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I hope I will still love the elderly and have compassion for them once my mother is gone. That concerns me today -- right now I just want to leave her and everyone else behind but since that is not possible I came to this site for encouragement. Who would have thought we'd get encouragement from another persons difficult time with their loved ones? I guess it is the realization that I am not going crazy like I think I am and I am still lovable when my mind says I'm not. That's my encouragement for the day!
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Kaydeb, it took me a while to find the "contact us". They make it so difficult to find it. click on the link below and explain the situation. I'd also include on your explanation the site link of that discussion. I'd also recommend changing your name, avatar or password.

https://www.agingcare.com/ContactUs.aspx
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Well in my caregiving business, I am doing excellent. It wasn't until I came here and found out that a far removed now acquaintance maximized my aging care.com screen and took it on his own to ask a question with my screen name? What I am surprised at, if you look at my questions, is that people here were vicious. Stating all sorts of things like dual personalities. KayDeb deserves a Darwin, to me very very hurtful, and that is just not appropriate in any way. I have spent the last two hours, just because enough is enough, and what is this site all about. What about someone whom is in charge short reminding people very seriously that there is no badmouthing here. Someone hijacked my computer. That is not my fault.
Geesh, this has been by far the most frustrating thing in my life. How can I get that question erased. I have asked a few people that I know are outstanding to help and write a public comment to these people. Caregivers have enough stress. Who in the world has enough time to write derogatory comments about others.
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Lavender I'm so sorry. It hurts terribly to lose one of our furkids. Jazzy may be gone but her spirit will live on forever in your heart.
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Hi everyone - please excuse the typos I am working on a tablet. I will be moving in with my neighbor tomorrow. I still miss m5 cat but my vet sent m


e a sympathy card and a plaster dish with jazzy's name and paw prints on it. I cried and cried. It was such a nice thing to do and was totally unexpected. They also sent meo an angel cat pin. I think of ya'll a lot and hope you all take care.
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Book - I found a powdered roach spray and it worked great. I am really happy that you got It under control. One less probleem to deal with. Take care of you.
Red - good to see you here. Take care of you.
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GC - it is so hard to not react to someone when they yell at you and talk mean. I experiences this with my mom. When I finality stopped reacting to her it got better. I would tell her that I was doing the best I could and left the room. I think your mom is looking for someone to blame for the situation and is at a loss at how to deal with it. Please take care of you and your son.
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Book, sounds like that spray is a keeper!
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P.S..I'm going to buy more of that spray! I'm going to use it around all our windows and doors.
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Mystery solved! Just this morning, another upside down cockroach dying. That got me to serious think while putting my load in the washer. I decided to check that really really cheap ant/roach spray (only $2-some!) from Home Depot. I love this spray because when it sprays wide - like a rectangle shape not in circles. So, when I'm spraying the kitchen floor of the ants, I can literally spray from the entrance to the kitchen/livingroom entrance a wide uninterrupted line. This has dramatically cut the ant trails from the kitchen to dad's end table.

I bought the ant spray because it was cheapest cost. I just looked at the label on it. Kills on Contact. Keeps killing up to 6 weeks (!!!) , unscented. So, that's why the roaches are dying in the area where I had sprayed from sliding door to kitchen/livingroom door. Yes, we do have a home-made door between our kitchen and the livingroom withi locks on both sides on the top, middle and bottom. This was done when mom became violent. We had to close off the kitchen because of the gas stove and knives and we couldn't secure the sliding door so that she couldn't wander out at midnight. So, the solution was to put a door between the livingroom and the kitchen.
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I'm glad. Dad has been on the roll today. Lots of accusations. When I ask him what did he say, he says he's not talking about me. Liar! I heard his words. He's been doing a lot of accusings lately. I'm going to hit the sack now.
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Thanks Book, a laugh first thing in the morning is priceless....
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An online friend sent me this. I'm sure for those of you who've been online a lot, you may have also seen this. I'm not sure who the writer is. But I thought you all might enjoy it. Perhaps, smile like it did for me at the ending.

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A nice story - the elderly are beautiful.

When we get older we think differently, don't we?
This letter was sent to the Principal's office after the school had sponsored a luncheon for the elderly.

An elderly lady who won a radio at the luncheon was writing to say thank you. This story is a credit to all humankind, especially if you are familiar with the Elderly.
Smile it's a beautiful day!

Dear Kean Elementary,

God bless you for the beautiful radio I won at your recent senior citizens luncheon.

