My "whine moment today." What's yours?

Windy ridge, thanks for the suggestion, but sinceI didn't sleep at all last night, I just can't remember they way it goes. Is it the Lone Ranger tune?
Well it doesn't really matter, think about Beatles chorus to Let it Be. That was the origin of the song. Instead of Let it Be, let it be, ... Gotta Pee, gotta pee, get it?!

Waiting for Mom's PT. after she has come and gone,I am making her lunch and by then hubby will be here and I can go to bed.

Gershun,I love the chapter you picked called ,"when you know your Mothers a** better than your own"How True!
Mother scared the sh*t out of me this morning when I awoke to find her Standing asleep.She pushed the button on her lift chair which Ive always been worried she would do.I try SO hard to keep her safe and from falling again because when she falls,Im the lucky winner to pick up all the pieces and Ive done way enough of that through the years
looks like alot of you had trouble sleeping last night...Thats no good!

I am still using the flower avatar...one of these days if I ever get a break in my crazy life I may try to figure out the picture thing...not very tech savvy sometimes, yet other times I do the most amazing things but can't figure out how.
Crazy day with the stock market and fires out Westb.Had issues with the insulin this morning too, and Mom very depressed she is lingering.
I do hope that dry situation out West gets better soon and feel sad for the firefighters that gave their lives and their families.
I have a George Harrison song that goes through my mind at times with the words changed..."if Not for You" is changed to "It's Not for You", whenever I feel life is passing me by. This happens worst when the seasons begin to change and I get this strong feeling of the passing of time without me. Now that I am feeling Summer ending I am getting depressed again and those "whats the use?" feelings.

Oh no Falcon..bless your heart...I am sorry to hear that news...but will pray it is the beggining of something better...

I am ready to head to the home improvement store..yay! going to get those leaking sink components fixed once and for all....AC has stopped working on the truck again...this will make the 4th time I will have been back since having it all completely redone and I am not a happy camper...but I know these things happen and they have been kind so I am trying to remain calm...won't help to do otherwise at this point...

I'm so far behind on what everyone is doing and haven't had a chance to catch up...but I did take note of Jeanette's chapter.. "It's all about that poop"...and now I will have that song, with those words...stuck in my head...thanks again Jeanette....

Must share something that was precious to me that happened yesterday late afternoon. I had taken a nap beside Mama and I woke up to hear her again talking to someone. I just stayed quiet and listened. She was talking to her beloved kitty...who passed about two years ago. She loved that cat like you cannot imagine...I have always believe that our beloved pets are reunited with us in Heaven...I know some don't ...I do...but in my prayers I am always asking that if it be possible, I could somehow know it was going to be ok...even though we know it...still I'm looking for that little bit of reassurance...Yesterday was my confirmation...Even Mama's beloved pets are there....I asked her was she dreaming and she said "no, he's right here beside me"..and pointed to the spot beside her on the bed...Even though it's a little frightening...in my heart it felt like God was giving me a peace to help me in the days, weeks, or even months ahead...it's going to be ok....

Falcon, OMG you poor dear!! That just sucky news to get when returning from (hopefully) a fantastic holiday!! Things will work out for you two... somehow they always seem to eh?

Susan, it is heartbreaking witnessing the changes in your loved one. Seems like one day they can do a certain thing, the next that ability is just gone. You know, the other day I was going through the photo's on my phone, uploading them to my computer and saw all of moms pics the last 7 months of her life...she went from being unable to get into the Jeep ( couldn't lift leg) to barely being able to walk (between the shuffling and depth perception ) it was just too much for her, then unable to stand on her own, to transfer chair, to bed bound in what seems such a short time.... sorry, went on a memory trip there... just heartbreaking for sure.

Gershun!!!!!!! HAHA!!! Oh my goodness YES! I knew/know every inch of mom's nether area's Too funny yet very sad and disturbing at the same time.
"It's all about that poop, bout that poop, no Bueno"!

Awh Katie, my heart hurts for your mother. For the longest I could not understand why my dad would say "I just want out of here". It hurt my feeling so badly, because I thought he was upset with me for some reason or that I wasn't doing things right the last 6 months of his life. Now I completely understand. He was just so tired, his body was hurting, he could no longer eat... omg, I miss him so much.
Yes, I too am not happy with winter coming. This will be my first winter here completely alone. That scares me... Katie, we can make it.

The Chapter Names are FUNNY! You guys are coming up with some good ones. I don't think I saw "Waiting on the Next Crisis" "Strange Hiding Places" ha ha, mom would stash the most bizarre stuff in the weirdest places....

lucky, you hang in there too. We should ALL start taking mass amounts of Vitamin D before winter actually sets in and it's too late to stop the SAD. Oh Lord how I detest it.

