Thank God my BIL's wife has medical education cause the guy explained it all very fast. I think we were probably his last stop and it was Friday, etc. etc. Anyway, he left detailed instructions.
MIL and FIL and the three kids spent the day together yesterday. They had some fun and took some pics that I know we all will be glad to have down the line. Then we went out to dinner and then to Wal-Mart to get all the stuff for MIL here at home.
About the noni juice, I could only find it at health food stores or on line and it's like $24.00 for a quart. Hubby is gonna get some today.
Christina, this has been going on for about a month I guess. I am losing track. So so sad. I know she will be happy to be home and we are all trying to make it as comfortable and comforting for her as possible.
Thank You All for your prayers, well wishes and good thoughts. It means so much to me to have all of you. Love yous.
Miz, there's an internist that's on tv w/ his wife... can't remember his name right now but I'll keep a lookout. He sells and talks alot about the noni juice. I told ya it's expensive!
Miz, what? they don't make little shower caps for our cells. LOL I'm with you, I accidentally put cell phone in the washing machine, the agent vouldn't stop laughing so she decided to send me another one for free! Have a great day!
LOL still!! Shower caps for our cells. That's a great idea!!
Ya, we know the noni juice is expensive but at this point we don't care. Wanna try anything possible. Sounds like it might help her and I sure don't think it will hurt her.
K, gotta go outside and have a smoke and then keep cleaning.
I just started reaading this thread from 2010 and I can't thank you all enough for making me laugh right out loud. I've even had to go outside and share with my husband. My mother lives with us, at my husband's suggestion. I always knew this would happen, but I really thought my dad would out-live my mom. She has had a lot happen to her in the past ten years - brain aneurysm and sstroke, breast cancer, hospitalizations for dehydration and weight loss. The past year she has given up walking - the exercising was too painful and she hasn't had the best balance in the world since the aneurysm. I use a transport chair in the house since it is narrow and so lightweight. In 2010 the group talked about 'Barnacle Butt', disgusting eating habits and the fights about baths. I am going through the same things now. I was never able to have children, bit I got my first one at the age of 55. I am now 59 with an 83 year old - going on 3. She only wants me to help her do anything, will HOLLER for me just to see if I am around. I do more laundry and floor cleaning than ever. All my mother does now is eat, sleep, and poop - just like my latest great-nephew. I have learned not to correct her so much, but it is getting hard trying to explain why the Indian woman hasn't come to see the afghan I made 30 years ago for her. I also treasure early morning and late evening when she is in bed. She wakes me up 2-7 times a night to pee, so I am always tired. It is very difficult to get anything else done around the house for running her to the bathroom every 15 mins. Sorry to ramble on so much, but my sisters just keep quiet if I vent to them. They don't want to have me ask them for anything. Thanks for your understanding. I must at least get lunch up off the floor now.
Rossella good to have you back.Here is New York state we are near a fault line so where did they put the necular plant-you guessed. Bonnie any action you take will make you feel better if it is only deciding what you are going to-it will give the power to you-my husband's phone call get me upset so let the calls go to the answering machine which was turned down low. Ted when your caregiving days are over something will come your way.
Good Morning (ahem afternoon) from the So Cal coast of CA. I am okay, not enough tsunami to do any real damage to so cal. There was some up north around San Fran. But the tsunami did affect the coastal waters around here...they showed it on the local news the erie swells and muddy bottoms at the marina's around here. King Harbor in Redondo Bch and Marina Del Rey. Sadness goes out to the folks of Japan, my heart and hope goes out to all survivors. Not they have them f'n nuke facilities ready to melt down. Geesh not good, the winds will bring that radiation across the sea to Hawaii and West Coast of US. Just flipping great...always been against them ever since Chernobyl and 3-Mile Isle and "The China Syndrome" did no one pay atention? We need to stop all poluting energy sources like Platforms and nuke cookers...go with clean wind, solar and wave power!!!! Stop working on how to make a flipping cell phone fancier every sec and work on world clean energy - we have our prioritys wrong in the greed driven world. I read plenty of sci-fi's as a teen to see the sci-fi writers knew our demise a long time ago...I can see many of it unfolding so flippin sad.
