The Caregiver... How are YOU doing today?

Stormy: Try some protein with your meals. Have nuts for snacks. A hard boiled egg at lunch. Complex carbohydrates and protein together are helpful. Maybe others have more suggestions. Hugs, Cattails

Maybe ya'll can have some insight about this and it is about me. I have got something going on with my sugar. (hypoglycemia) i haven't been checked for it but i have all the symptoms of it. I have a hard time keeping it up unless i eat a full meal then it will stay up for 4 or 5 hours. I ate a bowl of mini wheats this morning with half a banana in it and i was feeling like it was dropping a hour later but it was 119. I am sick of feeling like i got to eat all the time to keep it up and half the time i'm not that hungry but i still have to eat before it drops last time i checked it, was 90. And i felt alright at 90 but sometimes i feel terrible at 90. I just don't understand it. Anybody have any idea why its doing this????? love and hugs stormy

beckncall53 - dad has just turned 83. i have NO life of my own, i have NO one to talk to except you all, I dont know how to have him committed,, even tho he wont go, as he grew up in an orphanage, he is NOT a nice person.. and i could tell you other things that would show you he is and always has been abusive in EVERY WAY you can name, i am the only one of 3 that has stepped up to the plate due to his health and age. it will be a while before i miss him when he goes, lol, he talks wayyyyyyyyyyyyy to much and always about himself, (i dont care/ive heard all of his stories) and please call me debby, not debby a, lol the a is part of my last name, i thank everyone for being there you have no idea what im going through, i feel terrible with the bad thoughts i have like damn hes still alive?, great another day with him? dont even know how to pray any more, is it a bad prayer, a good prayer, is god watching? i am so tired of him and his company, that i just want to run away and cant. not yet. god isnt done with me or him yet,, hugs to all

Hi all. I'm still very tired. I'm either very, very tired or just plain exhausted. Today, I'm just very tired. I have dial-up connection which takes 15 seconds to mover after hitting Enter. Plus keeps disconnecting. So, for the past couple of nights, I'm just too tired to read the different threads in Slow pace. Hard to keep up with everyone. Since nothing I can do - for now - about dealing with my exhaustion, I decided that I can do something about the dial-up. I'm going to get wireless. This will help cut down my 5-hr online (trying to read all the threads on snail pace internet) to at least 2-21/2 hours. Then maybe I can sleep early. I skip one night, and then I have so much pages to read in order to catch up! I started reading this during dinner at 6pm, it's now 12:15am and I only got to read 3 threads!

I think the reason I'm just very tired compared to being so exhausted for the past few days is that I was complimented today at work. Our company has a new accountant and controller. They came to our office to meet us. The controller asked me how long I've been working in this company. When i said 20 years, he looked shocked and blurted out, "How old were you when you started working here?! 13? " I may be age...(counting with my fingers, stopped counting since I was 34 years old)..46 years old but I look like a 13 year old. People Rarely think I'm 20. But, I tell you, taking care of 2 bedridden parents is causing me Lot of Gray hair!! It's just sprouting out like crazy. After their visits, I've been smiling a lot. It's nice to be complimented. It lightens our soul, our burden in life for a while. Time to sleep. Take care and stay hydrated!
-It's hot here but not as bad as there. So, you all take extra care of yourself and your "wards."