Hope dear, sorry about the truck...frustrating when the same problem keeps coming up. Good of you to keep your cool... by the 4th time, I'd be flippin out!!

Well, almost noon and I'm still hanging out in my jammies. Is it Monday? Days really have no meaning to me anymore and yes, I do tend to confuse my days...guess I should start moving and be a productive citizen today.

Anyone else go days or weeks without seeing people (aside from store runs) ? I do. Thought I had something fun to do this past weekend but... not sure what happened. Mom's hospice nurse sent me a text early Saturday morning saying "I think we should try and do something this weekend". I replied by saying I think that would be great! Then asked if she's ever floated the river. Never heard back from her :( all of this is really starting to affect me and turning me into a introvert. Seems like I'm just happier being alone.

And now I need to go take a long shower and have a good cry. I've depressed myself into a sobbing mess once again.

Jeanette,Sorry your weekend wasnt too great and I know I would rather be alone...I believe things when I see them anymore.
And Hope,Heaven wouldnt be Heaven without our babies!

Haven't posted in a while, using new name, freaked out by the facebook,twitter bar on the side of the screen.However, my mother just casually mentioned something that is still making my chest tight. She has a little art studio down in our basement and we take her by golf cart up and down the hill our house is on to get to the basement so no stairs are involved,(she has bad osteoarthritis and is a big fall risk).So as I pick her up this afternoon to come back up to her bedroom she just casually mentioned how she had to " come back up and get Simmy(her dog)".It took a few seconds for this to register on my brain what this meant. It meant she had on her own without calling me,has a cell phone in a container around her neck and has never missed a chance to use it to call us upstairs if she needed something,to "walk" UP the hill with her rollator in 103 degree heat index to get her dog.Admitted to me she got dizzy and the heat chased her back into the basement. I tried to keep my voice from a hysterical pitch as I realized the bullet that had been dodged by her Very POOR judgement as I asked her WHY didn't you use your cell phone to call me and I would have run down in the golf cart and brought her dog, no big deal, WHy? The only answer I could get from her was "well I thought I could".I told her if I though she could walk up that hill safely I would have her walking it instead of riding in the gold cart. OMG! she had her 5th fall a few days ago in this downstairs studio just trying to take a few steps, this is a flat surface and she fell,she doesn't pick her feet up high enough and catches her foot and stumbles and down she goes, so far only soft landings.When I say 5th fall that is from Oct.2012 to Aug.2015,one was in her oncologist's office when he told her about the breast cancer treatment plan and she went nuts and lunged for a seat with wheels and landed on her but, took the MD and 3 of his nurses to get her up,kind of a hard landing ,just soft tissue bruising.Fell once in the kitchen due to failure of the brakes on her rollator,she went to sit and it slid out from under her,again luckily a soft landing,twice now down in the basement and once in her bedroom the night she came home from the hospitalization where she got the breast cancer diagnosis.I think I am losing years of my life trying to protect her from falling,a fall will end her life before cancer will, and then she make a terrible judgement call like this,she doesn't have dementia,just on a lot of morphine and that is sorta the problem/cure. She feels just good enough to get into trouble, her body will lie to her and she feels like she can do something like walk up this hill.I did better this time in that I didn't scream and yell because she scared the cr*p out of me but was able to impart the serious lapse of judgement she made and the possible consequences of such a judgement call.I have had to lay down and take extra Ativan,I am a retired nurse and although my knowledge base makes things easier I also know all the things that can go wrong.I believe in being proactive and have tried to create a safe environment for someone that is a fall risk that is on medications that increase this fall risk,but when she does stuff like this,I just want to throw my hands up in the air and run away,Okay now I feel better getting that off my chest. I have been keeping up with everybody's ongoing journeys, I am so sorry for this LO's lost recently and pray for the caregivers that now are now on a new road.

Well, the heart was willing but the plumbing wrench wasn't there.....dang it.....we have at least 20 plumbing wrenches in this house and I cannot find one single one of them. I can't go get my sink parts without it, so this day is shot as far as starting that goes...I have only been looking for one for a couple of weeks...I may as well go on and buy another one....that is why we already have 20 + in addition I discovered i have more tire tools than a dog has fleas....One of my projects is to get two bins and put one or two of each tool type in it and the rest of them are going to get tossed and head to the iron works for scrap...I have been telling my brother for years he best get what he wants...he hasn't ...so that is about to happen. ...It is hard to understand how having so many of everything means you can never find what you are looking for....we hae at least 10 large tool boxes and a large rolling tool chest as well...all of them loaded to the brim with enough stuff to weaponize ancient army...

