I'm tired of cooking/preparing 3 meals a day. It's just the two of us but boy oh boy can that woman eat!! She stays slimish, I get fattish. It's bad enough I do everything here much less start making her one thing and me the other. At times I feel guilty when I buy her fast food cuz of the nutritional value....not to mention I eat it too.
I finally got the VA thing cleared up and thankfully the appeal has gone through and the corrected amount has been adjusted and the retro pay has been deposited into Mama's account. While I started not to inform my brother that everything was done, I decided, No, that is not who I am. I am not hiding anything so will just let him know I have it handled. He was estatic..and said...wow, I'm so happy for yall...now I can visit and enjoy the visit... ????????? I'm guessing that means now he doesn't have to feel guilt or something...I don't even care anymore...
I'm thinking there's a black cloud over my head right about now. Dog is sick with diarrhea since late Sunday night and no idea why (no blood, nothing like that, just appears that nothing stays in his system for long), so I came home from grocery shopping to a MESS to clean up - and for once, it wasn't Mom that caused it! (Yes, all over the nice newly refinished hardwood floors - they got a real initiation!) Last night I found out my oldest son is considering giving up his parental rights to his toddler son, whom he never sees or even bothers to pay child support on. Don't get me started on that one. Today, my cell phone decided to just turn off by itself and now won't turn back on. Battery is fully charged, and I was downloading some music - something I've done hundreds of times without problems.
Just a small break, God....that's all I ask!
Dog will go to the vet this weekend if he doesn't get better. I've been on the phone with the vet daily and they say to keep watching him until then and continue the Immodium for another 24 hours - that there's a wicked virus going around in dogs around here that causes these symptoms. The problem is that he seems better for 12-14 hours, perky, playing, back to his old self - and seems interested in food, so he has a LITTLE plain boiled chicken and white rice (vet recommended) - so I think he's getting better and feel relieved. But within 30 minutes to an hour, he's back outside, getting rid of it in the most unpleasant way possible. (sigh) He has had all the "home" remedies recommended by the vet - immodium, chicken/rice, 24-hour fast, etc. This is horrible stuff. :-(
I keep reminding myself that I believe the closer you are to doing things right or the closer you are to something really good happening, the harder the devil will ride you....and I feel like he has a saddle and harness on me lately...I am bone weary...BUT Mama is happy and doing well, soooooo I remind myself of that as well and know that the other stuff is just stuff..and I need to file it away in the "useless worries" pile and forget it....it is so easy to get off track...and always seems like "someone" knows just which buttons to push...it is an absolutely glorious fall day out there so I am going to get out there and be thankful...Mama has been talking today...I am always so happy to see her like this...so all that other mess just does not matter...it hurts...but in the grand scheme of things, it just doesn't matter...
the farm foreman gave me about 75 pounds of frozen , packaged venison so ill begin canning it this evening . i gave him 40 bucks for it but its worth considerably more .
the colonoscopy looked great , one small pollyp removed .
two steps forward and one step back i guess . had i felt at all impared today i wouldnt have drove at all . as always , be considerate to the cops and own your screwups and they usually reciprocate with kindness .. i told em i knew dam well i wasnt supposed to drive home . if id have lied or played stupid theyd have beat me all the way to jail . cant say id blame them . i dont like liars -- ill pay the ticket ..
Hope if the dog is still bad see if the vet will give you some steroid for him.. I would hold the chicken just give him the rice with some plain broth. Meat is too much to digest. Ask Bobi she has had the same problem herself!!!!!!!!!!!!! As I have. it is not quick to get over. Don't give up on him too fast unless the vet thinks he has cancer but that is another story.
Talked to the on-call vet tonight after the dog had horrible episode outside - I won't go into the disgusting details, but suffice it to say there were new and very alarming symptoms that scared the heck out of me. I lost a dog to Acute Lymphocytic Leukemia several years ago, and my current dog just suddenly developed almost identical symptoms, with a major step-up in the severity tonight. Vet says I can bring him in tonight, but to be honest, he thinks it can wait til tomorrow to save me the ER visit fee (bless him!). He thinks it's colitis, but not ruling other things out, due to his age and breed. So he goes to the vet tomorrow and hopefully, we get things fixed. I have to say, though, this makes me sick to my stomach. Last time I took a dog to the vet with these symptoms, thinking she had something that could be "fixed", I came out of the vet's office having to bury my dog.
Susan...will keep good thoughts for your pup..and for you....hopefully it is just an intestinal bug. Good thoughts and prayers for all....hope everyone gets a good nights sleep
Just hang in there.
oh well . skewed gabba levels or no , im building steam in the old pressure canner tonight for the first time in 15 years . hope no jars break . thats a real drag when your canning meat .
ive canned beef before and it is fork tender when you take it out of the jars . some of the jars im running right now have two hunks of deer loin in them . i know thats going to be delicious no matter what dish is made with it .
ill get it right . its been 15 years since i pressure canned anything .
What are you going to do for power when TSHTF? Just curious - I have my own ideas
i dont think civil unrest will ever be an issue in the usa . law enforcement is incredibly powerful and have the ability to arm millions of deputized civilians in a matter of hours . im not paranoid of law enforcement . the dealings ive had with them in the last few years show them to be pretty civil if you treat them with a bit of respect . at one hearing i had for petty vandalization the judge asked me right away if i was in a position of elder care . they were taking that burden into consideration when i myself didnt realize the potential for frustration and lashing out that came with the caregiving gig . i was thrown in the slam and given a semiprivate cell instead of being thrown into an overcrowded drunk tank .
i have 7 more qts of venison on but this time im bringing the temp up very casually .
in ww11 the germans had fuel availability problems and they built double chamber wood stoves to run their trucks . the wood fire in the bottom chamber done nothing but scorch wood in the top chamber . the gases from the scorched wood were combustible enough to run the engines .
ive read that in the event of a complete breakdown in society that kids / teens would be your worst potential enemy . they wouldnt have sense enough to barter so they might try to take what they want by force . im way ahead of em . i plan to cook em and eat em .. suckers !!