I hope everyone, especially those having a rotten day, get as many smiles and as much laughter as I do reading these posts! My trainer is going to laugh when I tell her the Caregiver Diet is chocolate, ice cream, and my other vices...caffine and nicotine. Beck, if I gave up chocolate entirely, I think my joints would fall apart. I'm convinced it's the only thing holding them together! And my a*s be dam**d! LOL Too hot for the gym tonight. It's 95 here, which isn't normal. I was sweating just standing outside. Figured I must have lost 1/2 pound just walking to my car. LOL
waverun-please know that you are not alone. We all hate the disease, and struggle to help our charges no matter what the issues are. Being sick takes so much away from a person. Blessings and hugs to you.
Jam-Hugs to you, too, with the Col declining even more. I can only imagine how the young aides seem like children to her.
Ladee-you got through today. Yeah! Sending more hugs for tomorrow. Share one with S for me, okay? And one for your son.
Stormy-the answers will be the same whether it's tomorrow or in 9 days. With what you've said about your sis, you made a good choice to make sure she gets to talk with the doctor. Waiting is hard, so I'm wishing you angels with lots of patience. Hugs.
Mom needed a refill on a prescription. The doctor can send it by computer to her mail order service, but Mom prefers to have the written form, and mail it herself with a check. They were great about doing it that way, even though it costs gas to go get and a stamp to mail. Pennywise and pound foolish. I've struggled my whole adult life to not do things just because that's how they're always done. Watching her reminds me, and makes me sad for her.
Back to the heat...for once, I agree with Mom. It's too cold in this house! If debris is falling over by Brandywine, then hell just froze over here for me agreeing with Mom. LOL Hubby's got central air, and fans, and spends most of his time in the cool basement anyway. I just put sweatpants on, and am headed to watch TV with him. If I add socks and a hat, do you think he might turn the temp up???
Goodnight, and better tomorrows.

debbya...my heart hurts after reading ur post. Do u mind if i ask u a few ?'s..How old is ur Dad? Do u have any family near by that r willing to help u care for him? How long have u been his primary caregiver?..There is not one of us who have posted on this thread that have not experienced the feelings u r going thru. Being a caregiver requires everything we have just to get thru 1 day. I do understand ur stress n the feeling of desperation to just get away..It saddens me that the relationship between u and ur father is so distant, but i also kno that the distance grows out of the anger n resentment we feel towards them for changing our lives so dramatically. We feel that our lives r over, n consumed by the health issues of our family member. We feel unappreciated,disrespected, alone, and robbed of living lives of our own. We become prisoners of a disease, or health issues due to age related decline. It's all the same....we're still prisoners. Sometimes, there are jst no great words of wisdom to share when ur in that place. I jst wanted u to kno that all of us on this caregiving journey have days, weeks, n sometimes years of feeling the emotions ur feeling now. There have been many days that i've often wondered why bother going thru it all another day. But in the deepest part of my heart, when i can manage to see thru some of that anger n resentment, I know very well why i go thru this, day after day...I do it for myself...i need to kno that i did everything in my power to take care of my dad, who is suffering from ALZ, because, no matter wat u may feel right now, these days will end, and wat will be left r memories . That may sound great, right about now, but in the long term, those memories will be the only touch stone any of us will ever have again. What u feel u won't miss about ur dad now, will change wen he is no longer here. I kno that may sound to simple, or sappy, but never the less...it is true. Watever feelings ur having about ur dad now can still change for both of u becuz u still have time to change it. It won't b easy..this i kno..but it's worth the effort while he's still here. After he is gone,debbya, all we r left with as daughters, then caregivers, r our own regrets of things we wish we would have done different. Everything in this life is temporary..As i see it...God has placed a challenge in ur life..U can find a way to accept it and learn some things about urself and teach some things to dad along the way. Believe it or not...this could b an epiphany in ur life thru the decline of ur father's. Don't miss an opportunity for smthing beautiful to happen between u n ur dad by staying angry n resentful. We will all grow old one day, God willing, n we'll
need the love and help of those who loves us.,no matter how miserable we may be. U r a wonderful daughter, even if u don't feel that u r treated as such. Give urself a "inner" break...b kind to urself for jst a little while...u've earned it....then, when u r feeling a bit stronger....cherish wat u can of this opportunity.....u will be so thankful that u did. Hang in there, Debbya...we're all here pullin for u. There are plenty of friends here to shower u with love and support....a place to get angry and vent, a place to jst listen wen u need to cry it out...we're here for all of it. Please come back n visit with us. We r now part of ur cyber-family...we're hard to get rid of...but, i think u'll find much peace here. God Bless u...and much love n hugs to u.