Well mommy dearest has stopped the sundowning and calling me incessently the last 2 days. The hospice nurse finally came over and I discussed the sundowning and I got a prescript for Haldol...which is a stronger sedative, but did not use it last night due to she was so quiet. She pulled out this booklet that I had not read about the whole dying process and it describes about them getting quiet and withdrawing and all kinds of stuff had to stop reading cause I was getting really depressed. Between this and the entire sad Japan disaster it all seems so depressing. So this morning she is quiet...I am going to go get her up and freshen her up for the day...let her lounge long enough it is 12:40 here now. Be back on after done with the clean up.
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I hope for her best outcome, and then hope that YOU will get a break from continuous grieving. Very sorry for all the loss around you.
Love and Hugs, Christina
It was impossible to read all the posts that I have lost, so I read the last ones and I picked some here and there. I understood that Miz's MIL has come back home from the hospital and the situation is not good. I am really really sorry: I hope she won't suffer too much. And I read a good new , Nik is back! We need good news now and then.
I am sorry I could not read all the posts, so I don't know very well what happened to the rest of you.
Hope to get back on track the next days.
I watched the tragedy of Japan tonight on TV and I am worried about Nancy's brother who lives in Hawaii.... I hope he jumps on a plane and goes to CA. (Nancy is my friend/sister from USA)
I have to go to sleep I am very very tired. Its 10.20 p.m. here...
Good afternoon to you
Hope all are well, rip and Cristina miz and mil. Deef and the work situ.
I am thinking Walmart will not be calling me back, and Safeway is out...Next...Next...
Take Care Everyone....
Thanks for your concern, guys! Seattle is on an inland sound which doesn't get much action. The coastal towns were on the local news all day interviewing & reshowing a few large waves slapping the beach. Nice they have evacuation areas. Full of happy people mugging for the cameras & sharing their wisdom.
My place is located a few miles from a recently discovered fault line. Everyone is abuzz wondering if it will be triggered.
I think the sound is sloshless. I'm up on a big rock hill. What concerns me is I hear many developers scalped the forests, scattered some top soil, built the homes, then added some trees - sold & ran. The surface we sit on is shaky so if something hits we all may slide downhill. Always something - Poor Japan!
I'm in a similar mood over someone trying to yield insignificant power. Really stupid stuff but I'm trying not to put her in her place. She would lose.
You, girl, are our friend & companion. We need you ~
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I haven't posted in quite sometime since I'm so freaking tired in the evening. I am swamped at work and trying to keep my head above water. Sorry I've been MIA.
Thanks for letting me vent. I hope each of you will have a quiet night and can get some rest.
I had a problem yesterday, so I called Eric, the eleven year old next door, whose bedroom looks like Mission Control and asked him to come over.
Eric clicked a couple of buttons and solved the problem.
As he was walking away, I called after him, 'So, what was wrong?
He replied, 'It was an ID ten T error.'
I didn't want to appear stupid, but nonetheless inquired,
'An, ID ten T error? What's that? In case I need to fix it again.'
Eric grinned.... 'Haven't you ever heard of an ID ten T error before?
'No,' I replied.
'Write it down,' he said, 'and I think you'll figure it out.'
So I wrote down:
ID10T
I used to like Eric, that little shit.
A little silver-haired lady calls her neighbor and says, "Please come over here and help me. I have a killer jigsaw puzzle, and I can't figure out how to get started."
Her neighbor asks, "What is it supposed to be when it's finished?"
The little silver haired lady says, "According to the picture on the box, it's a rooster."
Her neighbor decides to go over and help with the puzzle.
She lets him in and shows him where she has the puzzle spread all over the table.
He studies the pieces for a moment, then looks at the box, then turns to her and says,
"First of all, no matter what we do, we're not going to be able to assemble these pieces into anything resembling a rooster."
He takes her hand and says, "Secondly, I want you to relax. Let's have a nice cup of tea, and then," he said with a deep sigh .............
"Let's put all the Corn Flakes back in the box."
