I'm tired of cooking/preparing 3 meals a day. It's just the two of us but boy oh boy can that woman eat!! She stays slimish, I get fattish. It's bad enough I do everything here much less start making her one thing and me the other. At times I feel guilty when I buy her fast food cuz of the nutritional value....not to mention I eat it too.
Balls or lack thereof...I'm personally thinking lack of balls. WTF indeed, if I boasted about my IQ in one sentence yet got beat up by someone whom obviously respects his DOG in the other sentence... hehe, well... I'd say the IQ isn't as high as you believe it is. Sounded pretty damn stupid to me. Sometimes I think you are jealous that people can and DO unconditionally their animals and you've never had unconditional love. I am proud of my big pibble. I spend a lot of time with her and trust me, it is me whose been rewarded with her big loving heart filled with trust that I'd never toss her from a truck, yes... I was rewarded for saving her, actually, many times I've felt she saved me during the most horrific time so far in my life. The fact that she may be looked upon as a bad dog or vicious because she's a pittie mix makes me love her even more and makes me think less of those whom IQ's are so damn high they can't find a spark of "love" in their old burnt up backwoods country canning heart. You've been on this website a lot longer than I have... yet apparently you can't read or else you wouldn't have the time to even bother with us animal lovers due to all the sadness and pain that goes on here. There doesn't seem to be an empathetic bone in your body anymore, which is very concerning...I mean, even a "graying" dog wants to do away with your hatred of life. Did caregiving for your mother do this to you? or is just the way you have always been... are people born a**holes or is it learned?
Being a kind person isn't being a doormat. It's being true to yourself and a very good attribute to have. Of course we feel stupid at times for always being the nice one when other's are so stoic and standoffish. Personally I don't care anymore, I will be who I am and do whatever makes me feel good inside. The dynamics of caregiving and siblings is almost unreal at times. We all seem to have went into this with the best of intentions and hopes that help would be there when needed yet more than likely help never arrives. We caregivers suffer from serious psychological trauma if you ask me... the anger and disappointment I feel towards my brothers is just plane unhealthy and I honestly need to let it slip away and be gone, never forgotten, just gone. I mean really now, it's just incomprehensible that 3 grown ass boys, all older than me, could be so uncaring for the ONE person who truly loved them. The more I try to understand people whom are capable of just not giving a shit the more headache I get.... so much easier scratching my big pibs back side... and pibbles do have the cutest beefy butts, and getting her sweet smiley kisses than trying to kiss family's ass just for them to act decent.
Shilo... please keep in touch/informed of what you're doing, God knows we worry!! I wish there was a way to help you with your final task... prayers that all goes well is all I can do from here :)
I'm guessing they'll be a bit like the tax form he's asked me about three times. And then proceeded to fill in with his prior address, sigh.
If you don't want to go that far, you could just unfriend him, which would stop him getting notifications of your activity but would not stop him from searching for you on FB.
There is also a way to put FB friends into various groups (close friends, family, acquaintances, make-your-own-category), and only share your posts with selected groups of friends. It's designed for folks who want to share kids pics with "grandparents" and barn pics with "horse friends", for example. If you really want to keep him a friend but not have him see certain posts, that's an option. It does make extra work, and it won't stop him from searching/studying your activity.
My question is, if he's making you as uncomfortable as it sounds like he is, why would you want to stay FB friends? Gut feelings are usually right. He may not be a bad person, but if he's bad for you right now, get him out of your online life.
Twin...the thought of a video doing what I do on a daily basis and him watching would be something else again would it not??? I guess it could be punctuated with those impromptu moments where I just pitch over face forward while folding the laundry because I am so tired mentally exhausted....what a video it would be...
Yogagirl...those are my exact thoughts...the last thing on this earth I ever want (or need) to think of is getting involved with someone, which at my age, includes their kids, and they ALWAYS resent us whether we are jerks or not...and then they would probably need caregiving and boom, here we go again..no thanks....I have never gotten to live for ME in my entire life...NEVER...I think I was remembering that today and that is when I went on my downhill spiral...I have always been the dutiful child, the dutiful niece, grandchild, neighbor, etc. and it is feeling now like I was almost bred to be so....Looking back I do not remember my brother EVER being groomed to do this and now I can see things where I feel like I was always the caregiver in waiting...
I really aggravated tonight...I have no idea why but when I found out on Facebook that my cousin, who had recently friended me, because she promptly asked me after doing so to please take in her cat because she is going to have a baby and the ladies at the church told her cats would smother babies...I promptly told her they were a bunch of gossipy old biddies that didn't know what they were talking about and that if your cat was a family pet and you watched them and made sure the pet was not jealous, etc. then they were usually very loving and caring when it came to new infants...I then discovered her mother..my first cousin, had also unfriended me...Damn family...I am so over them all...when I look back at how Mama practically raised all of their spoiled brat fannies and now that they don't think she knows any different they have just abandoned her...and me..they can KISS IT.....