I got the mnl to take a bath for she missed last wk. I also got her to wash her hair for its been 3wks since she washed it. Let me tell u that I got the, "go-to-hell' look too. Oh well, at least her hair is clean. Hubby had the house at 85 degrees n when I said something he just said, "well, I was going to shut the window but its only one degree higher outside." I'm not sure why he didn't crank up the air? His mom was still wearing her sweat pants like she always does n a light jacket in the house! She needs some meat on her boney bones. I had to turn the fan on me for I was freaking hot n I adjusted the air-condition a notch or two.
Tomorrow, will be the mnl first day alone at the church respite care for 4hrs. Hopefully she behaves herself n she will have a great time while we get a small breather break. Hopefully, it will help her from having these crying spells too that she claims she is not having. I know she has mention in the past that she feels like she is in r way but we both told her that she is not n that she helps us out as well as we try to help her. Then she will look at her old house diagnoally across street n say, "Yep! That was my old homestead." We try to let her know that we r living all together in our house as a team. I know its got to be very hard on her with all the changes but we r doing the best we can right now. Now, who knows what tomorrow will bring out of her, the negativity, the happy, or the crying spells. Hopefully this church place will help her get engage with other people n she will feel better about herself, maybe. Wish us luck.

nothing but stress, my dad is a talker on a natch, hes boring me to death, i have no life and am bummed every morning that he wakes up too !! oh great another day with mr. miserable. hows my day? same as the last one. i drag through playing hours of cards, then poof its dinner time, then poof reruns for 4 hours then poof its finally nite time, and i start all over the next day.. get away? i wish.

Sweet Stormy...Im sry that u have to wait so long for the test results. I can only imagine wat must b going thru ur mind....Please make sure that u n sis r together...watever the outcome....ur going to need each other.....much love...many hugs

Waverun...I can completely relate to wat you are dealing with with mom. I agree with u....I hate this disease, too. Im caring for my father, who still lives in his own home with my mom, but im there at least 3-4 times a day. Dad does the same thing wen it comes to repeating things every 15 min, or so. He's now into a phase of his disease where he is absolutely obsessed with phone #'s. Mainly mine and my husbands. I must get 10 -15 calls a day asking wat # he has called and if i am his daughter. It gets to be so exhausting, becuz, in my heart, i kno he cannot control wat is going on in his mind. I have to remind myself at all times, that he is not the dad that raised me. I have to realize that as broken n lost as i feel....he must feel 100x worse than i do. I'm learning to pick my battles with dad, otherwise, i would b in a rubber room by now. I kno you're tired n i'm so sry that the load of her care is left to you. I keep reminding myself of the new memories that dad n i r making now, and that arguing is futile, becuz they don't understand any of that. I try to jst use compassion, patience and a great deal of empathy for the losses they have suffered from this horrible disease. I remember at the age of 10, laying on my bedroom floor with my best friend talking about the day that we would have to accept the loss of our parents. I remember tellin this friend, "O no,,,my parents r different from any others,,,they will live forever." I really believed that with all my heart. How could God take away my daddy, best friend, mentor...knowing that my life would b destroyed without him. There was a time that wen anyone would mention my parents passings someday....i was inconsolable....I prayed to God every morning n nite to help me be able to find strength wen that day came. Well...the time has come, and i can say that God has honored each n everyone of those tear filled prayers becuz i have had 3yrs to accept the decline and build a new relationship with dad. I've always referred to this part of the process as "the slow goodbye",...Because God had blessed me with these 3yrs, i'm in a stronger place wen the time comes to say my final goodbye. None of this is easy...there are no magic remedies....but i certainly believe that God has been holding my hand thru these last 3 difficult years, n when it's dad's time to rest,,God will let me kno when He lets go of my hand, becuz then, He'll kno that i can walk it on my own... I'm so sry that u r in pain and feel lost, but please kno that u have come to the right place with this thread. A place of love, friendship, compassion, advice....or jst the need to cry...we all do that here, becuz we need too. Not everyone can be a caregiver...we r a special group, and u r certainly included with all of us. I hope u come back and let us kno how u r doing. We really want to hear from you....until then.......much love to u n huge hugs from CA...

oh man what a start today and i had a bit of my supernatural marathon with my friend.. today is another hot one at 108 again tg for low humidity but rain be nice. i am so tired of it all and hubby is reverting to last yr and talking about dying. he doesn't like what i have in store 4 him but i am putting my foot down on his nonsense. please pray i get this secondary job working as a teachers aide need the extra money.