Rip, What's the sloshiosity today? sorry I missed you last nite, I think it may be time for another respite for me already, feeling worn down and confused and frustrated again. It was probably a bad idea to let myself have that little taste of good, solid, fun- only to wake up back at the grind.
Ok, gotta pull myself together. Clean the house, play in the kitchen, do some weeding in the garden. - stop torturing myself about the life i could be living and make the best of the one I got. Blah, Blah, Blah.
The worst part of it all is that, when the time comes, i don't know that I'll be able to jump right in and actually live the life I dream about. As I've written before, I'll be late-middle-aged, broke, alone and homeless. I know I should be trying to find a way to begin doing something now so that I can just transition into a life of some sort later, bit sometimes it seems that I can't find the balance between MY life and caring for mom.
If anyone has any suggestions......
This morning we all sound like when a bunch of females living in the house together have synchronized hormones.....and they are all raging at the same time. I don't mean you are a female Ted...but you have hormones too sweetie.....:)
I would like to be able to tell all of you to just walk away from people who are trying to terrorize your life, unfortunately we can't do that with the one (s) we are caring for. The ones that you work with? Just smile and walk away.....it will drive them crazy wondering what is going on in your mind and what you may be doing.....I used to do that with a little weenie who was such a cocky little rooster and it drove him crazy.....he would constantly ask how I was doing and what I was smiling for...oh no reason, just feel like smiling......
Maybe it's also the change of seasons that are affecting some of us......after the dentist yesterday I was standing outside on the deck, 70 degrees thank you Lord, and looking around at the trees and the geese on the pond...they come back every year to lay their babies.....the daffodils and tulips are sprouting...and thinking how pleasant it was that new life is growing and how soon everything is going to be green and I can plant the garden................then I looked at hubby and said "gotta go change the col's wet pants".................WOW talk about a downer and the gigantic, shimmering ugly black void presented itself right in front of my face. But then I decided I could not allow this to happen...it's not fair to me that my mood is terrorized and not fair of me to take my frustration out on her...so I treated her like the baby she was acting....I didn't let the fact that she had fixed and fed bacon to the dog bother me, I didn't go berserk to find out she hadn't taken her morning meds....just gave them to her.....didn't berate her for not changing wet pants while we were gone....didn't tell her she had mascara globbed all over her eye lids........we did however discuss the need to have the volume of the tv at supersonic levels....fed her chinese take-out.....told her I would come down and put her to bed when she fell asleep on the couch ...then I made sure the rest of my evening went well. Played on the computer and watched tv with my butt plastered on my bed...Heaven...:) and of course rum and coke.
I have thought a lot about the ugliness that presented itself into my life again when Mom passed away in Dec and I WILL NOT allow it to terrorize my life anymore. I have ultimate control over how I feel, the decisions I make and how I will handle those. My 2 daughters and my sister are just three other people that exist in this world....I hope they all find happiness and someday I hope they wake up and realize they could have been a part of my life and what I could have offered to them.
Ted and Jen.....I don't know what your talents and expertise are...but have you considered contacting companies who would allow you to work from home? My oldest sister had to return to work and she is a "medical billing specialist" and last time I spoke with her she is in the office 3 or 4 days a week, but she works from home on Fridays. Several years ago I was thinking about doing medical billing and now they have classes you can take because you must know the ICD codes and the ins and outs of Medicare but you can do all the work from home. The program you use connects with whatever company and you get all the information for billing right in front of you. You might see if there are smaller companies or even doctor's offices that need records transferred over to computer....that could be done from home also. Just a couple of ideas and from there maybe you can come up with something to help you out.
Blind doggie is awake now and I just bet she needs to see the outside world.
Love and Hugz to all..........and please try to take a few minutes today for yourself.....even if you have to hide in the bathroom.
Jam
I've tried to find some work at home stuff but can't seem to find any legitimate, if anyone has any sources?
and about the male/female thing? the way I've been living for the last few years doesn't really leave room for that kind of distinction! and I don't think it's just a guy thing, I think a lot of us single caregivers have to make that sacrifice along with all the others.
