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Good Morning Angels!!!!! Sounds like too many are near exhaustion today mentally and physically. Sometimes don't you just have some silly thoughts about running through that damned field of daisies with a goofy smile on your face?
Ted.....put a lock on your door that mom can't get unlocked and as long as she can't hurt herself anywhere else, then let her roam. And then maybe a chair in front of a window so she could sit and look out? Would that work or does she do things just to wake you up? I put the bird feeder close to col's back door so all she has to do is open the blinds and she can watch all the birds and we have had an influx of cardinals....were just beautiful that last huge snowfall we had and keeps her occupied.
It must be the moon.....couldn't see it last night because of the cloud cover. Blind doggie is spinning circles trying to find a comfy place to land......the chihuahua has been lying on the top step of the doggie stairs acting like a cat....every time one of the other dogs gets near he looks down at them and I can hear this little growl....the other chi/jack russell looks at him and says "OBMAJ".......:)
Sun is shining so I think I will try and make it a good day with col. Let her get away with postponing bath until today...too tired yesterday to mess with her. Noticed she may be getting a diaper rash....explained to her AGAIN that we don't put toilet paper in our pants to pad a darn thing.....that's why I put the extra pad back there on your bony ass and the paper does nothing but either fall out of your waistband or down where it gets all nasty and then shreds and leaves little pieces stuck all over your butt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She just doesn't know when she is wet....I guess like hands and feet, the bottom region gets numb also.....try to see if I can get her outside today for a little exercise and to not dig in the yard at weeds. Gee, that's where 4 dogs have pottied over the winter....do you really want to dig in that dirt?
angie.....hubby tells me how the col took care of her mom and how she would sit at the table and cry and whine to him about how argumentative she was, couldn't take her to the store, etc....put her in a nursing home where she died, while they were putting an addition onto the house for her. He reminds her of that when she gets really out of hand and boy does she deny any of it.....guess she doesn't like the comparison....but he says yep col acts like her mother.....except for one thing....grandmother was always scrupulously clean, even in dementia. I have to play peat and repeat with her constantly....sometimes I want to scream at her that I just told you that!!!!!! But I remember to check myself, because she truly can't recall what I have said to her. And I have noticed that if I don't answer with the same response each time she asks it's like a whole new subject. So I have learned to make my responses short and to the point..yes bill is paid, yes money was put in the bank, yes I have all your medicine, your pants are in the closet. No further explaining because then it becomes a long drawn-out explanation that she cannot understand and starts leading to more crap like how efficient she is and can pay her bills, drive, go to the store...yadda yadda yadda.....so I save my breath.
Time for more coffee.....no tartlet, mascara or peeing dog and table legs for me this morning!
Well, I do have hospice coming in every day to help. I am planning to get back to work in about two months, and at that point will get a live in caregiver. I was laid off last year and have had some income from that which will run out, so that's what I'll do. I will advertise for a live in and put the amount I'm willing to pay and see who answers the ad. I am a physical therapist assistant, and have worked in nursing homes, outpatient, and home care. When I got divorced I went to a two year college program to get the license . Before that I worked in a greenhouse, garden center, which I really enjoyed and the people ther were fun to work with, but the pay , not so good. Ted, there is a door latch thingy that can be placed on the top of the door so it can't be opened. Your mom would probably find another way out , though, you must be exhausted! bobbie, like you said, there are some good homes to place people in if necessary where they are well taken care of. I suppose they would not want to go but would get used to it and it would become "home" to them after a while. There are more people around and activities, etc. Sunny day here, had a nice walk, said "hi" to one other person walking. The same people are out "pounding the pavement" in the mornings, and that's my socializing, I guess. It will get better, it has to!
hello, AC family, Miz, Love and kisses to all. Sorry to hear about MIL passing, but it sounded peaceful and that is all we can hope for our loved ones. SeeMe
Computer motherboard fried a few days ago and just got set up with a new computer. Keyboard sucks, or it could be my typing ability. have to proofread everything.I did catch 'foredick'. Thought I might have fun with that one, but it is one of those mornings. My own fault. Stayed up till 1AM trying to catch up on posts. Today already my mom could 'rub a blister on a brick' as the saying goes around here.