Toady I am still learning how to deal with my Mom. I hate this disease and if God really existed, would he be watching me and laughing at how sometimes I get so frustrated at my Mom. My Mom can still bathe, dress, do her hair, do chores etc. But, the constant repeating of herself really gets to me sometimes. It is hard to have any quiet time to myself. I was laid off May 31st and I am stressed about getting a new job. I have 6 sibblings that choose not be help. ( except my older sister). My Mom cannot live alone as she forgets everythig. He companion of 13 years walked out on my Mom April 29th. I have had her since at my house. I got her on some good meds, so the out bursts of anger are no longer present.

I fell broken and lost. I look at my Mom and I see a very scared person who cannot grasp what is happening to her. I want to fix it for her. All she talks about is Howard and how much she wants him back. She crys and repeats all day about him. She calls him on the phone constantly. He is so nice to her. He wants to meet her and me for lunch Friday. Not sure that would be a good idea. He feels so bad for her and selfish. He just could no longer take the hitting, the name calling, the anger that over takes her. I do not blame him at all...I am so tired. I hate this disease and what it is doing to my Mom....I love her dearly. I hate that there will be a day when she needs around the closk care...I dread it..

Lost and alone in CA

P.S I would carry him myself tomorrow but i feel like me and sis need to go to this appt. In case it is bad news i will be sitting there like a lump on a log.

My God just called the lung drs office and the secretary said that we had a appt for june 28th at 11:15. But she could work us in tomorrow at 2:30. I knew that was not going to work cause sis has to work by herself on wednesdays. So looks like we are looking at another 9 more long days. huh...... I will try to catch up on posts tonight. Love and hugs to all of ya'll stormyyy

Ladyleidy...first things first....love ur profile pic....adorable!
Next....I have found this to be true........the more gin u drink......the better ANY 40yr old man looks!!! lol Hugs to ya

Im back.....whahahahahaha!!!!
I left the house early this morning to get to dads because there are some "very Handsome" tree trimmers that r in the backyard cutting down my childhood tree...i spent many afternoons sitting in that tree writing stupid poetry to stupid boys!!! Can anyone relate to those days? And to think i never got published....it was some good sh*t!!! Oh well, jst wasn't my calling n now it's not my childhood tree anymore,either........boo hoo...o hell...who am i kidding....i can barely get up onto the toilet seat n wipe my own ass let alone climb a damn tree.

When i arrived this morning, dad was already in full blown "sundowners" right after the sunrise!!! Wat is that all about??? I use to love that song "Sunrise, Sunset" from Fiddler On the Roof...remember that?? well........i HATE that song now....now it jst goes "Sundown...Sundowner"....lol
Seemeride...i think i need to visit the wine/water cooler...lol i feel sooooo dehydrated.......care to join me? One day, maybe. u make me laugh!!
JoJo...congratulations on ur new job. I kno how torn u must be feeling being away from ur grandma, and ur mom, of course. I think wat all the ladies have said is so true and profound. Ladees comment."You're moving on towards ur new future n so is ur grandma." That's a beautiful way to look at the circle of life that repeats itself throughout time. Ur grandma must be so, so proud of you. I kno that all of us r proud of u, JoJo....hang in there...you're pretty incredible, girlfriend....huge hugs

Jam....i had this visual of u on the floor, laughing with me, n i jst want to make sure that u didnt injure urself in any way at my expense. Lets not forget.....we ladies do tend to be "bladder challenged" n, dear Lord, i hope u don't have wood floors...lol
Im sry that Col is in such decline. I completely understand how that hurts to witness day in n day out...love n prayers to u, Jam.