During the course of looking for that wrench, I have run into all manner of stuff that has brought back a lot of not all that distant memories from when Mama was doing so well coming out of rehab...she was walking, able to get in and out of the car...I even took her to my former home one day to get the last kitty to bring her back here. She wore a pair of my sunglasses and looked so cute and I remember how happy I was that she was doing so well...That was only 3+ years ago...how did that time go by so fast...it has left me feeling so sad...

Hope sweetie, 3 years is a long time. It seems like nothing now, but it is over 1000 days! It is long enough to know someone to know if you want them in your life till death do us part! I need about 2 1/2 years before I can start to collect social security and it seems like forever. I pray my mom has 3 more decent years left.
As far as the tools go, it is like trying to find nail clippers when you need them! It seems like you have them everywhere until you need them. We do not have a garage. We do have a 900 sq ft storage building but it is about 1/8 of a mile from the house, so my husband uses my laundry/pantry to store his tools and other things that he doesn't feel like taking back after using. Even with all these tools in the house it seems the one we need is never here.

I am so frustrated with myself today. I got up and got going got my hair washed and styled...that is amazing enough, but I even put of a speck or two of makeup today...so I was ready to go and get my stuff and get some things done...just so excited knowing I was going to get something accomplished...and now...ugh...I guess I really did have a monkey wrench thrown into my day....

Went out to let pupster go pee pee and she went...yay!!! I"m really making quite a production over it...but she loves that little outing and so now I'm having to do it just about every hour on the hour...is that how often they normally go? seems kind a frequent to me. I'm ready to put some depends on her....the part I hate about it is I get eaten alive with the stinking mosquitoes and no seeums...ouch...

Hope, don't worry about the plumbing wrench, that is why you have 20! That is just how life works in our house too. We can never find something needed so we buy another one. Maybe if you tried borrowing one from a neighbor, you will be surprised that one is yours!

Falcon, just read the real estate deal fell through. Here are some alternatives to accepting that lousy excuse, Real Estate "agent separated from partner".
1) Call the partner to push the deal through. 2) understand that buying a house is not so much about the realtor agent (an attorney can now be your agent), and could be about the escrow company at this late date. Contact escrow. If they were building it for you, or add-ons for your tastes, was it a tract housing project? If so, find out who is buying it now. Sounds like a very suspicious reason to cancel a contract. Find out as much as you are able.
Then, MAKE A NEW OFFER, SAME HOME, NEW REALTOR. The other one is fired.

Jeanette so sorry you had a bad weekend. Trust me you aren't missing that much by not seeing people. People are highly overrated. Except for us here on Aging Care. We are the best. If I were there I'd float the river with you even though I don't really know what that is.LOL

Hope that is cute your Mom talking to her old kitty. I'm looking forward to seeing all my old pets one day. I'm sure my Mom is taking care of them right now. I always picture her sitting there with them all on her lap and at her feet.

Katie, Lucky Lu, Susan my thoughts are with you as always.

Thank you Gershun!

I *so* wish I could post a video to brighten everyone's spirits. My big yellow cat discovered one of my reuseable grocery bags - it's one of those ones made out of recycled plastic bags, so it has a slippery, vinyl-like texture. He *loves* the feel of it. He crawled inside it, and when I flipped it upright, he curled up on his back in the bottom of the bag and just laid there, all big-eyed and purring like a motorboat. Then the dog came over and stuck his big ol' nose in the bag and ruined it. LOL

My, I lead such an exciting life.....

I would love to float a river. I floated the Delaware River in tubes. Did a little River in Kutztown PA. Also did whitewater rafting in Tenn and CO. I love it but can't do white water anymore. There is a nice little River in north GA called the Toccoa. It is a sweet gentle ride. Someday we could all meet up in Blueridge, Ga and rent cabins and do a tube float on the Toccoa! They even have a working Drive-in. This is where my hubby and I were going to retire. A nice cabin on the lake. But those plans are on hold right now.

Susan LOL!

Falcon,Sorry your having such a rough time.Ill never understand why bad things happen to good people.Take care of yourself...

Hope, since
I live on a ranch out in nowhere land, we have a terrible mosquito problem and I take my dogs out after dark at least twice. I use the Off Clipon. The bugs still fly around me but they don't bite. I hate putting any lotion on so this is perfect. I turn it on before I go out the door and turn it off when I come back in. I have to change the little filter with the magic stuff after about 3 days, but it is so worth it.
And yes when they are puppies they have to go out a lot if you are around. That way you don't miss an opportunity that can train them. Sometimes they are just bored but if you carry training treats and give her one when she goes and say good job going poop she will begin to connect the purpose for being outside. The only other time. My dogs go out is when they want to play. Then I specifically ask if they want to go out to play ball. They know the words play ball and outside, so they distinguish the purpose of going out.

