I'm tired of cooking/preparing 3 meals a day. It's just the two of us but boy oh boy can that woman eat!! She stays slimish, I get fattish. It's bad enough I do everything here much less start making her one thing and me the other. At times I feel guilty when I buy her fast food cuz of the nutritional value....not to mention I eat it too.
Well! - priests have to make a living too, you know. And besides who's to say it won't make all the difference, eh?
I would name them Oregano, Mint, Rosemary, Dill, Parsley and Basil. Their Mum of course is Mrs Dash
I seem to be the only one left keeping vigil. I sit there and count her breaths. I feel I am being morbid now. My siblings visits have lessened. They know.
I know too but I am compelled to keep sitting there.
The pastor from my Mom's church left a message for me. I e-mailed him cause I know I will break down if I talk to him and since I don't really know him.........well you know.
I had to go home. If my mom dies tonight I will be back tomorrow even though I know its not good for me. I'm waiting by the phone now.
My dear Mom passed from this life tonight at 8:30. I guess if I had stayed for a few more hours today I could of been there.
With all the hours I sat beside her it seems like the fact she passed when I wasn't there means maybe thats what she wanted.
Thank-you all for all of your kind thoughts and sympathies. I think I am in shock right now. The next few days, weeks, months will be hard but I will get through it knowing that my Mom is no longer in pain and is with the good Lord in heaven.
my BS has only begun . ill probly have a homemade windmill and low voltage lighting at some point . my aunt is my hilljack inspiration . her and her husband built their own shack too . for months they walked across floor joists from the kitchen to the living room until they could afford floor decking . if shes alive in another year id love to have her living here . thats a bit farfetched but then PIA aint in the best of health . she could crappy off before her mom does .
gershun , my mothers legacy lives on every day . did you know she invented copper wire ? she was fighting a jewish person for a penny ..
Mom is settled in the nursing home, but looked at me with such sad eyes tonight when I told her she should close her eyes and rest, and said, "I don't want you to go away." My heart just broke. It was all I could do to hold it together at that moment, and later, when I had to leave. She's so afraid to be alone.
My heart just aches for her tonight. I hate this part of life. I know it's inevitable, unavoiadable, etc. Doesn't mean I have to like it.