Ted, Get the lock on all doors leading outside, take a run over to Clawson's and get a bowl of seafood bisque......
Who needed the ramp? The local Meth. Church does stuff like that for local people. Let it be known to Habitat and all local Churches that you need help with funding and building of the ramp. You will be surprised how many churches would step up. All the good you do??? See if they won't share your blessing. Don't be afraid or ashamed to ASK. Let's face it, we know we can't do this alone. Where do you live? I'll do it.
Seemeride, I will get locks she can't open for all the doors, (so Now I gotta worry about fire)
I'll wait til you get into town and we'll do Clawson's together! , everytime I go there i end up at Backstreet, in fact, it seems that everytime i leave the house I end up at Backstreet.
Good Morning All, I've been reading through more posts and my head is spinning. So many exhausted people, but lots of humor. I'm glad of that (the humor). I hope I can read through more and get to know all of you better. I am unfamiliar with some of the abbreviations. What is OBMAJ? Having a loved one with Alzheimer's must be especially challenging. The short-term memory problems must be sooo frustrating. Some probably dream about it. Repeat, Rewind, Repeat. I'm not sure how I would do.
Things seem to be getting a little easier for me. My uncle is getting stronger and most importantly his mood is lifting. I think the longer days are helping him to be happier. He is on an anti-depressant that stops him from worrying, which is extremely important. He has so many issues, bad heart, giant aneurysm, pancreatic tumor, on and on. And right now he has no insurance. I've spent at least 40 hours trying to straighten that out. His employer made a mistake and didn't cancel his advantage plan medicare coverage when we moved him to our state. Now medicare is saying it may take 90 days for it to be straightened out in their system. Moving him to a different state has taken up all my time because of the bureaucratic red tape and his many doctor appointments (just found out about the insurance issue, can't wait to get all the bills). Sigh. Anyway, I hope each of you has some outside help. I have to go...I am being summoned.
Need some comments here.... Sisters haven't been out here to help for over a yr. One came for a visit last Oct. ---and brought her 5 yr old granddaughter!! Like I needed that!! She stayed for 1 day, 2 nights, and the granddaughter peed on my sofa sleeper mattress. Can't get it replaced because it is a crazy size-- 5 in. shorter than regular. My sister did clean it best she could right after it happened and I don't see or smell anything, but damn! Wee, Tomorrow is mom's birthday. Same sis called me yesterdayand said she was in NC (she lives in MO) and wanted to visit with mom on Mon. Ok. Now she has a grandson with her - 12 yrs old. She stopped by on her way to the beach last night - ate supper, and left. When she first started talking about coming, I told her to plan on staying in a hotel, cause it's too much here at home and I want to keep our schedule here the same. Hubby is working 12 hr shifts this weekend and needs sleep. Was I too demanding? It's not like she said she was coming so I could take a week off!! She's taking her grandson to the beach for the 1st time ever! Now she will come tomorrow, spend the birthday here and leave to go home. Why should I go all out with additional sheets for the sofa bed and find a place for the kid to sleep. All 3 bedrms are in use before they even get here. Am I bitchin too much?
Mom has been forgetting to wipe during the night when she goes on the bedside commode. Today I will surprise her with a GD bath. Thay are always GD baths. But he stinks. This from someone who always had her makeup , perfume and jewelry on. Will let you know who drowned........
seeme.....no you are not wrong for asking sis to stay in a hotel. And stop beating yourself up because you did ask that of her! She knew she was coming....just "forgot" to let you know in advance...your home, your right to say yes or no...bottom line. And I think we all know who will win in the bath game....col is very vain about her looks....refer to previous posts about globbed mascara.......but won't wipe her butt either and stinks like the bottom of an outhouse toilet if I'm not standing over her with butt-wipes in my hands. I guess we can both check in after bath time today....:)
Hello My Angels. Yesterday was very difficult and I want to thank you so much for your love and support. I do find comfort in the fact that she is at peace but I can't help feeling so sad that she went at such a young age. Doesn't seem right or real. We are making funeral arrangements today and the wake will probably be Tuesday evening and then the funeral on Wednesday. Hubby and I plan to go home this evening and come back on Tuesday and stay until Thursday. We need to get clothes and stuff. I plan to work on Monday and Friday. All that could change but that is the tentative plan.
