I'm tired of cooking/preparing 3 meals a day. It's just the two of us but boy oh boy can that woman eat!! She stays slimish, I get fattish. It's bad enough I do everything here much less start making her one thing and me the other. At times I feel guilty when I buy her fast food cuz of the nutritional value....not to mention I eat it too.
Now we have Ebola to worry about. Ebola has been around since 1976 but not many people contracted the virus.... as of today over 8,000 have the virus, with 50% not surviving. There is no vaccine. Doesn't this scare you just a little?
i got rained out of work today but thats a good thing .no one else out on the farm will show up on a weekend so ill work saturday and sunday both if im not rained out and if i get things ready for a concrete pour next week ill be man of the year in mikes eyes . im nonchalantly trying to make myself an integral part of this farm for the stonework and the year round employment it offers . there are serious benefits out there . for one , the farm foreman is going to give me all his leftover from last year venison . then hes going to knock me down a doe in this new deer season . the doe is going into widemouth mason jars . i love pressure canned meat , its fork tender when it comes out of the jars . it all keeps pointing to " get your ass to diggin the root cellar " . this is 100% MY life again and its a rocket sled ride when i get things lined up . the farm store finally marked down the cherry trees so i crammed another in the orchard today , worked 3 hours , had banana cream pie with edna , planted a tree and put the new truck tool box into service . had to install junk tray in it and a lid stop chain .
you people who feel like youll never get your own life moving again after caregiving ? you will , damnt , and youll enjoy the challenge of starting over . youll do it with renewed vigor and the blessing / approval of the elder you took time out of your life for ...
butterfly tell aunty you will not be answering your phone for X# of hours then turn it off. You can check your voice mail if you feel compelled but don't let her guilt you me time is me time
My issue with driving is now my panic attacks are in full bore... thanks to my parents who stopped driving 6 years ago.... every year my panic attacks would get worse and worse... and if I mentioned it to my parents, Dad would say "but who will drive us?". So I would charge ahead hoping for the best. Finally had to stop. Last night Dad asked if I am going to see a doctor about the panic attacks. Been doing that already, Dad, for a couple of years now, there is no magic cure.... [sigh]
this isnt the first time ive had to buy back my own stuff . i had to buy my handmade woodstove , pressure canner , etc from the ex years ago . i just out and out stole my chainsaw from her . she was going to turn a 12 yr old kid loose with it and expect him to get the firewood in . na , not on my watch b*tch ..
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govt is filled with eight eyed idiots . they think they can stop drug abuse by curbing the flow of narcotics . it dont work like that . the artificially inflated value of them will lead to more theft and murder for drugs , or an even larger shift to heroin , and finally pharmacies south of the border will start bootlegging pills of questionable quality . were sending idiots to DC to represent us . they are so far detached with the realities of the common man that i wouldnt trust one of them to make me a bag of mortar much less rule our nation .
I have seriously thought about getting some velcro for her and her chair. She simply will not sit still for 30 seconds and it's 1000 times asked, "where is her chair"?
I am breaking out in cold sweats... gulping air, .... crud, I hate to post such awful stuff but man, this is my life. I'm feeding her now as she just doesn't want to eat... make her drink a minimum of 3 ensure plus's a day... I am losing this battle.
Just having a rough day... I wanna tap my slippers and go home, but it's been 2 years and where the h*ll is home?
Terminal restlessness? No, I saw my dad go through that, this is different. She is moving constantly, yes, I mean non stop up/down/doors open/closed/here/there.. she takes the normal prescribed meds for AD. Really? Does other AD loved ones do this? I really haven't read much of this sort of behavior.
Winging it alone? Who do you suggest I call in? The Calvary? Ghostbbusters? My brother's whom we have not seen in months?
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