I'm tired of cooking/preparing 3 meals a day. It's just the two of us but boy oh boy can that woman eat!! She stays slimish, I get fattish. It's bad enough I do everything here much less start making her one thing and me the other. At times I feel guilty when I buy her fast food cuz of the nutritional value....not to mention I eat it too.
Never got scary but for 3-4 days I was pretty sick, and then some symptoms just PARKED themselves for days. I was advised that recovery would likely be steady but slowwwwwwww which was the case for me and I’m glad someone told me that!
But here’s my whine: I can’teven get covid in peace! Mom had another emergency and on day 4 w/a fever I woke up talking to a frantic sounding paramedic. Thought mom was gonna go and cue the entire day of phone calls and coordination and and and…mom snapped out of it fine and I came out of it emotionally and physically exhausted.
Also I’ve noticed that every time mom has a big emergency I end up schlepping large pieces of furniture. To big moves to this time one bed.
Other part of my whine is my washing machine broke at the beginning of covid….you can imagine the pile of laundry…
Thank you forum for letting me whine! GladI’mHere I hope you have a PEACEFUL recovery!!!
Yellowstone marathon this weekend. I am definitely not a marathoner, but will figure out how to add it to my library.
But really enjoying Start TV. Lots is great shows,
Crossing Jordan
Cold Case
Unforgettable
Rizolli and Isles
The Closer and more
Get better! My go-to is hibiscus tea for everything-sick now, plus generic Emergen-C drinks daily.
I dove straight into work, picking up as many shifts as possible after finishing my B.S. I'm so tired. C'est la vie... for now. I'm dreaming of a real vacation away from it all. (((hugs))) all.
I am able to get out of bed for about 30 minutes until the chills and fatigue send me back to my warm bed.
I have quite the supply of emergen-c that I ordered from Amazon at the start of Covid. I have been drinking it twice daily, until today. It really causes the runs.
Will check out The Boys, just for the heck of it.
Ali, does the college have a job placement assistance program?
ali -sounds like even a small break might be in order for you.
One more soap opera - R managed to book a bus ticket up here for Friday night. It felt wrong to me (I have taken buses with RA over the years) so I checked and there is no bus Friday night. He doubled checked and they could only say there was a glitch in the system as indeed there is no bus Friday night and he shouldn't have been able to book then. However the good news is he managed to catch a ride up and got here early Saturday afternoon. He is an amazing worker and the house looks like a mini construction site and many jobs are underway. What a relief! Rocky isn't too impressed with all of what's going on in the household but so far she is managing.
Last night it took me about 5 minutes to get the TV to finally land on a station. Have to use 2 remotes, and heaven forbid I push the wrong key out of 47 [and that's just one remote], I would need to start all over again..... [sigh].
Where is the KISS principle here?
Feeling a bit better. Body aches not as bad. Just when I think they are gone they are back. Same with the headache and sore throat. It is very strange.
We still mask up before entering a store. It is weird, as I still feel like I am someone who is about to rob the place any time I put the mask on :P
We've been back and forth for doctor's appointments and lab test, and those places the employees all have on their mask. I have noticed less people going in and out of stores not having masks. If that continues, we could see more folks getting the flu plus some covid cases. Last year flu cases were way down due to masking, etc.
It looks like the behavior of an enemy, not a friend or loving family member.
I’m not saying it’s always the case, but I think some elderly people (very often it’s the mother) are DEEPLY JEALOUS of your youth.
They try to destroy your youth. (By youth, I just mean you’re younger than them).
When one gets to an age where they can no longer just hop in the car to head to the mall to shop or meet friends for lunch.
They can no longer enjoy going to the movies [last time my parents went, Mom's hearing aide fell out during the movie]. They stopped going.
One's friends have either moved out of the area or have passed away. My Dad was the last person from his senior high school class.
Also their parents, siblings, aunts/uncles, cousins have passed. The old homestead from the early 1900's sometimes is torn down to make way for something newer like a totally empty lot.
Food we use to enjoy is now tasting weird or has been banned from our diet. One doctor is holding hostage the salt shaker.
Seeing a TV show all the way through is something to celebrate as too many times one falls asleep. Yes, fall asleep even with the TV volume on high. Our ears also age.
Reading books or newspapers become a challenge as we age so do our eyes. I need bright light and a magnifying glass [reading glasses makes me seasick].
Taking a shower or taking a bath feels like a workout one would get from going to the gym.
And if one watches TV ads, heaven forbid someone should show up in public with a wrinkle on their face, crowfeets, laugh lines, etc. showing models in their ads who are only in their meer 40's. Whew, at least grey hair is the rage now, it wasn't a couple of years ago.
Yada, yada, yada.
Oh, and BIL was supposed to have surgery on a skin cancer next week, that will obviously be cancelled now.
(This is Venting) (Some of you know me.) (I lost my password, so I made a new screen name for myself).
Please avoid this message if you like: it’s only negative. I need to vent. I, like trillions of daughters out there, have an abusive Mom. I’m trying to find a way to free myself.
I also suddenly remembered that I had challenged myself weeks ago, to really focus on my own problems, rather than my Mom’s problems. Well, I totally failed.
I wish I knew the way out. I wish you all well. I hope my next message will be positive.
And I sit it Doctors all the time. But my reasoning is I treat her the way I would want to be treated at her age. Also ,nobody forces me to eat that's my doing.
All I can say is I'm going to be huge .
"The milk is empty".
Ok! I need to go get the milk.
If I don't, I would not be doing a good job, not putting others needs first, might be a bad person? Or selfish?
I go to buy milk. The shop wants me to collect it from the supplier. The supplier wants me to collect it from the farm. The farm want me to milk the cow.
I arrive back after many hours, exhausted, muddy, hungry. But with some milk...
Or..
"The milk is empty'.
Yes. It is.
I wonder if sometimes we just need to LISTEN & wait.
Rather than fly into action.
We have dropped from high 80s (31C) to close to freezing. R said there was frost at the farm yesterday. Fortunately not here yet which is very unusual. We normally get overnight frost before the end of August. Not whining about that. I am still recovering from R's visit and all the accompanying activity. tired, needing extra sleep and having a bit of fm. In itself not bad, but it means I can't do much these days. I moved a bit of stuff and I guess I shouldn't have.
DD is home and exhausted from all the treatments and still losing weight -about 40 lbs so far. I want to make her some chicken soup as that went down well before but right now even that is a challenge. One step at a time - put the chicken in a pot with water and turn on the burner!