careshare.....OBMAJ...."oh bite me amber jane"....bobbie can give a better explanation since she coined the phrase.....but basically someone got on here and said "shame on you".....we should consider it a privilege to wipe poop, etc.....our parents took care of us when we were small, we should consider it a privilege to return that "favor"......yeah right.....hence the term. So we use it whenever someone says we should run through a field of daisies with smiles on our faces, says shame on you, or in any other way says we should "love" what we do.
thanks, Jam. I have the heater on in the bathroom. Mom says she is a little light-headed. She has radar about the bath ---I made the mistake of teling her she stinks. Now I don'tknow who will win....geez
seeme I would not want to be accamodating to her either. No you are saying how you feel. What is "bitchin" anyway???? We all bitch and gripe, cry, holler, and then bitch some more. That's why we are here, together, bitchin...I do not envy the position you are in. I know you wouldn't do what I would do, so hope you figure something out that works for YOU... love ya, and hugs across the miles..
Ladeeda, I cried when I read your last message, it is true. It's okay folks Ladeeda is right in what she wrote. I guess it's a matter of feeling a bit guilty and feeling a bit like I am abandoning her and how is the care there. One of the hospice nurses suggested a smaller place that is not so pretty but has good nursing. My mom does not care about her surroundings except she does not like being in my old bedroom and does not find the hospital bed comfortable I don't think she can turn as well it's not that firm. Anybody know how to make it firmer, the home health girl mentioned a pad...a foam pad...I have the blow up pad,that thing is horrid with the continous noise it makes...I dismantled that thing after the dude left and stuck it in the closet. Rip big hugs to my west coast neighbor...is it raining there too?
I went outside last night around 8:00 did not see moon, I think it is rising later...b/f knows all about astronomy stuff and always tells me it rises later and later each night. Maybe it is the full moon....I know people go nuts on full moons...hmmm but she has been sundowning heavily for awhile now. I hate the crazy unblinking stares at me...I don't know what's behind it...I don't know what she thinks about...I know she is always upset...or knocked out...her figeting in bed creeps me out..the covers are always scrunched down and her knees are up and she displays nervous energy and I don't understand most of it...that stuff drives me insane.
Rosella I have to hand it to you you are a brave brave girl to handle mama. I am surprised you do this all by yourself...I don't know what I would do by now if I did not have a p/t caregiver or the hospice folks that drop in. Your mom's mind sound like it is in another timeframe, like childhood? She wants to go home...so sad!!!!!!
I certainly don't want this long extended drawn out death of nuttiness...it's horrid. I really hope I don't get alz...I don't think I would hang around as long as mom. I don't like being sick and in pain...I have had horrible cramps all my life and sometimes just wanted to end it from some of the episodes of cramps or I had a really bad intestinal infection one time that I would just want to borrow Jam's pistol and poof...LOL!!!
Exhaustion,...yeah Ladeeda maybe you are right...I have said I am worn out by her...12 years at her beck and call from afar...her every sunday shopping runs for 12 years...and now the last 2 years with her decline...and now this worst part at the end...wow....I guess dear Ladeeda..I guess I am just waiting it out...like Rossella...but I think if I cannot physically do it anymore by having her in a regular house bedroom she may just have to go. Yesterday it seemed she was deadweight on her legs...and she is heavy around her middle...her legs and her arms are shrivelled up now but her core is still heavy. She still has her gigantic boobs and big belly.
I can't believe how bad I felt when the comp was down...Hubby kept apologizing about it. I was jonesing to get on here again. Missed you gals and guys so much. Welcome WR. This is the only place you will want to be if you stay around. This is my drug of choice.
seeme, I would tell her she can't stay at my house, and she needs a hotel room. I might use a few more adjectives, but she would know than her doing her duty f### visit for mom's bday was no reason to put myself out for her. Do you want me to tell her for ya???? I can, what are friends for!!!!
oh yeah stopped trying to give my mom a bath a few weeks back, she was already starting to hate them but either I or the caregiver could still get her in it. But when she played her hand at the 'crumble game' a few weeks ago..it was pathetic...I said okay that is the last time I try to give you a bath...what a creature...what a creature. A woman who would take baths and keep clean before..oh well...I think I probably grew up with taking more showers etc and maybe will be more apt to be clean later...I know how good it is to be clean...but I know if you are tired you sometimes don't want to...but heck these people sleep all the time.
