I'm tired of cooking/preparing 3 meals a day. It's just the two of us but boy oh boy can that woman eat!! She stays slimish, I get fattish. It's bad enough I do everything here much less start making her one thing and me the other. At times I feel guilty when I buy her fast food cuz of the nutritional value....not to mention I eat it too.
When I get beyond tired, I turn into a giant crybaby... which is what I am right now. I somehow need to regroup. My problems are no worse than any one else who post or deal with this. Right now she's in the kitchen standing in front of the window telling her reflection to "come here". Usually it is me who she says this to. I haven't the strength right now to redirect her....which no longer works.
Cap, don't keep count of favors. Someone higher than you does that already.
I think I shall look into placing her somewhere for at least a week. How can I take care of her properly if I am almost at my end? Where are my brothers? 3 weeks ago my oldest said he'd be back to visit in a few days? Hate? I think I do.
your mom is fortunate to have such an intelligent caregiver on her side imo .
ive lived life on the behalf of others for so long i dont know how to live for myself alone .
has been a good day. Mama is sleeping ...a LOT...probably more than I'd like, but I guess that is better than her being restless. She seems very comfortable so that is a blessing. But it is odd how it can feel so lonely with so much going on in this house and because she is asleep, and so quiet, it just seems all the more quiet....so many memories this time of year anyway..and everything I do, reminds me of her and of us doing things together...but that means we have a lot of good memories too. She has these moments...where she sleeps so much..sometimes the entire day..and then will way up bright and alert. I guess it goes with the territory...
Need to get some writing done and work on a project for a new client. Picked up 2 new clients last week and one of them recommended me to a colleague of hers, so another potential new client may come on board next week. :-) If it all pans out, this winter will be far easier financially than last!
" football "
i need to build a root cellar and your watching football .
just kiddin with you ( kinda ) . dribble me about 250 of those block over here and kick a field goal with about 15 buckets of mortar and we' ll be on the same page .
nothing goes as planned . bought a 5 dollar thrift store blender that doesnt work . i might be able to coerce some life out of it but in the meantime im still making my coc nut creme pie . edna loves them and i can make an entire pie for the 3 . 50 a slice ive been paying at a restaurant . this blenderis fn with the wrong cat . ill spin it with a chainsaw if i have to .
I give my recommendations but my parents sometimes act like I don't know what I am talking about.... doesn't matter that I currently manage an office building and talk with tradespeople on a regular basis :P
I never had good luck with names on Angie's list, too many red flaps would pop up just on my initial telephone call, and some of the rave reviews I question because of past knowledge of poor workmanship or customer service which I heard throughout the years from others. Here in my area we have an independent consumer checklist, paid subscription, which is pretty spot on, I've had good luck finding tradespeople from that list :)
My parents hired an uninsured person to do their roof about 10 years ago. He started having back trouble after he took off part of their roof. He left it that way for over two weeks -- no tarp, nothing. I talked to my mother every day, telling her to get someone in to finish the job. She wouldn't do it. Finally a torrential rain came. There was so much damage to the uncovered part of the house. My parents didn't even file insurance or have a damage crew out to dry things out. They just paid some thousands to have someone professional do the roof and fix the ceilings and walls. Unfortunately, they didn't tend to the moisture, so the damage is still extensive.
The uninsured worked didn't have the money they paid him, so he swore he would cut their grass for free for the rest of their lives. That lasted a little over a year before he said he had to start charging again. I guess he hoped they would die soon.
It was exasperating. I told them not to hire this guy, because I knew he wasn't dependable. I told them over and over to get the roof back on the house. My mother was so busy being "nice" that she wouldn't act. It is a good lesson on why not to hire an unlicensed, uninsured person, even if you think you know him.