Stormyy..I will keep praying for dads test results to be good news. Much love n many hugs to u, sweetie...

Notlike...We have so much in common...did u kno? I'm SORE, too!!!!! lol Ur's is for result of a better reason....we kno where mine comes from! I'm so proud of u that ur keeping that up...good for u......As for the ice cream n choc. as a protein....here's my personal experience with that....I tried those food groups, thinking it was ok to "treat" myself now n then....then n now....until i started noticing the cellulite on my ass was spelling out Ben n Jerrys, and Hersheys......so...i went cold turkey!!! I think i might jst tattoo various desserts on my ass to hide incoming n existing cellulite..i'll b a walking menu....Jst don't think anyone would order from it..lol
Hope u r doing well, otherwise....love n hugs

Ok....gloves off...it's Lalalalaladee time!!!!!!! First, let me say that if there's anyone that can get thru a rough wk pulling double shifts...it's u, my friend. I think it would take a hell of alot more to knock u down....u have permission to trip up a lil, but u gotta get up....come on, GG....we're all in this caregiving life together, even wen we feel like checkin out! Ok...about the blog idea.....i appreciate ur support on such an endeavor, but i think u may be the only one that will follow me!!! Not that that's a bad thing.....i'm just soooo sensitive to possible rejection..NOT..HAHAHAHAHA Ur always in my thoughts n prayers, and that goes for ur son, too. LYL

Lily update....she looks pathetic. Still can't bear any weight on her front paws, so i took Jam's advice, and i'm bringing everything to HER....No dragon flies tho.....hugs to all u beautiful friends of mine n i'm sry for hoggin up the thread....i'm in a mood.....love ya all

Brandy, no wonder it broke apart and had sparks shooting out of it. Nice going.

Seem, that was def falling debris from 2 fronts. Now my husband, who has dementia, is acting up too.

I'm tired. Can't read so many stories even tho I want to. Someone please give me a general idea of how we r doing? lol Most days I smile but the slight hangover is getting to me. Don't worry guys, no caregiver duties last nite or today. Found a friend, had 2 drinks, and told stories and laughed. I'm sure I could have done it without the gin, but once in a while I pretend I am in my 2nd childhood. Hey if 40 yr old guys can do it, then this 54 yr woman can do it. I partied with a 40 yr old man last nite. Calm down, it's platonic, but he is nice to look at. Please everyone, do something, anything, to give yourself alittle smile and then daydream alot. xxox Karen (proud wild child of the 70's)

Well i was going to call the lung drs office yesterday but i didn't so i guess i will try to call them today to see if they have rescheduled his appt time. We still have not hear anything on his thoracentesis report. I guess no news is good news huh? I didn't see dad doing the tremors thing yesterday. And sis told me also that the other night when he was having the tremors that he got the strangest look on his face and he said that he just didn't feel right and she asked him did he need to go to the hospital and he said no. Dad is so envasive with his answers sometimes, if something is wrong with him we ask him how does he feel and he says i don't know. Huh.....Well i will chat with ya'll later. Love and hugs stormyyy

Good Morning all............have been catching up with posts and after I picked myself off the floor from laughing with beck thought I would say hi.......so glad you keep such a terrific sense of humor through everything.....but poor Lily!! I hope she doesn't chase anymore dragonflies.......if she is anything like my babies, she will now expect you to bring them to her!
Jojo...........happy to hear orientation went well. It's hard to watch our loved one turned into a zombie but sometimes that's the lesser of two evils.....difficult to watch also when they are screaming and there is nothing we can do about it. Her tongue is a combo of lack of circulation, some bacteria........nothing to worry about even though it doesn't look very pretty. Sending hugs and prayers to you all!
seeme......wow, no way would I pass up a breakfast like that......sounds like sil is going to be difficult during this..........you will get through it knowing what is waiting when you get home!
notlike......I am so impressed with all that you are accomplishing daily.....I get my exercise through you.....lol.......and my philosophy is protein can be whatever you say it is!
ladee......wish your care giving load was easier, it would be if there wasn't the mental stress from M all the time......S is such a sweetheart! Sending hugs!
stormy.........Dad's tremors are probably nothing to be worried about. If they don't recur or get worse then it was a passing thing and not to be concerned with. Glad to hear Father's Day was a success at your house.....sounds like you planned a very nice gift to hubby.