Oh geez folks I wish it was all over.. starting today...I had an evil thought this morning while laying in her old bed..that I would go to my old bedroom and it was over...but that was just a brief escapement daydream...of course I go in there and she is in one of her wierd stances in bed...eyes half open and covers squished down. I pulled the covers up and told her it was around 8:00 in which she repeated...going to go peek right now...be right back...well she seems to be sleeping..covers are still up. Oh man sometimes I just wish it was over...so I can just do what I want with my time. I have still so much ahead that I need to do...get her room prepped for me to move my bed in and then put all my stuff I want to keep in storage which is a lot still, even if I am getting rid of some old furniture that I don't want (was my old b/f's friends furniture bought in 1980..) a dresser and a desk...the old couch upstairs I found on the street oh around 1983..an old round table that is really for the living room in my bedroom all goes to the thrift shop...downstairs a shelving unit my dad and I built..going to thrift shop. A shelving unit from a crazy neighbor also either goes in the yard for gardening or thrift shop. So the only things I am putting in storage in regards to furniture is still alot: A tapestry couch, a Queen Anne chair and ottoman, a small entertainment center, a coffee table, a small phone stand cabinet, a glider rocker, two teak end tables, an end table that is a lamp as well, a magazine stand, a small vintage arts and crafts table (saved from the trash from an old b/f)...OH YUCK I HEAR HER CALLING FOR MEL...YUCK AND DOES NOT EVEN USE MY NAME...IT'S SOMETHING LIKE...ALLLLLAAAAAAAAA or ANNNNNAAAAAA...YUCK IT GROSSES ME OUT...be back after this...oh I can't take that much more...that gross call out...makes me really hate her...oh geezus..be back in a bit...after another meltdown maybe...
Pirate, you have me worried. WTF. You sound like you are melting bad. I know what you mean about the name you might be called. Sometimes I am the dog - that died 2 yrs ago - the sisters that don't show up, even hubby's name. But my own name I aabsolutely hate. Thinking about changing it legally. Come talk to us!! Come get a hug!!!
Pirate,,, I am so proud of you for getting to the "why" It does not mean you do not love her, it does not mean you are abandoning her, it means You are a grown woman who has the right to choose how much you can take. As Bobbie said , there is alot to do to get ready for placement. Go see the place the Hospice nurse suggested. Get all the paperwork going, and then if you change your mind, that is ok too. Just giving yourself a choice is going to make you feel better. More than anything I was acknowleding your exhaustion.. Let me know how things are for you. You are in my prayers, and there are no wrong choices her. But keep in mind nothing changes if nothing chages, hope that makes sense... love and hugs
Oh seem I just sitting here bawling..I am so tired of it all, I just went to check on her and it seemed she was asleep but then I asked are you awake and her eyes opened a bit more...and I asked did you call me...she said yes...and I said what do you want - she wanted to go to the bathroom. Well I said do you want to walk...no...so I had to get the wheel chair ready...and again she cannot move her legs to get even her butt in the chair..have to sling that heavy body into the chair..now I had the brake on one wheel one..and she's trying to move it...and it's heading towards a bedroom tray and I said wait what are you doing...and I am starting to get mad and overwhelmed...so I wheel her into the bathroom..and again trying to get that heavy body up and manuevared over the toilet..I tried to move her butt on the toliet seat and now busted one of the hinges on the seat...oh great...good thing a new toilet is coming on monday. I wiped her up put a new diaper on got her back into the chair...and all the while I am saying to her you have to help move..I cannot move you...I told her I cannot keep this up and she will end up in a NH so start helping...well nothing comes out of that mouth....so wheel her back into bedroom and try to get her up..dead weight again...and plop her into her bed..in the center and she just plops down and half ways lays down...and I said come on get up so you can scoot over..and I start to breakdown into a cry (and with all my crying it does not move her...so it seems..who knows) come on get up...and scoot over...and all the while she's looking at me like I am the bad guy...I am so tired of looking at her face. So I got her back in and covered up and asked if she needed anything else..cause I told her...cause I know youre gonna call in 15 minutes...oh geeez...I think she got even worse by moving her into that room...well tears are drying up as I speak....damn this brave pirate is starting faulter...bad pirate!!!! LOL... Maybe I should go slap some Old Spice on...arrrrrgh!!!!