I get along with my brother now...that is all that matters...later on I am done with that bunch of bozos...and the crazy part is..they are some of the world's worst at juding everyone, a bunch of Bible thumping holier than thous...I wonder how proud God would be of the way they abandoned the very sister who took care of all of them, including their Mama...they are sorry in my book..I no longer want anything to do with them...
I'm going to start composing my video....I can get the appropriate music and everything....I'm ready for my closeup....
Mom's first trip out of the NH and her bday party went off without a hitch...more later....too tired now.
I got rid of my LinkedIn account because it was becoming too much of a popularly contest. And the ex-husband of the neighbor across the street was boosting how great he was, yada, yada, yada, and he had 500+ followers... and he was still alive on Linkedin with all those followers even after being arrested on a drug charge. Show how much the followers are paying attention :P
You know the old saying "those who can do, those who can't talk about it" For instance someone who comes on here and says they have balls probably doesn't.
Like yours, my brother tells folks that his sister takes care of his "Mom" and that he helps as much as he can..when I read your post I thought...good lord, it's my brother...I don't know what is wrong with me today...maybe it's that old holiday let down..another holiday coming and going and me, alone, pretending Mama is enjoying herself..in reality, I suppose she could care less what day of the week it is.I am worn out, fed up and exhausted..
And even though he's cute as a button, and I would never rehome him unless I KNEW she was better off than she is with me, the dog is creating a LOT of extra work and aggravation for me...mainly because my cats are now totally in upheaval, which means I can't get them to come in, which means I don 't get to rest..any...and my other cat never came home, which I am almost 99% certain was due to coyotes.I am having one of those depressed episodes where I am having to remind myself it will pass....but all I want to do is cry.
My friend, the one who excitedly offered to take me on a FIVE MINUTE DRIVE AROUND MY NEIGHBORHOOD....sent me a long email about how she and her family went to the lake as well, and all the great food they fixed, and all the cool fireworks they got to enjoy, blah, blah, blah...
Then there's this man who I do not even know whom I feel is practically staking me on FB because if there is ANY activity by me, he immediately sends me a pm (I have fixed my chat window so folks can't see when I'm on there) but he watches the activity apparently and he starts wanting to chat...I don't know him, I don't want to know him and I just want to be left alone...why do people not get I don't want to hear about their fun, their trips, their awesome weekends..my 24/7 life is the same morning noon and night..
One thing I did learn was once you get a new prescription and have no major side effects, try to get the same pharmaceutical company each time you refill. I found there is a big difference between the pharmaceutical companies when it comes to fillers/binders/coatings used on pills.
Fillers are used in pills to make them large enough for the average person to handle. Some common fillers are lactose [milk sugar], microcrystalline cellulose, corn starch, sugars, whey and yeast.... and if a person can't tolerate say lactose, well it will cause stomach problems if the pill contains a lactose filler.
Binders are used to make the pill ingredients stick together when the ingredients are compressed to make the pill. Some common binders are povidone, xanthan gum, and Carbopol [an acrylic resin].
Now comes the coatings on the pills that help to prevent the pill from dissolving too soon. The coating also keep you from tasting or smelling the active ingredients. A common coating is shellac.... that's right, shellac.
Then there are the colors, some people are allergic to some dye colors. And flavors used to make the pill taste better, such as grape flavoring :)
I was taking meds awhile ago that made me nervous about flying but I got over that...and now cannot fly anywhere anyhow. This same medicine gave me a huge phobia about snakes but that is over too, not that I like being surprised by them in the garden and I would still avoid the "reptile house" at a zoo. I am learning that medicine can have really unpredictable side effects besides the usual digestive issues.
Well, that presents a problem with me, too, as I now have a fear of flying and my driving limit is now 5 miles tops. All this happened once my parents started to depend on me to drive them all over hill and dale, and that became very stressful for me. My fear of flying started up a few years ago when I had cancer and was taking meds that had a side effect of panic attacks. Oh great, now what. Well, I just won't go, I have no choice :(
Since this is a "whine thread" I am going to keep in tradition and whine. For several weeks now I have been trying to get W-mart and T-Direct to ship a tablet I ordered to me so I could use it to sit by my mother's side keeping her company and playing her games with her. I bought it from T-Direct through W-mart. T-Direct and system upgrade issues and W-mart cancelled the item because it was hanging in their system too long. When I was told to reorder it the price was $130 more. I finally received a shipping confirmation this morning. Too bad I don't really need it anymore.