I am 84 years old and live at the Springer Home for the Aged. All of my family has passed away. I am all alone now and it's nice to know that someone is thinking of me. God bless you for your kindness to an old forgotten lady.

My roommate is 95 and has always had her own radio. Before I received one, she would never let me listen to hers, even when she was napping.

The other day her radio fell off the night stand and broke into a lot of pieces. It was awful and she was in tears. Her distress over the broken radio touched me and I knew this was God's way of answering my prayers. She asked if she could listen to min, and I told her to kiss my a**.

Thank you for that opportunity.

Sincerely,
Agnes
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Onedoor, I forgot. BUT, I have noted down that I need to go to the clinic to pick up my cholest refill (uhm..since last week but never got around to it...) So, I wrote down - cholest pills & make appt.

Hi Austin! I hope you had a good time despite the terrible weather there.

It's 7am. I needed to drink water. Walked into the kitchen, scouted the walls and floor for roaches. Nothing. Will open the back door to air out the stuffy kitchen. Checked for roaches on the door knob. (Ugh! I once GRABBED a roach hiding behind the knob.) Nothing. Great. Turned towards the fridge and froze. An upside down roach, kicking. Uhm... I did NOT spray any roaches lastnight. Nor did I spray the room. This is the SECOND upside down roach in a week (that I did Not spray.) Something in our kitchen is affecting these roaches. For a while this was happening in our restroom. Now we rarely have roaches in the bathroom. They seem to die on their own without any help from me. sigh.. chemical in the air that I cannot smell?
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Welcome home Austin. hope the weeds did not get too tall while you were gone.
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Welcome back Austin... was wondering where you were....hope the trip was fun but good to see you here... love ya
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Just got back on Tue from being away for over 3 weeks-never again being away for so long it is too hard to catch up-but had a good time first in PA and then in LA-still trying to get back in the groove.
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ok Book, cant remember what time it is where you are but DONT FORGET TO CALL THE DOCTOR!!!!!
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Red, makes us wonder how any of us survived to become loving functioning people....and guess we would have done most anything to see a parent pick US over the craziness and pain....you can't explain away the fear of being a young child and feeling paralyzing fear ..... of course there was no one to tell us it wasn't our fault, but I wouldn't have believed them, too much was directed AT me to not think I was the one that was messed up..... my father died alone... just as I knew he would.... that is a statement about his life.... not about his kids..... I am sorry you had to endure that.... but am grateful for the person you became....... lots of hugs to you.... and hope your shoulder is better....
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I was raised by a sadistic man who flunked the psych evaluation to be a prison guard...instead he got to practice on me the stepchild...they did have 2 children together but they were his...I am 65 years old now and have 2 kids and 5 grandkids from 7 to 22...I still have emotional scars and hang ups from some of the things my step dad did and said...Get your father away from your son! Verbal intimidation is as bad as physical...If your mom wants to stay with him in assisted living that is up to her but your first responsibility is to protect your child.
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Ladeem I guess we both have the same thoughts on abusive relationships
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Daughter send them back to Ohio on the first bus, plane, train or their car at the earliest possible moment. it sounds as though you did not offer them the option of staying in the first place.
You are in an abusive relationship you don't need to be married to someone for that to be the case. As CM says you are not causing your fathers disfunction. From what you say I don't feel that his behaviour is due to dementia, I see him as mentally ill and urgently needing treatment for that. I have seen others diagnosed with bipolar behave in much the same way and there is absolutely nothing you can do to change the behaviour.
I appreciate that you have just had a proceedure and were still feeling the effects of that but what happened had nothing to do with it. You were quite right to get out of the car and it is no surprise he left you alone. Nor is it a surprise you found him packing when you got home. he would not have come back for you. you are adults and could have called a cab would be his reasoning. It was all about him and the way he was feeling at the time which was totally unloved, unappreciated and angry that he had had to spend the better part of the day sitting in a hospital waiting room while you got all the attention. With the mentally ill they are always #1. their pain is always the most intense, when you are getting the flu they head for bed first if you are stupid enough to mention you don't feel well and expect to be waited on even if your temp is 104 and they just sneezed a couple of times. They way he was feeling at that moment he had to run away, all he wanted to do way be alone and find some peace. i don't know what he would have done, maybe gone back to Ohio or to a motel for a couple of days while he licked his wounds. He really can't help it it is part of the disease, he feels just as terrible on the inside as he makes you feel. Now that is not an excuse for bad behaviour nor should you tolerate it. but once you know how whatever is wrong with him 'works' you have to keep one step ahead like you have to with a hyperactive child. Anticipate what their next action will be and take steps to head it off at the pass. Confrontation never works. On the other side of the coin he would be totally devastated if anything happened to any of his family and have a very hard time dealing with that. he does not sound like a narcisistic man every if he has always been unpleasanr to those nearest and dearest. I am also going to guess when strangers are around he is the most pleasant person you could wish to meet. Your mother has always been the doormat so off course she sees anything you do to avoid his bad behaviour as confrontation. This is not a situation you are equiped to deal with at all unless you happen to be a psychiatrist in your spare time. I hope I have not upset you but I have to write it as I see it. Blessings
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GC, sounds like no matter what you do, react,don't react, he goes left... so NO, YOU ARE NOT RESPONSIBLE for his behavior!!!!!! And yes, you are in an abusive relationship.... when someone is treated this way and they think it's their fault.... IT'S ABUSE..... You are not abandoning them, you are saving your son and yourself....... so get that family intervention going ASAP.... your son does not deserve to have to have it explained to him it wasn't his fault either....
Sending prayers for a great and speedy outcome for you and your son....You have our support to not be abused, for any reason, by anyone..
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Thank you countrymouse.! ! I know I am not to blame, but I am the one that feeds into the negativity that escalates the situation.. I've never been in an abusive relationship, but I feel like this is reflective of what one is. I too, hope my siblings will realize this fate of my father.
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gccdaughter. Um. I just want to say one thing, because there are little phrases and passages in your posts that make me think you're not quite clear enough about this.