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okay crying got out...feeling a bit better....have to manuevar these here waters..(thinking of the scene from Pirates of the Carribean Part 2 when they are using the small boat to find Tia Dalma's shack)
Ladeeda, next time I see the nurse I will ask about Thorazine and about the Nursing home and paperwork...Seems she wants to be more of a pain since I moved her to that other room. This is all so traumatic for her and for me...having to move into this house on the fly....I cannot wait for this all to be over so I can determine what I want to do for myself.
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Ted.....put a lock on your door that mom can't get unlocked and as long as she can't hurt herself anywhere else, then let her roam. And then maybe a chair in front of a window so she could sit and look out? Would that work or does she do things just to wake you up? I put the bird feeder close to col's back door so all she has to do is open the blinds and she can watch all the birds and we have had an influx of cardinals....were just beautiful that last huge snowfall we had and keeps her occupied.
It must be the moon.....couldn't see it last night because of the cloud cover. Blind doggie is spinning circles trying to find a comfy place to land......the chihuahua has been lying on the top step of the doggie stairs acting like a cat....every time one of the other dogs gets near he looks down at them and I can hear this little growl....the other chi/jack russell looks at him and says "OBMAJ".......:)
Sun is shining so I think I will try and make it a good day with col. Let her get away with postponing bath until today...too tired yesterday to mess with her. Noticed she may be getting a diaper rash....explained to her AGAIN that we don't put toilet paper in our pants to pad a darn thing.....that's why I put the extra pad back there on your bony ass and the paper does nothing but either fall out of your waistband or down where it gets all nasty and then shreds and leaves little pieces stuck all over your butt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She just doesn't know when she is wet....I guess like hands and feet, the bottom region gets numb also.....try to see if I can get her outside today for a little exercise and to not dig in the yard at weeds. Gee, that's where 4 dogs have pottied over the winter....do you really want to dig in that dirt?
angie.....hubby tells me how the col took care of her mom and how she would sit at the table and cry and whine to him about how argumentative she was, couldn't take her to the store, etc....put her in a nursing home where she died, while they were putting an addition onto the house for her. He reminds her of that when she gets really out of hand and boy does she deny any of it.....guess she doesn't like the comparison....but he says yep col acts like her mother.....except for one thing....grandmother was always scrupulously clean, even in dementia. I have to play peat and repeat with her constantly....sometimes I want to scream at her that I just told you that!!!!!! But I remember to check myself, because she truly can't recall what I have said to her. And I have noticed that if I don't answer with the same response each time she asks it's like a whole new subject. So I have learned to make my responses short and to the point..yes bill is paid, yes money was put in the bank, yes I have all your medicine, your pants are in the closet. No further explaining because then it becomes a long drawn-out explanation that she cannot understand and starts leading to more crap like how efficient she is and can pay her bills, drive, go to the store...yadda yadda yadda.....so I save my breath.
Time for more coffee.....no tartlet, mascara or peeing dog and table legs for me this morning!
Love, Hugz and Peace to all today,
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Ted, there is a door latch thingy that can be placed on the top of the door so it can't be opened. Your mom would probably find another way out , though, you must be exhausted!
bobbie, like you said, there are some good homes to place people in if necessary where they are well taken care of. I suppose they would not want to go but would get used to it and it would become "home" to them after a while. There are more people around and activities, etc.
Sunny day here, had a nice walk, said "hi" to one other person walking. The same people are out "pounding the pavement" in the mornings, and that's my socializing, I guess. It will get better, it has to!
