I'm tired of cooking/preparing 3 meals a day. It's just the two of us but boy oh boy can that woman eat!! She stays slimish, I get fattish. It's bad enough I do everything here much less start making her one thing and me the other. At times I feel guilty when I buy her fast food cuz of the nutritional value....not to mention I eat it too.
I think it might be a good idea to encourage folks to leave a nice message on her message board so when she gets better she can see how people have supported her.
I don't care for the whole "service" thing. My main reason being, if as many people as have visited her other than my brother and my cousin, attended, there would be all of five people there...the ones who have not been there I don't even care to see. It will be too late. I don't want to stand in a line while people who have done zero or have gone out of their way to hurt me come through and want to hug me and tell me how sorry they are...I could tell THEM how sorry they are..maybe that's what I should tell them when they say that... "I know that already".....
I know, the main thing is that I want it to be for my Mama, which means I cannot show my behind. I already know when I leave this earth, anything that is done in my memory I would prefer it be in the way of a donation to the local animal shelter...and just go on and cremate me or put me in the ground, whichever is easiest on whoever is stuck with me....As I've told my brother many times, people have already let me know what they think of me while I'm here, I dont need or want them coming after I am gone with a bunch of phony baloney verbage...I think I've gotten quite hardened... I don't even think of it as being morose, I will be in a better place and what they do with what is left here is up to them...
Evening is definitely not a good time around here for Mama. That is when she is her most absent it seems. She seems so sad and confused...that sad, distant look...it kills me. The best chance I have of getting to have a few happy moments with her is early morning...This is so hard.....
I don't let very many people into my life cause people unfortunately are generally selfish and self-centered when it comes right down to it.
I am happy with my husband, my two fur kids and the few people in my life that I call friends. There aren't many but the ones I have are loyal and true. The rest of them if they don't want to be around me and support me, can just piss off.
My mom let me know that her funeral service is all planned with the readings, music etc. everything is already paid for including her cremation. It is all written up in her black bag that she makes me put in the safe. She is so thoughtful. She didn't want to put that burden on me or anyone else in the family. She is the best!
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There is one "friend" who we literally had to raise her spoiled brat kid and who totally messed up my teen years by having to babysit her all summer long for nothing...well 15.00 a WEEK...so in other words, nothing...anyway, she is in every sense of the world, a spoiled, self entitled brat, and her mother is an arrogant big shot (who doesn't have a pot to pee in) and they never go visit anyone who is sick, do anything for anyone who is sick, but whenever anyone without 100 miles that they vaguely knew passes, here they come, dressed to the nines, trying to pretend they are dignitaries and acting like "oh I am soooooo sorry, we thought the world of so and so"...no you didn't ..you big fake #:$%*#)..... I'm telling you, in my state of mind I can't go through it...I don't like to say I hate people...but I hate these peoples ways....and ..well...fill in the blanks..
I am ashamed to admit that if it were just me, I would probably have a totally private ceremony for me and my brother and that would be that.
Just remembering the enormous vigils all of our family has always had makes me physically ill. My neighbor's Mom passed about five years ago and she was older than my Mama and knew very few folks still living. She had a very very simple viewing, one hour before the ceremony in the chapel, and that was it. That is what I want. I think that is all I can do mentally. I want it to honor Mama, but for me, I am honoring Mama by what i am doing now...much more than anything I could do after she has passed. I need to remember that...thank you all for getting it....
The funeral industry is a thriving business. I was rather shocked that the cost of the plot depended on the location in the cemetery and the degree of proximity to a statue. I've never heard of such nonsense!
Thanks for letting me vent here and for keeping us updated on Veronica.
Enough with the scented candles. Are you aware those candle wicks are held up with metal inside the wick? Usually M E R C U R Y ! Toxic to Charley girl's little brain!! $1.00 @ the dollar store: Little paper lanterns with batteries in the base. Light the room better than a night light, you can see just enough to walk around.
Really peaceful nightlight for doggy. Lasts all night, and over several nights. We hang ours from the ceiling fans.
Having said that, all told there were 400,000 customers without power. There are still about 100,000 that have been without power for two days now. So as much as I like a good wind storm, I feel for these people.
Took a bunch of photos. Dad had 4 beers (eek). He did recognize his brothers but not his sisters, or sister in law. Didn't talk much but seemed to enjoy himself.
Everyone left close to his dinner time despite us eating lunch late. I just hope tonight he isn't agitated after we all left. Will pop in tomorrow to see how he is.
My feet hurt as the sandals I wore were not supportive so I have slippers that I can use with my TENS unit so hopefully that will help.
If I can get the remainder of the cats in early it will be an early bedtime for me.