YOU ARE IN NO WAY TO BLAME FOR YOUR FATHER'S ATROCIOUS BEHAVIOUR.

I hope the family does wake up to reality and come to your aid very soon. God bless you x
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Unfortunately, I gave them this car. I feel I bring this on myself. I moved them back to Ohio last year, where they have their own home where my brother has been living since his divorce. Before I moved them back to Ohio, they lived in my guest house. I could no longer support them and myself. Since then, I have bought a new home. However it has a guest suite. They came down for my sons 1st Communion in May and haven't left. When I decided to sell my house last year , we had a major breakdown. I was told that I couldn't help a college friend who needed a place to stay. I am 47 single/widowed mom. I have been on my own until I decided to have a child after my husband passed in 2003. My parents have been there since my sons birth and moved in when he was 2. After this incident, I told them I was selling my house. They said they were gonna go back to Ohio. Great! They were shocked that I did not ask them to stay and move into the new home. I indicated that it was time for me to PARENT MY SON, without them telling me how, and without all the turmoil. My Father begs me to let them stay and that they understand, he'll behave . I did not give in. Unfortunately, 10 months later, I opened the door again. My son had his 1st communion in May and they have been here since. You are right ladeem. I need to live for my son. Veronica 91, I appreciate your advice. I have talked to my son to let him know that what Grandpa has done is not normal and by no means was any of this his fault. They will not take me or him away. That what I said to Grandpa that I needed to call the police, was because of the way he was acting. I didn't want him or us to get hurt. My mother feels that I am the root to my fathers antagonizing, because he knows he can push the right buttons until I. Myself snap and become unstable. My mother will call my siblings and the finger will always be pointed at me, simply because I am the one who created this monster just by reacting. After last nights episode, my siblings conclude that what he did was Unforgiveable. They don't see the bigger picture. That my father is becoming more unstablle. They agree that I did let it escalate, and again I should've kept my mouth shut. But I just got out of the freakin hospital to be left on the side of the road. I could not let my mother be alone. Reality is that they are ignoring the facts. I have one sibling that says If she had to live that closely to Dad, she would probably have to commit herself, my brother, who lives in their house, retreats, and avoids the confrontation, my other siblings don't care about him because he has always been a horrible man. My mother is dependent on him, and feels I am fueling his rage. My mother doesn't want to acknowledge this behavior, but I do believe he is getting worse and soon he will become a danger to himself and others his mentality is rage and hate the world. Cut people off on the road, let them hit me, He'll cause that accident just to prove his point, they were following too closely. That is not the right mentality. Who wants to intentionally cause an accident. Cause and effect. Innocent people get hurt with these childish games. . His problem is he has to be the one in control, he cannot admit that he needs help or anyone. My mother is afraid of the outcome, or the embarrassment or the attention it would bring. Veronica19 , as I have these thoughts, I do conclude he does need an evaluation., he will never go for that so for now, I send them home and let my brother experience what I have endured for the past 7 yrs, until he can't take it. And wait for someone to say Hey Dad is unbearable and needs professional help. To all who experience the demon we create in our parents. keep strong you are not alone. Thank you for the advice and I respectfully agree. But , for now I will have to wait for the family to come together as an intervention.
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This has gone beyond control it has become dangerous for all of you and for othesr out on the road.
Who does the car belong to? If it is yours don't allow him to drive it.
Go to social services, Catholic Charities or any other service in your area where you can talk to a social worker. Ask for their advice on what your options are. He has already used physical force on you and it can only escalate from here. He needs a psychological evaluation and if necessary medication to moderate his behavior. What does your mother want to happen. If she wants to be with him then they must go to some kind of assisted living situation.