Miz, Love and kisses to all. Sorry to hear about MIL passing, but it sounded peaceful and that is all we can hope for our loved ones.
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Today already my mom could 'rub a blister on a brick' as the saying goes around here.
Ted, Get the lock on all doors leading outside, take a run over to Clawson's and get a bowl of seafood bisque......
Who needed the ramp? The local Meth. Church does stuff like that for local people. Let it be known to Habitat and all local Churches that you need help with funding and building of the ramp. You will be surprised how many churches would step up. All the good you do??? See if they won't share your blessing. Don't be afraid or ashamed to ASK. Let's face it, we know we can't do this alone. Where do you live? I'll do it.
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I'll wait til you get into town and we'll do Clawson's together! , everytime I go there i end up at Backstreet, in fact, it seems that everytime i leave the house I end up at Backstreet.
Things seem to be getting a little easier for me. My uncle is getting stronger and most importantly his mood is lifting. I think the longer days are helping him to be happier. He is on an anti-depressant that stops him from worrying, which is extremely important. He has so many issues, bad heart, giant aneurysm, pancreatic tumor, on and on. And right now he has no insurance. I've spent at least 40 hours trying to straighten that out. His employer made a mistake and didn't cancel his advantage plan medicare coverage when we moved him to our state. Now medicare is saying it may take 90 days for it to be straightened out in their system. Moving him to a different state has taken up all my time because of the bureaucratic red tape and his many doctor appointments (just found out about the insurance issue, can't wait to get all the bills). Sigh. Anyway, I hope each of you has some outside help. I have to go...I am being summoned.
Sisters haven't been out here to help for over a yr. One came for a visit last Oct. ---and brought her 5 yr old granddaughter!! Like I needed that!! She stayed for 1 day, 2 nights, and the granddaughter peed on my sofa sleeper mattress. Can't get it replaced because it is a crazy size-- 5 in. shorter than regular. My sister did clean it best she could right after it happened and I don't see or smell anything, but damn!
Wee, Tomorrow is mom's birthday. Same sis called me yesterdayand said she was in NC (she lives in MO) and wanted to visit with mom on Mon. Ok. Now she has a grandson with her - 12 yrs old. She stopped by on her way to the beach last night - ate supper, and left. When she first started talking about coming, I told her to plan on staying in a hotel, cause it's too much here at home and I want to keep our schedule here the same. Hubby is working 12 hr shifts this weekend and needs sleep. Was I too demanding? It's not like she said she was coming so I could take a week off!! She's taking her grandson to the beach for the 1st time ever! Now she will come tomorrow, spend the birthday here and leave to go home. Why should I go all out with additional sheets for the sofa bed and find a place for the kid to sleep. All 3 bedrms are in use before they even get here. Am I bitchin too much?
Jam
love,
miz
Jam
I would not want to be accamodating to her either. No you are saying how you feel. What is "bitchin" anyway???? We all bitch and gripe, cry, holler, and then bitch some more. That's why we are here, together, bitchin...I do not envy the position you are in. I know you wouldn't do what I would do, so hope you figure something out that works for YOU... love ya, and hugs across the miles..
Just remember "Footprints in the sand", we love you and are with you and the family
Ladeeda, I cried when I read your last message, it is true. It's okay folks Ladeeda is right in what she wrote. I guess it's a matter of feeling a bit guilty and feeling a bit like I am abandoning her and how is the care there. One of the hospice nurses suggested a smaller place that is not so pretty but has good nursing. My mom does not care about her surroundings except she does not like being in my old bedroom and does not find the hospital bed comfortable I don't think she can turn as well it's not that firm. Anybody know how to make it firmer, the home health girl mentioned a pad...a foam pad...I have the blow up pad,that thing is horrid with the continous noise it makes...I dismantled that thing after the dude left and stuck it in the closet.
Rip big hugs to my west coast neighbor...is it raining there too?
