I apologize if the question sounds confusing but I'm fearful. I'm finally going to be able to check something off my bucket list. I'm taking a holiday trip next month. For those of you who know my history, you know that in the past, every time I had a trip planned, my father would come up with something to hinder me from going such as needing to go to the doctor or saying he thinks he needs the hospital. He is in a facility now and I'm terrified that something will happen. I have not told him that I'm going out of town and do not plan to until right before I leave. He has never wanted me to enjoy myself. He only wants me to serve him even now that he is no longer at home. This trip is important to me and I don't plan on letting anything interfere with it but my fear is clouding my excitement.
You are so correct! Most of the time we do not get what we give out! I have had to learn some hard life lessons!