I'm tired of cooking/preparing 3 meals a day. It's just the two of us but boy oh boy can that woman eat!! She stays slimish, I get fattish. It's bad enough I do everything here much less start making her one thing and me the other. At times I feel guilty when I buy her fast food cuz of the nutritional value....not to mention I eat it too.
My night tonight has been several repeats of this particular conversation:
(Mom sits up and swings her legs out of bed and sits on the side of the bed.)
Me: Mom, you need to head to the bathroom.
Mom: Yup.
10 minutes later...
Me: Mom, you should get up and go to the bathroom.
Mom: Yup, in a minute.
10 minutes later....
(Mom finally gets up and moves)
Mom: Whoops. I'm peeing on the floor. Sorry.
Me: .....................(sigh)...................
Captain. ..if you're out there we miss you. .i hope aunt Edna is ok.
I too don't want to think about what is going to happen with Mom as time goes by...just prefer to take things one day at a time, handle things one crises or BM at a time to get through each day. By doing this I have also found that I get happiness out of the small things during the day...a good cup of coffee, flowers in the garden, a new bed pillow, Mom laughing at something ....things that people who don't caregive 24/7 take for granted and they have to have big vacations and luxury cars to find happiness and the happiness becomes more and more elusive for them. Sometimes I see this caregiving time as a huge wake up call to see the good right in front of me no matter how small.....
I was interrupted by my mother's calls 3 times trying to type that so if it doesn't make sense that is why.
CM - A belated I am sorry to hear about your chickens. I kept getting wrapped up in other things which delayed my expression of sadness. As others have said before, sometimes the animals in our lives are more our family than the biological (in)human ones given to us at birth.
Hope - Still thinking of your kitty.
I miss my mom. I believe my mother is in Heaven with healthy body and mind. Today as we "Celebrate" mom and scatter her ashes with daddy's will be very sad. I'm sure it's more symbolic for those left behind, kind of like the healing process, ya know? We are heading up to where dad is around 5:00 p. m. It's a lovely day out and will be a gorgeous evening. I sure wish I knew the unknown. Or that mom would somehow visit me to let me know she's ok.
Gershun, as we celebrate my mom's life today, I will be thinking of you celebrating you own dear mother's life. God Bless!
have any of the farmers lost sheep recently?
Hope you were able to comfort Dr daughter. the little ones are the worst to loose. We lost 2 babies and a 12 year old. one of the babies mothers went on to have two more and came to the office with them so happy. She said she kept the ashes of the first one on the mantle piece and talked to her every day
Katie, so very true. I have always enjoyed the simpler things in life but now especially just revel in that good hot cup of coffee, quiet moments just sitting beside Mama watching her sleep. ..doodling in the garden. .planting seeds and watching them grow, tending my roses...i cherish all of it. I think how so many people miss out on the precious tiny things when it's so easy to do all the fancy big stuff.
My brother came today instead of tomorrow. I had gotten something for Mama to vice him as she always loved getting him a father's day present. I got out of the house for a bit. .a couple of hours and it was so nice. I got myself a small burger and a coke and turned up the music and just had a nice little drive..i felt so free and enjoyed it so much. Swung by our local bakery and got a couple of cream filled doughnuts and a six pack of their awesome cupcakes for my brother. He kind of got on me for doing it and told me i needed to save my money for me. I told him he needs to understand that i enjoy doing things like that fir him and others and that it made me happy so quit fussing at me. Got my groceries without having to hurry and so just had a nice time feeling shim freedom. Mama seems happy today and so it has been an excellent say for me as well. Hope everyone else is having a great weekend
Went out for breakfast a little diner dad had pancakes and managed to eat all-they were huge!
Shopping at Kohls as he has gained weight and needed new pants. Bought 3 pairs plus I got hum a new shirt for fathers day. Took him to my house for a quick yard tour then took him back. Went well.
Taked though with activities director who said after lunch most days he asks where mom is. They remind him that she passed away and he must then remember. The few months he lived with us he rarely mentioned mom and its a difficult topic to bring ip at times.