Well I finally got my husband's SS disability paperwork finished just in time for the 1pm appointment we had with them, and I think it went pretty well, so I hope he gets his determination within 120 days., that would be nice, plus they should pay him back pay for 1 year, which would be a nice chunk of change. I'm already spending it as if it were a lottery win, lol. I want new carpeting, new furniture in our family room, and some other interior beautificatios. It's been a while since we put any money into our home, as money has been tight, but things are easing up in that arena, so I'm starting to future trip a little. I exhausted today for some reason, probably because it took about 7 hours to complete all that paperwork, and I ate an entire SUBWAY! sandwich, so I'm carbed out! I hope you are all taking care of your self's and all your Loved ones are behaving! Have a great nite all! TADA! STACE

Sendme..you're probably right...and I think the last plumber who was here may have left with my prize red wrench to boot now that I'm remembering back on the day...

Gershun, you are right, a lot of people are overrated...Now if I said that on FB I would get blown away. That horrid man who went to pm me and blasted me and told me what a horrible, hateful human I was, selfish, unlovable, apparently full of hate and anger....all of this in response to something I had written that I felt that it was in our best interest to obey law enforcement people...and that if we felt we were mistreated we could file a complain later...when it was safe...wow....never have I been called the names he called me...you're so right...people are overrated...so much of the time.

I am VERY thankful Jeanette that I enjoy my own company too...If I want to be part of a group there are always opportunities for that out there, at least I guess they are still there...but I just don't like being in groups much anymore..unless it was all of yall. now I would enjoy that immensely.....

I remember back to when I even went to the casino alone...I loved it...that way I could stay til I wanted to leave and then go...I could do my own thing and nobody to complain about it...

Well, this day sure flew by...and the cooler weather is moving in already and I am so thankful...I am a fall person...I even love the winter...just like Mama...always feels so cozy...and I love our little fireplace...it is right here where Mama can see it always and I think she enjoys snoozing watching the fire...I know I do....

Hope, you make it sound so cozy. I remember when I was little, if I was sick my Mom would make a bed for me on the couch downstairs in our house and we always had a fire burning. We had a real wood burning fireplace and she would let me sleep down there. It was so nice to just lay there watching the fire burn out with no other lights on. She took such good care of us all.

I am kind of sick right now. I wish I could turn back time and have my Mom taking care of me like the old days. But thats why I wanted to take care of her cause she was such a dear soul.

I have a confession. There is that devil thing sitting on my shoulder that is curious about the ashley madison website and so many people I know have been on there snooping..BUT...I am so paranoid about that stuff...I am nosy...curious??..nosy is right...almost went on there to look and then it dawned on me, what if it somehow captures my info and then puts me on the list??? Nope, I think I'll keep my nosy self away from there....On a very serious and sad note, I heard...don't know if it's true..but heard there have been some suicides over people whose lives are being ruined by being found out...so sad...sickening really...people sure can mess their lives up....I'm not sure I even understand what all is going on...I know just enough to be dangerous, which is another reason I should just stay away from it....

And you know, after I posted that, it dawned on me it sounded kind of holier than thou and I just want to say I am the first to say I mess up all the time...so I surely did not mean to be judging anyone by saying what I did about that site....that bothered me, so just hope if it sounded tacky, forgive me....

Your comments were not self righteous hope, I admit I am curious also... want to know if my ex husbands names are on that list... and yes, have heard about the suicides... when are people going to get it.... that nothing is private on the internet....If AC gets hacked, I'm fired and ya'll are left out of the will... but it is human nature to look at a " car wreck"......but like you, was afraid my info would be caught up in the mess.... nope, we are just human and curious....

Hope, it sounded like self control, common sense, and wisdom. You are right not to go looking because it would be the same as going to a porn site, then they can track you, maybe. Buf if you were ever investigated, would you want to answer why you went to that site? Don't worry about it, the topic will soon be on reality shows, or any list will go viral. Think about good things and get your rest tonight.
You are ok, very human and very good.

Gershen, you honor your mom's life everytime you mention her. It is true that your words will always be on the internet, but more true she lives in your heart longer than that. Get your rest, you already know to drink more water, this is here just to remind everyone else. Me too, the water is sitting right there, all I have to do is drink it, easy peazy. Goodnight Gershen!

Gershun, I love what you said about your Mother. That was beautiful.
You all are wonderful, make me smile and make me laugh! Your so right it's all about the poop. My husband and I spent Sunday our 52nd Anniversary at hospital with Momma. She has upper respiratory infection. We are all on Z packs. Waiting to get better. At least we are home safe in our own little world. No UTI thank GOD. Praying for all of you and lots of hugs. One day at a time.