I'm tired of cooking/preparing 3 meals a day. It's just the two of us but boy oh boy can that woman eat!! She stays slimish, I get fattish. It's bad enough I do everything here much less start making her one thing and me the other. At times I feel guilty when I buy her fast food cuz of the nutritional value....not to mention I eat it too.
On the other hand. Their having a nice time and seeing interesting things doesn't in itself make things any worse for us. The world goes on, even if we're not participating in its more exciting bits right now. You'll feel better about it if you take a lively interest in what they've been up to, which is at least one way of sharing in it if only on the margins. And tell them next time they can bring you back some chocolates - and arrange to take over when it's *your* turn for a break!
Mom is settled in the nursing home, but looked at me with such sad eyes tonight when I told her she should close her eyes and rest, and said, "I don't want you to go away." My heart just broke. It was all I could do to hold it together at that moment, and later, when I had to leave. She's so afraid to be alone.
My heart just aches for her tonight. I hate this part of life. I know it's inevitable, unavoiadable, etc. Doesn't mean I have to like it.
my BS has only begun . ill probly have a homemade windmill and low voltage lighting at some point . my aunt is my hilljack inspiration . her and her husband built their own shack too . for months they walked across floor joists from the kitchen to the living room until they could afford floor decking . if shes alive in another year id love to have her living here . thats a bit farfetched but then PIA aint in the best of health . she could crappy off before her mom does .
gershun , my mothers legacy lives on every day . did you know she invented copper wire ? she was fighting a jewish person for a penny ..
My dear Mom passed from this life tonight at 8:30. I guess if I had stayed for a few more hours today I could of been there.
With all the hours I sat beside her it seems like the fact she passed when I wasn't there means maybe thats what she wanted.
Thank-you all for all of your kind thoughts and sympathies. I think I am in shock right now. The next few days, weeks, months will be hard but I will get through it knowing that my Mom is no longer in pain and is with the good Lord in heaven.
I seem to be the only one left keeping vigil. I sit there and count her breaths. I feel I am being morbid now. My siblings visits have lessened. They know.
I know too but I am compelled to keep sitting there.
The pastor from my Mom's church left a message for me. I e-mailed him cause I know I will break down if I talk to him and since I don't really know him.........well you know.
I had to go home. If my mom dies tonight I will be back tomorrow even though I know its not good for me. I'm waiting by the phone now.
I would name them Oregano, Mint, Rosemary, Dill, Parsley and Basil. Their Mum of course is Mrs Dash