Do you have any siblings who could intervene.
If he owns the car give him the keys and let him pack up but tell him in no uncertain terms that he will not be allowed to return to the house. if he tries to get in call the police and have him removed. he will probably get so mad that they will take him to the ER for an evaluation. Once there you can tell them you are no longer able to care for him and will not allow him to return to your home. he has already demonstrated violence against you and you are fearful for the safety of your young child.
Hard as it may be you do need to act now before it gets worse. Blessings
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If you can't leave for you, then leave for your son....
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Today I am recovering from breakdown. Yesterday, I had a colonoscopy done, keep in mind I can't drive today)so my Dad is driving. So on the way home my son says he was hungry, We stop at the McDonald's to get something for him and Ice cream for us. My Dad is thinking he get'sto eat too! He hears me saying we are not staying to mom and gets back into the car,Well little did I know, my father began pining away in his head a way as to how to antagonize me for not letting us dine in. We get on the highway, he intentionally passes our exit , to remind me who is in control now. ha ha ha. He says he's driving and he'll go the way he wants to go. 15 miles out of the way. I try avoiding the antagonism, but he just kept pushing. (I am still recovering from my colonoscopy and being discharged 1/2 hour ago.) minutes go by which seems like eternity, it has escalated to the point my Mother 77 gets out of the car at a stoplight, my 8yr old follows and Myself as well. Rush hour traffic not so easy for mom to cross the road, me recovering from my procedure also have a mensicus tear on the mend along with my son. Are left abandoned. yes it was our Choice to get out, but He actually LEFT US THERE AND WENT HOME. Thankful for the generosity of a complete stranger, he took us home. Upon our return , I find the car running. Him inside the house packing his bags to leave. This is one of his little games he plays , drives off for hours to make you worry if he has crashed, or his insulin, or he had heart attack. But this time, i turn the engine off lock the car get his stuff out bring it in,an refuse to give him the keys.I can't defuse the situation, it has escalated even more... He begins pushing me, threatening me, cursing and screaming at me ( all this in front of my son) I don't back down telling him that he needs to settle down that he has become unstable and I will call the police, now he threatens he'll have them take me away and my son taken away from me. Again all in front of my son. I walk away and ignore his outbursts and threats now he's starts on my mom. We all retreat to leave him pacing and shouting, He finally, walks out.(my father is overweight and can't walk too well), but Strangely enough made his way or got a ride somehow, to the church, Funny, Now calls me to come PICK HIM UP! My father is making me crazy, my father has done this to me one too many times, the antagonism and personal attacks, the antagonizing and riding my son is not healthy for for anyone. his health and wellbeing or mine. He has no remorse, or guilt for his selfish behavior. My father fails to realize that I am his daughter, not his wife. I am not submissive and will defend what's right and admit I am wrong when I am wrong. The biggest problem he and I have is The Control Issue. Who has it. It is my home,yet i am the one to retreat to my room 85%of the time. How do i set the boundaries, I have allowed my father to overrun my house, regret what happened yesterday, and I am left saddened. . This episode was all brought on because he couldn't eat. Is there anyone out there that has these demons I am ashamed that my father can bring out such ugliness.
Sad thing is, I am still here. There to take care of them.
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Book do you think the roaches fly at you because they see the light from the open door behind you. What happens if you go ing with a flashlight. Could you try setting a plate with roach killer in the center of the room with a lighted candle in the middle and see if they ar attracted to that. Try not to burn the house down. dad would never get out without his shoes on at night.
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