Talked with the col last night after supper......she was a little irritated with the children who kept feeding her food.......she couldn't tell us who they were. I had to feed her some birthday cake last week so it would appear that she is now past feeding herself. She is also asking to be taken directly back to her room after meals so she is isolating herself. I so hate the slow, downward spiral.......fast is so much easier to get through.

Hope everyone has a good day..............thinking of you all!

Notlike, In Caregiver World... Ice cream is protein, and tell your trainer thousands of caregivers said so......and choclate, don't forget the choclate..... have a good day....

Beck-thank you for the morning laughs! Whatever happens today, it won't be as bad or as funny as you and your dog in the drive through! Hugs.
Ladee-Angels to carry you through your tough week ahead. Remember, one day at a time. Tomorrow's problems will be there without you thinking about them ahead of time. And eventually, it will be the weekend. Hugs.
JoJo-Good for you! I hope you love your new job. Blessings to you, and peace for your Mom and Grandma. Hugs.
Well, I have produced three dinners in a row for the household, on top of being at the gym twice, and doing laundry. I need to hang up my Super Cape before I fall over from exhaustion! I'm praying the loaves and fishes thing keeps happening here, because everybody likes to eat and I really have no idea how we manage sometimes :) I worry, because I feel responsible to feed eveyone, but I know deep down inside we're doing alright. And my trainer at the gym thinks I should be eating more protein (isn't ice cream protein???).
Another day ahead...work, gym, grocery store (again!). Thank goodness it's leftover night.
A good day to all.

beck, thanks for the laugh first thing this morning. So glad you are hanging around the wine cooler.......uh, water cooler. Lily doing better today?

I decided on a quick and easy breakfast for the first day in Maine., Sunday, July 1. Wrote it to all the others. We'll take some country ham that doesn't need to be refrigerated, stop and get biscuits and eggs on the way out to the house on Sat evening. Ham and egg biscuits - voila! I've already been turned down by hubby's sister. I sent it at 10 PM last night, it is barely 7 AM here, and I have already been turned down for a meal............like we won't be working off that damn biscuit.

JoJo, like Ladee says. Just recently been there, done that. The hospice workers are wonderful people. I can't imagine doing what they do everyday, and most of them here just love what they do. G/ma is in good hands.

Brandy, was that a shooting star I saw last night or falling debris? Details....

Everyone have a good day.........later.........

Beck, you need a blog.... I'd follow it..... You could be our Caregiving Erma Bombeck..... think about it.... too funny... not about poor Lily, but the drive thru scene.....Hope Lily is feeling better today.... and you type very well with your toes.... and I am calling the Boy Scouts right after I get off of here, how dare they not be available in a time of need....thanks for the laugh, it was one damned long day for me....
And your bumper sticker is priceless, I had one that said Yo Mamma...my ex got irrate and took it off my car... I went and got another one and put it on his truck without him knowing, he drove for months with that thing and won't EVEN share what happened when he found it.... LOL....but will say it was worth it...
brandy, doesn't sound like being at your house was a good place to be yesterday....let us know what happened..... and I think you can by a used AVENEGER suit somewhere...... be prepared... always be prepared....
It's going to be a rough week, split shifts at work, taking son to the Dr. in between, and Fri. will be my 12 hour shift because M will have her transfusion that day.... and I choose to do this,, what the hell is wrong with me....
Love to you all, need to get going.... hugs to everyone...

