I'm tired of cooking/preparing 3 meals a day. It's just the two of us but boy oh boy can that woman eat!! She stays slimish, I get fattish. It's bad enough I do everything here much less start making her one thing and me the other. At times I feel guilty when I buy her fast food cuz of the nutritional value....not to mention I eat it too.
She's about six weeks old, tiny and desperate for affection so she's not feral, just likely dumped (some days I hate the human race!). It will be a couple of weeks before she can do a meet and greet with the rest of the gang. Full of fleas, lice and worms she has a huge dog crate in my sun room for now with a radio for company. She's so sweet, full of energy and afraid of nothing. I will be taking down my sheer curtains lol Her name is Lucy.
I have started jobs and had to leave them due to her increasing and unpredictable needs. So essentially, this has become my job with just a little outside housekeeping to add to the household income. So, my income is pretty much 1/2 of the household rent (i.e. around $500). With all that I do and am limited to do, I am grossly underpaid. She could not hire someone from the outside to live here and do what I do.
So even if I were to make what I theoretically should make, I WOULD NOT DO THIS JOB AGAIN IF YOU PAID ME!
The past few months I've been using an on-line service to order the groceries and the next morning, before work, I drive up to the front of the store, give the employee my name, he checks his list, and loads up my car, everything already paid for, takes 5 minutes. Then I drop off the bags at my parents house. Whew, what a time saver :)
Anyway, my whine is that my Mom wants me to still go into the store and get certain items because she doesn't like some of those on-line items [even though they are the identical product]... "it taste funny", or "cost 10 cents more".... ARKKKKK, that is defeating the purpose of me using the on-line service.... to save ME time because I still work.
This on-line service also has home delivery service, I am so tempted to use that, but I know my parents would squawk big time at the delivery fee.
Now, if my parents would have moved to the retirement village, they themselves could go grocery shopping every single day as the village offers that transportation free of charge.
Daughter said, "wow, Mom, I wish others could see how much you're having to do for grandma!"....yes well....as my ex used to say, "Wish in one hand and sh*t in the other and see which one gets full first!"
None of this is fair at all. It isn't fair that she has lost her ability to deal with life. And it isn't fair that I spend so much of my time trying to make things work for her. Those questions we mentioned the other day -- What now? What next? -- are going through my mind. But it could have been worse. The man did call back, instead of showing up at the door. And at least we have $45. I guess I really can't whine.
Hang in there Hope may sound awful but your mum is a good old age and cant last for much longer with this illness? Im away for a week and im nervous about coming back already?????? scared i may never return!
Yes its easier when siblings are not too much involved but i would never say no to a break why couldnt your aunt do the decent thing and come for a week? theyve no idea have they?
Chin up we are all cracking up here its a very stressful situation but what goes down must come back up again thats life and things cannot stay one way forever thats what keeps me going but yes so hard to be positive but we have to try or we will crack!
Hugs!