I'm tired of cooking/preparing 3 meals a day. It's just the two of us but boy oh boy can that woman eat!! She stays slimish, I get fattish. It's bad enough I do everything here much less start making her one thing and me the other. At times I feel guilty when I buy her fast food cuz of the nutritional value....not to mention I eat it too.
Left the pills off at my parents house when the discussion turned to Mom's hearing aids. Dad thinks Mom needs a more expensive hearing aid because the one they bought six months ago isn't helping. Hmmm, what part don't they understand is that Mom's ears are 97 years old and she's been slowly going deaf over the years. Plus Mom is afraid to put the ear piece too deep into her ear as it might hurt.... HELLO.
I got to keep reminding myself *it's their choice to do what they wish to do, thus take the responsibility that comes with those choices*.
When I hear this, all I can think about is "I Love Lucy" when Lucy use to buy a new dress and hide it from Ricky :0
I fight a lot of feelings of resentment, and for a long time I pretty much hated a lot of people along the way, until I realized that all that was doing was making me feel any more ill than I felt already.
I saw some posts this morning on Facebook by the girlfriend of my oldest nephew, both of whom have virtually abandoned Mama a long time ago...I have loved this young man and been so proud of him all his life...until now...Mama was always so good to him and now he is off on his own, does't give a flying flip about his Dad, my Mama, me or anyone or anything else other than his own self serving needs..same with his girlfriend..doesn't work, sits on her butt all day long living off my nephew, yet spews her views right and left about what life is all about and how people ought to live their lives etc. etc. blah blah..Bull$***.....it makes me furious. what do two kids who have never had one stinking thing to be responsible for every known of what we are going through..but again, thinking of it drives me mad...I guess that's their business if they choose to be self serving donkeys...and then again, I guess they saw their Mom and also their Dad, my brother, be pretty much NON PRESENT all those years so I guess their following in the footsteps.
So back to the day at hand..I guess I'll just continue with my efforts at clearing out more clutter and getting the house organized...and keep an eye on Mama. It's so hard to sit here and see her unhappy..she looks so unhappy today...it is heartbreaking..yet I know all I can do is what I AM doing and making sure she is comfortable and knows she is loved...At least the sun is out today...this is a hard road...and a lonely one. I know I am not going to be the same afterwards...heck I'm not the same now....but I think for me to carry on later on I know I am going to have to stay focused on just doing what I am doing and know that later on I will have no regrets...and I will continue on with life in whatever way I need to for ME....for the FIRST time in my life...God willing.....
na na na NA !!
gotta get out today , and work at mike's .
s'colder'n a well diggers a** , in the klondikes .
gotta make money , for my female lackey .
her name is heather , but i call her crack - ey ...
she wants to work seven days , without no slack.
she hasnt seen the x - rays , of my freakin BACK ..
I'd like to not say "hurry home" but your weather is going to be rough and well, we want you safely home.
If you have an extra garbage bag, pile it one, and whoosh you go!!
I LOVE that you took you dog.
Again be safe on your trip (home).
I'd like to not say "hurry home" but your weather is going to be rough and well, we want you safely home.
Staying in a cute little mountain cabin, but "mountain" means exactly that, and I had to park at the bottom of the very steep (and now, snow-covered and icy) road that goes to the cabin, and hike up to the cabin when I got back from dropping my son off tonight. Tomorrow morning, I'll have to pack the rest of my gear out with me, along with the dog, so that will be interesting. Dog, dog's blanket, purse, laptop computer in a case with a shoulder strap, and a couple of fabric grocery bags of stuff to haul down with me - unless I want to make 2 trips, which I really don't. That hill is STEEP. I was puffing like a racehorse when I got up here. LOL I think I'll stuff as much as possible into a trash bag and sling it over my shoulder like Santa Claus. Kinda wish I had a plastic sled to pile it on and I could slide it down behind me....or I could load the stuff, the dog and me all in the sled and go WHOOSH down the mountain to the van. LOL
I have been adding natural honey and probiotics to Mama's ensure concoctions and for her it seems to be regulating her system to where things are a bit more normal....the honey I found recently is some of the best I have had a a long time and I have always heard it has natural healing properties..as long as your not allergic to it...I could eat that whole jar with a spoon....
I've been in the kitchen making a giant mess with my Ninja Blender coming up with a fortifying juice mom will drink. So far a made a full blender containing a cup of plain greek yogurt, 2 apples, an entire bag of spinach, 2 cucumbers, 2 red peppers, 4 oranges, cup of frozen strawberries, blackberries and blueberries from the yard last year that I froze, so that's 3 cups berries altogether, 2 banana's, handful of grapes and a cup of broccoli. To keep it somewhat thinned I did add 2 strawberry ensures. Then.... I filled up 4 ice trays with my concoction and am freezing it now. My plan is to add 2 cubes to each ensure she drinks, maybe even more, depends on how much actual food I can get her to eat. So far she drank a BIG glass of it already :) Now, if my kitchen would clean itself I'd be a happy camper!
Do you find that to be true for you too? Maybe what I need is a good cry.
It was time for Mom to order and they had an unusual amount of included food and choices to make. She had been there once before but she was very indecisive and although I explained how the special worked, she wasn't showing any signs of getting it, dissed me and said outloud how the waiter can explain it to her. Being hungry and rolling my eyes when the waiter came. I ordered quickly and my mother still wasn't ready. All I said were 2 words to the waiter: and I said it under my breath, but you know about selective hearing: I said to him, "Have fun."
"Well!! That's my daughter. I wish I had a different daughter. She's so mean to me..."
Let that pass, but geez. How much can one take of this crap? Still I am very grateful things are not worse! Ok. Done whining. I'm back home where I don't have to deal with anything else but me. The internet radio station is playing soft music with nature sounds. I'm coming back to my normal.
AAHHHHHHHHH. And thank God for you guys!
I saw the news segment on the house for the vet also. Brought tears to my eyes. Happy tears.
Dark chocolate covered goji berries?? ohmahgod that sounds too good to be true!! What isle are they on ;)
It's still early here so I've not had enough coffee to fully energize and reading hope's energetic day is more fun:) Everyone's been fed, cleaned and taken for a quick walk and now it's a medley of late morning snores laying in the sun that's shining through the window :) which includes mom since the sun is hitting her recliner in just the right spot. It might be 40 outside but the window sun is nice n toasty!!
I think I am a little delirious because I actually accomplished something today...and did so early so now I have other projects earmarked....
I saw the segment on the news about the building of the home for the veteran and that was excellent. I have begun trying to help organizations and folks directly or groups I KNOW I can trust...there are way too many groups out there who have suddenly found a new way to zero in on folks and make a ton of money and could actually care less about what they allege to be trying to help..a sad but true fact of life now...God will get em one day for that...I hope...
Well, it is cold, dreary and icky out so a good day to continue my indoor progress....I sat down to take a little break and the longer I am sitting the more my mind starts wandering towards the word "nap"...no no NO...must not do that on a day that has started out so ambitiously.... :)