I went outside last night around 8:00 did not see moon, I think it is rising later...b/f knows all about astronomy stuff and always tells me it rises later and later each night. Maybe it is the full moon....I know people go nuts on full moons...hmmm but she has been sundowning heavily for awhile now. I hate the crazy unblinking stares at me...I don't know what's behind it...I don't know what she thinks about...I know she is always upset...or knocked out...her figeting in bed creeps me out..the covers are always scrunched down and her knees are up and she displays nervous energy and I don't understand most of it...that stuff drives me insane.
Rosella I have to hand it to you you are a brave brave girl to handle mama. I am surprised you do this all by yourself...I don't know what I would do by now if I did not have a p/t caregiver or the hospice folks that drop in. Your mom's mind sound like it is in another timeframe, like childhood? She wants to go home...so sad!!!!!!
I certainly don't want this long extended drawn out death of nuttiness...it's horrid. I really hope I don't get alz...I don't think I would hang around as long as mom. I don't like being sick and in pain...I have had horrible cramps all my life and sometimes just wanted to end it from some of the episodes of cramps or I had a really bad intestinal infection one time that I would just want to borrow Jam's pistol and poof...LOL!!!
Exhaustion,...yeah Ladeeda maybe you are right...I have said I am worn out by her...12 years at her beck and call from afar...her every sunday shopping runs for 12 years...and now the last 2 years with her decline...and now this worst part at the end...wow....I guess dear Ladeeda..I guess I am just waiting it out...like Rossella...but I think if I cannot physically do it anymore by having her in a regular house bedroom she may just have to go. Yesterday it seemed she was deadweight on her legs...and she is heavy around her middle...her legs and her arms are shrivelled up now but her core is still heavy. She still has her gigantic boobs and big belly.
Do you want me to tell her for ya???? I can, what are friends for!!!!
Oh geez folks I wish it was all over.. starting today...I had an evil thought this morning while laying in her old bed..that I would go to my old bedroom and it was over...but that was just a brief escapement daydream...of course I go in there and she is in one of her wierd stances in bed...eyes half open and covers squished down. I pulled the covers up and told her it was around 8:00 in which she repeated...going to go peek right now...be right back...well she seems to be sleeping..covers are still up. Oh man sometimes I just wish it was over...so I can just do what I want with my time. I have still so much ahead that I need to do...get her room prepped for me to move my bed in and then put all my stuff I want to keep in storage which is a lot still, even if I am getting rid of some old furniture that I don't want (was my old b/f's friends furniture bought in 1980..) a dresser and a desk...the old couch upstairs I found on the street oh around 1983..an old round table that is really for the living room in my bedroom all goes to the thrift shop...downstairs a shelving unit my dad and I built..going to thrift shop. A shelving unit from a crazy neighbor also either goes in the yard for gardening or thrift shop. So the only things I am putting in storage in regards to furniture is still alot:
A tapestry couch, a Queen Anne chair and ottoman, a small entertainment center, a coffee table, a small phone stand cabinet, a glider rocker, two teak end tables, an end table that is a lamp as well, a magazine stand, a small vintage arts and crafts table (saved from the trash from an old b/f)...OH YUCK I HEAR HER CALLING FOR MEL...YUCK AND DOES NOT EVEN USE MY NAME...IT'S SOMETHING LIKE...ALLLLLAAAAAAAAA or ANNNNNAAAAAA...YUCK IT GROSSES ME OUT...be back after this...oh I can't take that much more...that gross call out...makes me really hate her...oh geezus..be back in a bit...after another meltdown maybe...
I think it was Christina who said 'poor me - pour me'. Over the time I was missing ya'll I was saying 'poor me, some whine'....pour me some wine!
As Bobbie said , there is alot to do to get ready for placement. Go see the place the Hospice nurse suggested. Get all the paperwork going, and then if you change your mind, that is ok too. Just giving yourself a choice is going to make you feel better.
More than anything I was acknowleding your exhaustion.. Let me know how things are for you. You are in my prayers, and there are no wrong choices her. But keep in mind nothing changes if nothing chages, hope that makes sense... love and hugs
Maybe I should go slap some Old Spice on...arrrrrgh!!!!
LOL!
okay crying got out...feeling a bit better....have to manuevar these here waters..(thinking of the scene from Pirates of the Carribean Part 2 when they are using the small boat to find Tia Dalma's shack)