JoJo, first let me say how very proud I am of you for doing what you need to do for your own future... it is my belief that your granny would want you to do this, when granny passes, you still have a life to live, and I know she is very proud of you... your mom knows that you love her... that you are in her and your grannys heart. Can't get much closer than that.... love is love, it transcends miles and obstacles, but you are preparing for your future and granny is preparing for hers..... she is very proud of you, as we all are... please keep us posted and know you and your family are in our prayers..... and happy to hear you are going to be in a good working enviorment..... that makes a world of difference.... hugs to you.....

first day of orientation for my new job....went really well....met some great people that I will be working with...mostly RN's....such caring people....it was sooo hard being away from my mom...knowing she spent most of the day sitting with grandma in hospice....granny just sleeps...and now her tongue has turned black...my heart is breaking that Im not there....I think mom is not telling me the whole store on how granny really is...they r keeping her sedated, so she's not getting any food at all...they did some swallow test and that didnt go well...i think mom wants the hospice to not sedate her tomarrow, to see if she can really fnction at all....being so sedated shes like a zombie, but they say without sedation, she just screams, is overly confused, they feel the sedation is the best thing, keep her comfortable and she would not be comfortable if not sedated....i reminded her of the objective of hospice...keep the patient comfortable in their final hours.....other than...she suggested I find out what I should do if granny passes while im at orientation..I could drive home for a few hours - im only a little over an hour away....mom insisted I didnt, not yet anyway....Ive been preparing myself for grannys passing for awhile now....my heart breaks for my mom...I am thankfull that she has alot of support from her friends and my brother and niece... I feel so guilty not being there...just feel like im going to cry myself to sleep....6am comes pretty fast...i will try my hardest to get some sleep.....ok feeling better getting it out...sometimes a good cry does help :)....thanks all for listening

Stormy..my husband says i am officially "certifiable"....He says wen ur injuries actually coordinate with the dog....it's all over....Hope all is well with u.....hugs

Beck- That's pretty good girlfriend. Although i feel terrible for Lily i hope her little paws heal up soon. Poor thing. I bet that was a sight for the pharmacist to see. Love and hugs stormyyy

Ok, ladies...im typing this post with my toes to get some practice time in before next wk!!!!!!!!! JK! Here's another visual for you all.....I went outside this afternoon to water my snail-devoured flowers...they look like sh*t, but i watered them anyway. My dog,Lily was in the front yard with me and she has this obsession with dragon flies.. She's watching the shadow on the lawn of one that is hovering in my yard, then it flies out towards the street. She proceeds to follow this thing, all the while squealing like a pig and skidding across the hot asphalt in an attempt to catch it. Little did i know that she had managed to burn the pads right off both front paws down to the raw.. I was too busy paying attention to my dead flowers, so i didint realize what she had done. She then lies on the lawn, panting so hard from heat exhaustion, so i spray her with the hose to cool her down....she loves that...
Anyway..i get ready to go into the house n call her to follow me in, and she doesnt move. I call her again, n she stands up, but still doesnt walk towards me. She looked like a dog in headlites!!! (we dont do deer..lol) I went to find out what the problem was, n checked her paws. All the pad on both front feet r completely ripped off. It's disgusting n i feel so bad that i wasnt paying closer attention when she was skating in the street. So i proceed to pretend im a vet, and i put neosporin
on her paws n wrap them both in an ace bandage. She can barely put weight on her front feet, but she managed to get into my car n accompany me on a trip to the drive thru pharmacy ( no meds were mentioning..ha). As i pull up to the window, the lady looks at me n notices that i have a brace on my left hand, n my dog has both front paws wrapped in bandages. O, Lord...her face was priceless. I gave her a look n said , "Don't even ask".. So there i sit, the pharmacist laughing her ass off n im thinking..Hey, lady...a lil compassion, pleez...you're lookin at 2 broken, old bitches n u dont want to piss either one of us off! One bitch still has a pretty good right hook, and the other bitch bites.....! U kno, ladies...u may want to take a vote about allowing me to post on this thread....after all...i drive around with a bumper sticker that reads.."Warning....I'm old and have lost all sphincter control...so back off!"....Let's face it....i need help....lol love ya all