I know a lady who does the medical billing at home. Works great for her.
Some companies are outsourcing their calls to home offices. I called Comcast & heard a faint "meow" in the background. I had to ask. The pleasant lady said she was working at home! After 5 years in the call center & a new baby it was an ideal situation. I walk with an insurance agent who also works from home.
Ted, the plotters await ... Remember, I can ship lettering for you to apply at the marinas. Edge Print too.
Thinking of you Miz ...
Bonnie O???
MIL is coming home this afternoon. They delivered the hospital bed, oxygen, etc. yesterday. Thank God my BIL's wife has medical education cause the guy explained it all very fast. I think we were probably his last stop and it was Friday, etc. etc. Anyway, he left detailed instructions.
MIL and FIL and the three kids spent the day together yesterday. They had some fun and took some pics that I know we all will be glad to have down the line. Then we went out to dinner and then to Wal-Mart to get all the stuff for MIL here at home.
About the noni juice, I could only find it at health food stores or on line and it's like $24.00 for a quart. Hubby is gonna get some today.
Christina, this has been going on for about a month I guess. I am losing track. So so sad. I know she will be happy to be home and we are all trying to make it as comfortable and comforting for her as possible.
Thank You All for your prayers, well wishes and good thoughts. It means so much to me to have all of you. Love yous.
miz
Ya, we know the noni juice is expensive but at this point we don't care. Wanna try anything possible. Sounds like it might help her and I sure don't think it will hurt her.
K, gotta go outside and have a smoke and then keep cleaning.
love,
miz
In 2010 the group talked about 'Barnacle Butt', disgusting eating habits and the fights about baths. I am going through the same things now. I was never able to have children, bit I got my first one at the age of 55. I am now 59 with an 83 year old - going on 3. She only wants me to help her do anything, will HOLLER for me just to see if I am around. I do more laundry and floor cleaning than ever. All my mother does now is eat, sleep, and poop - just like my latest great-nephew.
I have learned not to correct her so much, but it is getting hard trying to explain why the Indian woman hasn't come to see the afghan I made 30 years ago for her.
I also treasure early morning and late evening when she is in bed. She wakes me up 2-7 times a night to pee, so I am always tired. It is very difficult to get anything else done around the house for running her to the bathroom every 15 mins.
Sorry to ramble on so much, but my sisters just keep quiet if I vent to them. They don't want to have me ask them for anything. Thanks for your understanding. I must at least get lunch up off the floor now.
Good Morning (ahem afternoon) from the So Cal coast of CA. I am okay, not enough tsunami to do any real damage to so cal. There was some up north around San Fran. But the tsunami did affect the coastal waters around here...they showed it on the local news the erie swells and muddy bottoms at the marina's around here. King Harbor in Redondo Bch and Marina Del Rey.
Sadness goes out to the folks of Japan, my heart and hope goes out to all survivors. Not they have them f'n nuke facilities ready to melt down. Geesh not good, the winds will bring that radiation across the sea to Hawaii and West Coast of US. Just flipping great...always been against them ever since Chernobyl and 3-Mile Isle and "The China Syndrome" did no one pay atention? We need to stop all poluting energy sources like Platforms and nuke cookers...go with clean wind, solar and wave power!!!! Stop working on how to make a flipping cell phone fancier every sec and work on world clean energy - we have our prioritys wrong in the greed driven world. I read plenty of sci-fi's as a teen to see the sci-fi writers knew our demise a long time ago...I can see many of it unfolding so flippin sad.
Well mommy dearest has stopped the sundowning and calling me incessently the last 2 days. The hospice nurse finally came over and I discussed the sundowning and I got a prescript for Haldol...which is a stronger sedative, but did not use it last night due to she was so quiet. She pulled out this booklet that I had not read about the whole dying process and it describes about them getting quiet and withdrawing and all kinds of stuff had to stop reading cause I was getting really depressed. Between this and the entire sad Japan disaster it all seems so depressing. So this morning she is quiet...I am going to go get her up and freshen her up for the day...let her lounge long enough it is 12:40 here now. Be back on after done with the clean up.