I'm tired of cooking/preparing 3 meals a day. It's just the two of us but boy oh boy can that woman eat!! She stays slimish, I get fattish. It's bad enough I do everything here much less start making her one thing and me the other. At times I feel guilty when I buy her fast food cuz of the nutritional value....not to mention I eat it too.
Good news is mom is much better now. Still no show siblings, however. SIGH....
Worst time is when I am typing on the forums here. My mind will be dictating to my hands but my hands tend to have a mind of their own. Yikes, I see words I wasn't even thinking about. I have to proof-read many times over :P
My exSO (not a cat lover, but never unkind to animals) fought a long-running battle with her about where she was to spend the night, because if she had the run of the house she used to wake him at five in the morning demanding breakfast. Whenever he managed to trick her into being shut in the (warm) utility room he'd give a cry of triumph: he'd successfully outwitted a geriatric demented cat. My congratulations.
Once upon a time I thought the world revolved around them, they are 8 - 10 years older than I am and we all the love the same things. OUTDOORS. It's different for men to go out trucking through the woods than it is for a woman which is one of the main reasons I rescued a pebble. Thank God I did. I still do it though. Me and my big pib go fishing, exploring and have did some gold panning. I love this stuff. We anxiously await our 3 hours, 3 days a week to get the h*ll out of this house.
For those who remember from a few years ago.... I struggled with taking my mother back to FL with me. FL is where I had lived for the past 18 years... my son lives there and most of the best friends I have ever known., plus the job I held for 13 years ( my former boss says it's still there) Yet, I stayed here so she could be around her sons whom she (used) to know and love so much, yet they hardly visit her so she's forgot them..
Really, I wish I could just get so pissed off at them - for some reason I can't. I keep hoping they understand my plight as well as their mother's. Plus, I hate to take such drastic measures but these days.... drastic measures are needed or else mom will outlive me. Not only have I developed high blood pressure but I'm 97 % sure I'm now diabetic. My entire body has morphed from a year ago... every day I wake up saying I will do something different, but every day is the same. If it wasn't for my pib and her unending desire to be outside running around, I'd probably not go. Sleep? They say we are to have at least 8 hours uninterrupted a day... really?.... it's been more than a year that I've slept that long in a consecutive uninterrupted row.
Tomorrow I will do things different, those that I can be in control of. Those I can't control, I will probably try to control anyway ') Least I'm going to try. I am only 51 years old and feel like I'm a few steps away from my grave. I understand why my father was so tired and just wanted to sleep... in peace. Me... I NEED to change so many things here.
All is fine. I'm just in a huge pondering mode... plus tired and lonely and tired and hey, might as well throw in some overwhelmed to boot.
" holy smokes man you need booze " .
thats what dr nick on the simpsons said once as he tossed a hobo a few dollars .
humorous because it was a medical dx from a doc ..
sorry to hear your hanging by a thread but if its any consolation -- i think everyone on earth only hangs by a thin thread . ( mentally ) .
Just trying to psych myself up and out of this. I know how to do it, it's just the "doing it" part that keeps me sedate. Some dear lady posted a week or so ago about being paralyzed... it IS at times like being paralyzed.
If I was drinking booze... haha, I wouldn't be pondering this shit so much. Not sure if it's a good thing or not. However, I do not want to die from a heart attack or stroke... no one would take care of mom like I do and NO ONE would love my dogs like I do. Speaking of mummy dearest... she's been pacing for a few hours now... full belly and all. Sigh. Decided to just let her walk it out for a few more hours... maybe we both can get those much need 8 hours of uninterrupted sleep. Swear... I could smack the sleep out of those people who promote sleep. What do they know!
Hope, here's hoping your car troubles are over soon!
This week has been insanely busy with one of my clients, the other is also ramping up with more work, and I have the funeral for my uncle to attend tomorrow, so I'm trying to do tomorrow morning's work, clean the house, do the laundry and get ahead of things for tomorrow here at the house. To top it all off, Mom started feeling light-headed and "woozy", as she called it, today. She was also pretty tired all day. She says she's better tonight, not sure what that was about.
I have a Barbershop Quartet coming in to sing a valentine for Mom tomorrow. I think she'll love it. She's going to cry too...Dad was a Barbershopper for many years, and these guys are from the Barbershop chorus he was a part of. I'll be getting a video of it on my phone.
hope baby... wooo hooo and YIKES, I saw YOUR weather report... LOL, another "Cold Spell" is zapping you. After last weeks wind/rain storm it's been pretty decent here, several hours of sunshine and short sleeve 60 degree weather! OH ... OH OH... all of my daffodils sprouted! Plus some of the other bulbs I forget the name of them (oh dear God) have also sprouted up nicely. Last year this time we had 20 plus inches of snow and it never snows in the valley.
Sally, I don't think anyone was quite prepared for just what all this task entailed. Truly hope your pups are all doing good. My oldest pup is 18 plus... next one is 14 and my newest rescue, my pibble is a youngster at 4 years. 80 lbs of life... keeps me going she does! Good night to you as well Sally!
I hope everyone has a good night. I have been going through tomorrow's plan in my head how to coordinate all the stuff I have to do. For one, must get the truck to the shop and since the battery died, have to call a tow truck but since I was there today, I talked to them already and they told me I don't need to come til it's ready for pickup just call em and tell em it's coming...so that won't be as trying as today I don't think..I will have to find someone to take me to pick it up but I have the whole day to figure that out....Just as I was ready to hit the hay two of my kids got out and so now I must wait for them to come back in...it's way too cold for them to be out...also I don't rest if I know they are out....I hope everyone has a good nights sleep...I am watching Rambo III right now...kind of reminds me of our normal days in caregiving....
Oh... hey, I just realized tomorrow is Friday the 13th. Nice.
Mom's meds kicked in... her feet were just too swollen to let her keep the pacing up, so I did as her doc suggested and added an extra risperidone to her apple sauce plus a few melatonin. She's happily snoring which is my cue to get my ass to bed early tonight and hopefully sleep until at least 3:00 before she wakes up and we start all over again. yay.
in the future find a shop that does oil and filter changes cheaply . they can do it cheaper than you can do it yourself because of the great price they get on 55 gallon barrels of motor oil .
no partial repair will save the engine . the metal shavings have been pumped thruout the engine and worn the cam lobes and bearings among other things .
good used engines are reasonable enough but the installation can really be costly and is very seldom done neatly and thoroughly .
if i needed to buy a car id borrow about 10 k from a bank and buy a restored classic . these are usually sporting new engines and sell cheaper than youd think .
these late model electronic nightmares are meant to be disposable -- usually more expensive to diagnose and repair than theyre worth when all that electronic crap starts breaking down .
restored classics are still the best buy imo . most have been rebuilt and babied by auto enthusiasts and are only being sold because the owner ran into more serious obligations -- like buying a home or starting a family . i like old straight 6 cylinder fords and chevy's . they are virtually indestructable